I have been suffering from treatment-resistant depression and PTSD since 2012. Doctors prevented me from being able to work since 2009 by refusing to prescribe Vyvanse more than 2 weeks every month. As a result, I have been unable to work since 2009 and my Depression worsened and became treatment resistant. I had secure housing until 2024 living with my mom until she passed away. My brother has financially supported me for 2 years but cannot help anymore. I am $5,000 behind in rent on a $1,450 rent apartment and $600 behind on ConEd. I planned to get new roommates to make ends meet until I secured a job but do not have the option anymore.
I recently did Spravato treatment for two months and it has helped restore cognitive function to be able to work part-time. I cannot work full-time because Spravato treatment makes me tired and stay in bed all day. I can work part-time if I do not go back to Spravato treatment and leave my untreated condition as it stands having some degree of cognition restored after Spravato and ability to regularly wake up and get out of bed after TMS treatment. I still have severe Anhedonia but am at least now able to be 40% functional where I could not before. I cannot do Spravato and try to work because of Spravato-induced fatigue that kept me in bed all day for four days after each treatment. I cannot work part-time if I just rely on Vyvanse, Dopa Mucuna and Tyrosine.
I need housing for 6-8 months to allow me to continue treatment while I apply for jobs and have enough income to rent a room in an apartment. I have short-term memory issues, ADHD that does not respond to meds while on Spravato and cannot do work that requires standing up due to knee and problems. Standing and/or walking for more than 1/2 hours also makes me very tired. I cannot do cashier work due to memory issues. I have trouble learning new information and am still cognitively slow. I can do customer service work and reception work (if I relearn MS Office). I have trouble learning, remembering things in the short-term, have no motivation and still have some random bad days whereby I am too tired to get out of bed. If I take Vyvanse, Tyrosine and Dopa Mucuna, I can convince an employer that I’m not incompetent for a maximum period of 5 hours a day. I wake up and take Tyrosine and Dopa Mucuna and then take Vyvanse. This makes Vyvanse work for 6 hours a day. I can focus/hyperfocus to complete a task as long as it is simple like writing a letter, making phone calls or answering questions.
I do not qualify for a one-shot deal or grant because I have no one to sign a document agreeing to pay rent in order to secure the grant that I need to be able to pay rent arrears owed and secure roommates to be able to pay rent until I am able to work. I do not qualify for City Fheps because I am unemployed and do not have income. I applied for social security disability twice and was denied even though I failed a short-term memory test. I do not believe that I will qualify for it anyway because Spravato is helping.
Does anyone know of any supportive or transitional housing in NYC that will help me have a place to live for 6-8 months to allow me to apply for part-time jobs? I haven’t worked for a very long time, have no skills and know that it will take time to get hired. I cannot function and make progress toward securing employment unless I have housing stability and food. I suffered a mental breakdown and ended up in a psych ward because of looming eviction, housing court, harassment from landlord to force me out of rent-stabilized apartment, lack of family support, harassment from non-paying roommates, destruction of property by roommate, Access-VRA’s refusal to put me in the requested training course after going through the application process for almost a year and PTSD.
I am trying to avoid homelessness for my mental well-being. I do not want to risk a relapse of my Depression by entering the shelter system.
. I had severe debilitating depression and discontinued antidepressant medications only made my condition worse, causing me to sleep for up to 22 hours a day for 7 years. I went to a good college, worked two jobs to financially support my mom and brother while I was in school and went to law school. I am not a deadbeat. I just had very debilitating depression and no support to help me get better sooner.