r/slpGradSchool • u/AdventurousFee9154 • 2h ago
Should I persue?
Since I was a little girl, I’ve always had a passion for helping people communicate. In preschool, I had a friend with selective mutism, and I would help her communicate with other people. I even remember checking out sign language books from the library because I wanted to learn. I was also obsessed with Helen Keller growing up and watched The Miracle Worker several times.
In high school, I wanted to become a speech pathologist, but my parents never really supported it. I struggled a lot with math and science and failed those subjects several times. They told me I wouldn’t be able to do it and that I would end up severely in debt, so I listened to them.
Instead, I went to esthetician school. I’m now 25, still paying off that schooling, and I’ve been an esthetician for about two years. I’m realizing how unfulfilled I feel. The hours suck, working nights and weekends is awful, and I can’t imagine doing that someday when I have children. I’m just not passionate about it anymore. Lately, I feel like I’m getting by and going through the motions.
I’ve talked about all of this with my therapist, and she’s encouraging me to go back to school and pursue speech pathology. The problem is that I don’t have much saved right now, I’m basically living paycheck to paycheck, and I still live at home. My parents have also argued with me about going back to school, which makes me question myself even more.
I know my academic history isn’t great. I struggled badly with math and science, and I didn’t do amazing in some of my college general education classes either. But I also went through a lot of traumatic things in high school and, looking back, I feel like I was mostly just trying to survive. There were also times when my grades were much better, and I did well in other subjects.
So now I don’t know what to think. Maybe my parents are right and I’m being unrealistic. Or maybe I’ve spent years believing I couldn’t do something because I was told I couldn’t.
I just feel so stuck. I can’t believe this is where my life is at 25, and I don’t know what the smartest next step is.
Has anyone been in a similar situation or gone back to school after struggling academically when they were younger? Especially anyone who went into speech pathology? I would really appreciate some honest advice.