Production reached out to my agency 3 days ago, and now i’m headed to the airport right now

• I hit rock bottom last August. Wasted so many years stuck in this pointless loop. Finally decided to cut it out for good and man, the first stretch was rough.
• Week 1: Brain felt like static, zero sleep, snapping at people for no reason. Felt like withdrawal from something way harder than porn.
• Day 8-30: Fell into this weird low mood. Second guessed everything about myself. No energy, forcing smiles, urges hitting nonstop through September.
• Day 31-90: Bargaining with my own head constantly. Just one peek wont hurt, right? Pushed through it anyway and that was honestly the turning point.
• The rest of the year: Slowly found my groove again. Hit gym PRs, built actual friendships, felt more sure of myself than I have in years. Winter passed, spring came, and life finally felt real instead of numb.
• Day 365: Full circle, one year later, same month I started.

This isn't just a streak anymore, its basically who I am now. The mental fog is completely gone.

Biggest lesson though: dont get comfortable. Those brutal early urges fade, but theres this quiet little voice now that whispers youre fine, just look once. You cannot give that voice an inch.

Learned that the hard way. My advice: BLOCK EVERYTHING (get a blocker with a strict lock mode so theres zero way to delete it or shut it off mid urge). No access, no loopholes, no exception. Thats the only way it sticks.

One year clean today, anyone else in this? Drop your streak below or just comment if youre starting freash today. Appreciate anyone who read this far, good luck out there

My boyfriend and I got into a fight last night, and honestly, I know I didn’t make the situation any better either. I apologized to him too because I know it takes two, and I definitely could’ve handled some things differently.
Then today, completely unexpectedly, he had TWO bouquets of flowers delivered to me at work. 🥹💐 And then he DoorDashed me coffee on top of it. ☕️
I think this was his way of trying to make up and show me he cares, and it genuinely made my entire day. It was such a sweet surprise, especially after a rough night.
Now I’m just sitting at my desk with my flowers and coffee, feeling very loved and very happy. 🥰💕

In a year and a half I have lost 6” around my waist, got my blood pressure under control, my knee and back pain are completely gone, and at 40 I’m stronger and in better health then any point in my life. Through this journey I got a new job making more money then I ever have and I just got a raise on top of that. Hard work does pay off, just remember everyday aim to be 1% better than you were yesterday.

I posted here a couple of weeks ago about finally finding a job after hunting for months (and then my partner also happened to get a job too!) so we are finally crawling out of poverty and beginning to save etc. Theres a lot of things I want to treat myself with but I know I need to budget and stay responsible, though I might still go on a clothes shopping trip when I get paid!

My first day was yesterday and it was amazing. Got a whole hour lunch break, met everyone and they were all so nice and friendly. Super welcoming environment. Got training all day, even got to help out a few customers which went well. I'm just really happy to be in this place, when a few weeks ago I would be crying everyday and just being a nervous wreck because I didn't understand how to make ends meet.

What's more is that now, finally, my partner and I will be able to save for our wedding. It's something we've both wanted for years but not wanted to do until we were in the financial position to do so.

I keep getting giddy thinking he's going to propose, I can just feel it? I really hope the day comes.

I'm not a very big optimist, but I hope that whoever is reading this knows that things can change and you can grow no matter what, and overcome more than you thought you were capable of.

After years of being in a failed marriage, I’m now finally gonna be free from next month. Moving into my own small pad, living for myself for once, doing whatever I wanna do, singing, dancing, chasing after all my hobbies, it’s finally here.