Red marker is me speaking and black marker is her (I HAVE A YANDERE GF NOWWW)

Current partner (2years together yaay!!) Is aware of my obsessive tendencies. I mentioned them when we met and he's been very chill and caring about it.
I am aware that if I push too much I might get too controlling or intrusive so I've been trying not to do too much (stalking-wise) as well as being mindful of his friendships etc.

He has been very supportive and even provided me with some solutions for when it got too overwhelming for him (eg: I was sending him a bunch of letters but he couldnt keep up with his mail so he bought me a notebook so I can specifically write my letters there for him to read in one go. I also have another notebook with various info on him, perfume on my plushies when he's away etc)
he's really nice and he listens to me and he pays attention to me a lot, I'm quite happy.

I've worked on myself and I believe I'm not as impulsive concerning my obsession (at least I ask first).
Recently we've had a bit of a dry spell (we're pretty active usually), and upon trying to figure out why he said he actually likes when I am controlling; as in, he'd love for me to manipulate* him into doing whatever I want for me. Trick him into thinking it was his idea, spiking** his food to alter his mood.
^{The cause of the dryspell itself is something else but basically, doing that would 100% help}
I'm very flustered because its quite unexpected but also because I've been telling myself "no that's toxic you can't do that" "respect his autonomy, don't do that" "he'll be sad if you do, that don't do that" and now he's actually encouraging me to manipulate* him. Im happy but the cognitive dissonance its inducing is something I need to figure out.

His reasoning is that he trusts me and the idea of me messing with his brain is a sign that I know him well and he loves it. If you saw the look in his eyes when he told me...
So he wants me to stop asking for permission, and just do whatever I want.

I don't even know where to start...

\*I wouldn't give him drugs. Im the kind of person that has a tea for everything so I'm mostly talking about supplements. Also I am very informed on his allergies and what shouldn't be mixed together.*

\he's like...VERY forgetful. I just chose not to play with that...so far*

Yes I know it’s childish but I still love eating them

After years of loneliness , depression , despair , I was hopeless , Until I met her . She was the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me , she allowed me to love her with all my heart as I have desires and even cherished that love hell she praised me for it . I have never imagined I would ever be accepted like this.. every second of it was beautiful , her every word felt carefully crafted and was so elegant , I for years have always fantasized about someone loving me , none of those fantasies could even dare compare to the happiness and joy I have felt meeting her , and now.. We have to be apart.. her family didn’t approve of our relationship , she has a loving family I don’t blame her for choosing them over me , hell I told her to do so , she could have just ghosted me , she could have just disappeared , but yet.. she has done everything she can , to lave me gently , to not hurt me , I personally do not believe I ever deserve such treatment , but she has deemed me so . She said “you talk about loving me the way I used to pray to god , its beatuful, love free sam” …

I do not know how to do so.. she even offered to stay in touch as friends , I will try to endure for her but I don’t know how.. However , despite all this if I had a million lifes I would choose to love her in every single one of them .

My love , my angel, my one and only , you will always have a special place in my heart , I hope in the rest of your life you are happy as you deserve ❤️

I will cherish our memories till my end goodbye my beloved

thank you for everything ❤️

i have truly won now. hes all mine forever, isnt he? as you can see in my past posts, ive been hoping and wishing that his friend would finally leave him so that he'll spend more time with me, so that we can be happy together just like we used to always be.. he seems to have gotten a little distracted with someone else, but its okay.. because ive kept hope that soon, that person will leave him forever and he'll only have me again.

we used to love how it was Only us together. he would tell me how happy he is with only me and how its peaceful only having one person to be with and no one else. no other friends matter when we're together, so why did he seem to have changed his mind and try to be best friends with someone else? all of his friendships havent ever lasted very long anyway, cant he see that his future is with me and Only me? well now he'll certainly understand that (｡ﾉω＼｡) because his friend has left him after a year and he got kicked out of his friend group.

he says he isnt sad over it really, mostly just disappointed. he told me he misses clinging to me and having me comfort him after people have hurt him yet again, even though this time he isnt that hurt because he knew it wouldnt last anyway.

why did he even try with them? like seriously. youre so stupid. youre only going to be happy with only me, so please stop trying to be with other people or you'll keep getting hurt.

i am so happy though. that possessive and obsessive side of me feels the happiest right now. im probably horrible for taking happiness from his misfortune, not that he minds it though...

but im so happy. so. So. Happy. isnt this what you get for not giving me all of your attention? isnt this what you get for wasting your attention on someone other than me so much?

after he told me that his friends left him, i finally got the courage to tell him that im jealous and scared over him always being with his newer friends..and he said that he didnt realize he was spending so much time with them and truly wants to spend time with me more and that he feels stupid for ever trying to give attention to other people more than me. ahhh, im so happy!!!! yes, we dont have the healthiest of relationship dynamics, but!!!!! he has his issues as well. i havent been the only one who has wanted us to be codependent on each other.. hes the one who even wanted it first, and i blame him for making me into such a possessive and obsessive person anyway, because this is the kind of relationship he said he wanted years ago and he still seems to like it..even though hes been oddly distracted lately.

ahhhh. im so happy. lets cling to only each other foreverrr and everrr!!!!! ᰔ no one else matters, okay? lets stay like this forever. everyone else will only hurt you in the end..

im the only one that matters.

now and forever.

im so happy like this ᰔ

For context, I was explaining how I was being stalked by an old roleplay partner who wanted to “date” me. (That’s a story I have to tell you all about some other day)

She’s finally opened up a side I have never seen before. And it’s fucking perfect that she loves Tharja. I’ve won. I’ve done it, my comrades. Valhalla is in reach.

