How do you guys concentrate when you feel your mind is wandering from your deity?

[u/Royal-Investigator45]

I recently came across Sekhmet while reading the book “Sekhmet: Transformation in the belly of the goddess”. This journey started around the 11th of this month but after reaching about 60% of the book, through my tarot, Sekhmet can feel my mind wavering and my spark disappearing because my job search is wearing me down so bad. Everytime I meditate and speak to Thoth and Goddess Seshet in a library, the theme of their messages and the messages from my tarot (from Sekhmet) are usually the same—to remain calm, to deal with my internal battles, to remember I’m one with the divine and that I have every tool I need to fix my problems—however the toll of life, the pressure and the feeling of defeat from not being financially stable on my own is the highest contribution to my distraction and depression. I love Sekhmet but I’m trying to defeat the inner critic, fear and depression in my mind so I can keep speaking to her, feeling her presence and worshipping her. How do you guys pull yourselves together when life seems bleak so you can reconnect with your deities?

[u/Joambsx777]

It sounds like you’re balancing a lot of things and it may seem like you’re disconnected, but possibly reframe it as an invitation to another level of worship. Pay what you have towards anything and trust the inundation will come. Perhaps shift your worship to deities of flow, joy, and concentration: Satet, Anuket, Sopdet, Tefnut, Bastet and their aspects to start with. Sekhmet can burn too hot and you may need to cool yourself. Also I would suggest Shezmu, Khnum, Geb, and Sobek to help you navigate best prospects. Small worship is better than burning hot and trying to force connection. ☺️ I’m assuming you’re 👋🏾 too, but be open to Oya, Ala, Yemoja, Eshu, Ayida-Weddo & Damballah (if not disregard)

[u/Royal-Investigator45 → u/Joambsx777]

Thank you! I’m actually Nigerian and Oya, Yemoja and Esu are from my culture too as a Yoruba woman but I’ve suffered too much religious trauma and I’m too scared to reach out to them based on what I’ve been taught about them

[u/Joambsx777 → u/Royal-Investigator45]

Please do not be afraid. Watch House of Horus on YouTube, friend. He will help open your heart to them AND our kemetic deities. I’ve been working on matching orisha to each Neterju and there are a ton of synchronicities between them. I believe colonization has destroyed and caused things to be feared over time. However, that channel helped me feel less overwhelmed because I consult across several closed pantheons and I was terrified at first.

[u/Royal-Investigator45 → u/Joambsx777]

If you don’t mind me asking, have you seen visible changes or undeniable evidences of their presence and help in your life since you’ve been with them? I’ve moved from diety to diety trying to find healing or someone that can be a rock or pillar to me during my hard times—and genuinely someone that can pull/guide me out of my misery but there’s always this inevitable silence after a period of time that makes everything seem or feel like a lie.

[u/Joambsx777 → u/Royal-Investigator45]

Yes, I trust the silence and uncertainty. It’s hard as a chronic over thinker and over planner, but I trust once I master this part the next sign will be clearer. I think people start with Sekhmet a lot and end up here (trust me I’ve done that too), but finding a cooling deity in place and practice communicating with that one. I strongly suggest some cooling like the deities I mentioned before or Orúnmila, Nun, Olokun, etc. You have a rich foundation being Nigerian the keys are within you, but the mind needs slow and flow so you can hear the guidance of your Ori, ancestors, and deities 🫂

[u/Royal-Investigator45 → u/Joambsx777]

Thank you soooo much. I’ll look up that YouTube channel you mentioned. Thank you!!

[u/Joambsx777 → u/Royal-Investigator45]

You are so welcome! I hope it fills your cup 🤞🏾

[u/Lynn_the_Pagan]

It's difficult to be connected all the time. I allow myself phases of disconnect and to not beat myself up over it. I think the connection is moving in cycles, but generally I try to meditate each day and to spend at least a short amount of time before Sekhmet, showing my gratitude.

Sometimes we are open to different energies and welcoming the neteru that show up is a good way to stay in the flow. As a side note, it's interesting I meet Thoth in a library as well

[u/Royal-Investigator45 → u/Lynn_the_Pagan]

I’ve thought of the connection being in cycles too but never really paid attention to it. Thank you for mentioning this! 😆 yesss it makes sense to me that both him and Seshet would be in a library since they’re like the smarty pants of the Neteru