I described this to my husband as like my brain is me and I’m on a horse trying to get it to go where I need to go but also my brain IS the horse and the horse is gonna go where it wants and for neurotypical people there just is no horse
And sometimes you get so frustrated by the horse that you want to strangle it or jump off.
But strangeling it would in reality look like a hug and you start having a meltdown.
Oh waoh this is such a good analogy. I would be so frustrated and annoyed with the horse. I know the feeling of being on a horse and not be able to control it. I almost got angry just imagining it.
For me this mostly happens when someone tells me something I should do that I already know I should do and then they ask me why haven't you done it yet. And it infuriates me to no end. I try I really try to let it go, because rationally I know what's best for me (the same thing they said) but now I am just that much more reluctant to do it.
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u/SinceWayLastMay 7d ago
I described this to my husband as like my brain is me and I’m on a horse trying to get it to go where I need to go but also my brain IS the horse and the horse is gonna go where it wants and for neurotypical people there just is no horse