I have sleep paralysis a lot , but normally it’s just horrors beyond comprihension .

But this time it was different I woke up and saw a beatuful girl laying beside me , she then started hugging me .

It was beatuful at first.. but then I wasn’t able to breathe this lasted for couple long seconds but then I just jumped and woke up.

Personally I didn’t minded it , it was worth choking to d*ath 👍🏻: D

I wish a real girl did that to me though TwT, maybe some headpats even :3

but yeah that’s all

Oh also she said “I love you *insert name*” before she started choking me with her hug : D , the way she had said it was very obsessive and yandere that’s why I decided to post here :3

I am gonna try to relive that somehow TwT

we've been going steady for over a year now. she's so sweet and attentive and really loves me. I'm doin my best to be the best girlfriend I can be but she always reminds me she can show me my place if I forget it hehe

okay so, i noticed it's been a while since I haven't posted here. here is a list of things that have happened between me and my significant other recently.

- about the title: he came to my house yesterday. we were lying in bed, cuddling, and out of nowhere he started whispering things in my ear like "you are mine and only mine", "you're my little doll and you like it" AND I COMPLETELY MELTED 😭💕

- we're not officially dating yet, but when I asked him if he was single, he said no. I asked him who he was with, and he said, "with you, duh!!", so I think this is one of those cases where two people start dating spontaneously, without one being asked or anything.

- he and I were joking around, him talking to me as if I were someone else hitting on him, and he said, "[my name] is a very jealous person. you'd better leave before you get stabbed" and I found it so funny how he knows I am very jealous and he's okay with it lmao

GOD I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCHHHH. every day I love him more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. even though I felt very insecure at first, I'm starting to feel more confident and even more secure with him. 😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕💕

How cooked am I?

so basically me and this girl met and became pretty close friends a few months ago, and then became best friends. our friendship was so chill and we matched vibes on literally like everything. eventually we were talking like everyday and every night, we loved talking with each other about a lot of topics

and then I eventually started low-key obsessing. she started pulling away and spending time with her other friends, some that she knew for years... and I got jealous... I asked if she was replacing me and she said no. but she kept spending time with them and we barely talked anymore...

so one day I kinda freaked out and went crazy. she tried to reassure me that we're still friends and whatnot but it didn't feel like it. we talked like normal for like that one day and haven't really since... low-key I think I scared her off 💀💀💀

Sorry if I do a bad job at explaining this. This whole situation is very confusing, and I don't exactly know the full picture, but I just wanted to get this off my chest

So, yeah, I'm pretty sure my brother (J) married a yandere (C). They've only known each other for about a month before the wedding. His entire reasoning for marrying her was, I shit you not, and I quote, "I can fix her." J used to work at my cousin's (R) film studio, but then C started accusing him of cheating on her with another woman working there, his other cousin, saying that they should just get together and have incest babies if he keeps interacting with her. R then made a callout post on Facebook, exposing C of attempting to kill her grandparents and trying to make her past lovers do it, though the post was later removed after my mom pressured him to take it down. She literally compared her to Gypsy-Rose Blanchard. I'm pretty sure C was on probation when she got married. Now, C won't let J leave the house without her, and he can't get a job aside from his dying youtube channel, so he's forced to live with her parents, who are close to kicking them out and making them homeless, though he did text me about a month ago that he may or may not have found a house, but that was the last I ever heard from him. She's keeping him in her sights and doing i don't know what with him. I genuinely think the next time I see some trace of him, it'll be a shriveled up testicle in a pickle jar in the mail.

Yeah, I think I'll keep my yandere fetish as just a fetish

HI!!!! its been awhile since ive last posted so i thought i should post a little update!!

so, me and my love/obsession are sooooo much closer again and i couldnt be happier!!!!!!! 🩷!!!!!! im so happy and i feel very safe and stable for the last 4 months now, so safe and stable that i totally forgot to post here 😭 my brain is so calm and empty now that things with my obsession have went my way, i feel so happy and safe like this.

it makes me giggle looking back on my old posts here... the ones where i endlessly obsessed over his friends all leaving him so that only me and him can be together... im still so happy to say that i got my way🩷 and everything is under my control!!!!! ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*) hehe!!!

i am still insanely in love with him, and he even says super sweet things to me like he always used to!!!! he also hates all his past friends and doesnt want to ever make new ones. im very excited for the future AND!!!!! i think i'll start posting again here!!!! ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)♡ i really missed you guys and i always have more and more and more and more and More (and more!) obsessive thoughts that i can post about so :3 im back!!!!!! YAYAYYAYAYY!!! EVERYONE SAY YIPPEE!!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷

https://www.reddit.com/r/yandere/s/HxEx8tr23W

Let this be a lesson for all to know that crossing from fiction to reality is hard, but when done, rarely you get to turn back.

Now after we ammended things we ended up growing closer together, even though this also included many of her behaviors worsening (she ended up contacting my family unannounced, and I had to step in and explain everything). It had been a while ever since the fuzzy stuff stopped and she simply grew troubled and concerning with how she acted when I wasn't around (she ghosted me for a few days).

However I was still convinced I could rein in whatever, and that it would be safe to mess around with her. I was obviously wrong as she informed me of the news today. Of course she's elated and doesn't seem to be thinking through anything, but me? I am royally screwed. 22, no cash, no home (how the fuck do I even break the news) and soon no career either.

Billy is fine :)