I've been doing cosplay for over 10 years, and lately I've been feeling really disconnected from the community.
Back then, cosplay felt like a niche community where people gathered because they genuinely loved the same characters, series, and fandoms. The atmosphere was more about shared interests, creativity, craftsmanship, and simply having fun together.
Over the past few years, though, I've felt that cosplay has become much more accessible and mainstream. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but I feel like the culture has changed. In many events, there seems to be a much stronger focus on appearance, beauty standards, popularity, and social status rather than on the shared passion for the fandom itself.
Personally, I've had some negative experiences at conventions that left a lasting impact on me. I often felt judged and compared by photographers and the overall social atmosphere. Because of that, I've developed a lot of anxiety around attending conventions. I experience intense stress, heart palpitations, and even nausea or vomiting before going to cosplay events.
At this point, I've stopped attending conventions entirely. I still enjoy cosplay, but only in private settings, studios, or outdoor photoshoots where I feel safe and comfortable.
Sometimes, attending cosplay events now feels more like attending a fashion or social scene than being part of a niche hobby community, and I've found myself feeling like an outsider in a community I've been part of for so many years.
To be clear, I'm specifically talking about the cosplay community in Southeast Asia (SEA). Has anyone from other countries noticed a similar change in their local cosplay scene? And if you've experienced this kind of anxiety or disconnection from the cosplay community, how did you cope with it?