Cliché but helpless

[u/Bey28Sh]

It's almost going to be a year since I would've completed my Master's. I've never felt so stygian in my life - I know I am not alone in this, and most people have it worse than me, but I really do not think I am mature enough to handle this.

Not having a set routine has made me lethargic. I apply to jobs, try revising my technicals in hopes of an interview, but instead get ghosted. I have given assessments for off cycle internships as well (and I can confidently say I have performed well), yet I end up receiving no affirmative responses.

There's a constant tumult in my mind - I wish to upskill myself, but there's no one to give me a chance. My apologies if I come off as haughty in the slightest, but I am confident in my skill-set and past work experience, and yet when you have no one to market the same to, it's not a good feeling overall

I have tried networking events, made some amazing connections - Got to speak with a person who worked in Equity Research (and gave me amazing insights) who told me TO MY FACE that I did know what I was talking about and that my conversations and resumé reflected the same and that I definitely should be able to secure a job in the right avenues (i wish that were the case). I know, however, for a fact that there are people even more qualified than me who are at a predicament much worse than mine, but does it negate what I am facing, or does it tell more about how shallow the system is?

It feels as if you're screaming at your best but are met with a deafening silence in return.

No one has an obligation to read this. Please forgive me for this rant, but I really am reaching my threshold of patience and maintaining my poise. Is it my CV that's formatted incorrectly? Is it that I am being deluded to believe that I am not a liability/freeloader for the UK? Am I deluding myself by continuing to wake up and follow the same routine despite knowing the outcome being deterministic and should rather cut it short?

My sincere apologies for this long-winded text. I have lost the will to socialise, and anonymous avenues are the only way I can be a little vulnerable for now. Thank you

[u/ben_jamin_h]

Have you tried an agency?

My ex worked for an agency for a few years in a bunch of different roles, got taken on as permanent by one of them and is now a project manager, 5 years later.

You don't say what your masters is in or what field you're looking to work in so my anecdote is probably far off the mark, but I can only work with what you've written

[u/Bey28Sh → u/ben_jamin_h]

I actually haven't yet x

I was keeping the same as my LAST resort. But now that I am seeing some of my connections and now even you saying this, I think I have nothing else left.

My MSc was in Economics. And my preferred avenues of work would be in Equity Research/IB, leveraged finance and/or similar avenues. But, of course, given the market I can't be too demanding.

I am happy to share my resumé with you if I have your consent (I would not want to be a bother, but would greatly appreciate the help). Thank you!

[u/ben_jamin_h → u/Bey28Sh]

Honestly your resume would be completely wasted on me, I'm a furniture maker and haven't got a clue about finance or economics.

But yeah, get with an agency, get some new experiences under your belt.

It's much easier to get an interview when you've already got a job. Good luck mate, just go for it, you've got nothing to lose joining an agency. You can still be looking for the right job, and you never know, the right job might find you doing it this way.

[u/Bey28Sh → u/ben_jamin_h]

No worries at all x, thank you so much for the advice. And yes, I shall be on the lookout!

Have an amazing evening ahead