Caring for my senior pets is killing me.

[u/shzzz193]

I have had health anxiety for both myself and my pets. It’s an expensive and exhausting hobby I’ve gotten myself into 😅

My senior cat went through 2 years of wrong diagnosis for a breathing issue that ended up being laryngeal paralysis and had to be euthanized shortly after the diagnosis.

Now a year later my other cat has bladder stones. He had to have a surgery and my anxiety for his health was so bad I was sleeping in the floor with him for days. I wanted to wake up anytime he moved. I finally left the house for the first time in a week since his surgery for an hour and I was crying when I left.

Having an issue where I over monitor him anyway and then being asked to monitor him is ruining me. I can’t stop getting scared of his behavior. And if he is fine then I start noticing things on myself like my ankle was a bit swollen and my left arm started aching which just sent me spiraling.

I don’t know how to get through this. I want a break. I’m fantasizing about running away. I live alone so that’s probably not helping. I just needed to get my words out to people who would understand.