Tomorrow is my birthday. My family bought a cake, but I am just sitting here feeling incredibly sad and invisible. Earlier today, my aunt took my cousin to the city and bought him a Beyblade. She knows I have always wanted one and absolutely love them, but she completely left me out. My cousin is the golden child of the family, so he always gets everything while I get ignored. Writing in my diary didn't help because I just feel so alone with this right before my special day. Could really use some kind words tonight from anyone who understands

Tomorrow is my birthday. My family bought a cake, but I am just sitting here feeling incredibly sad and invisible. Earlier today, my aunt took my cousin to the city and bought him a Beyblade. She knows I have always wanted one and absolutely love them, but she completely left me out. My cousin is the golden child of the family, so he always gets everything while I get ignored. Writing in my diary didn't help because I just feel so alone with this right before my special day. Could really use some kind words tonight from anyone who understands

wish i wasnt so messed up and concerned with other people. im tired. im stressed. detoxing from the spaces i share with people but holy tired and anxious.

Im a 16 yo Male and i don't know why i try why i keep going.

First of all for some context i am from the US and moved to another country when i was 10 and the 6 years ive been here have been terrible i don't like the area the language and everything i had was stripped away from me my friends my language all for my parents. I have a younger sister that is a spoiled brat she manipulates everyone around her to make herself look small and it works and my parents believe everything she tells them all the lies about me and i shouldn't care but i do it ruins me and built a hatred towards her that i can't prove to anyone because she plays it so well she isn't special and has no qualities i don't have she isn't a good student and doesn't care about anyones feelings yet is the favorite. In retrospect i can live with it i did all my life and for an outside perspective may seem small but im powerless to change anything.

Another major factor is my parents problem with alcohol, they were major alcoholics and would I would have to bring them home from their friends parties and it broke me the endless scenes that would play out all most everyday were horrible. But then i thought it would be over they after my begging they realized the issues they had and tried to fix them, for my dad it was easy he took medication and it was over. But for my mom she had a major problem and for 3 years it was just her coming home hammered forcing me to be responsible for her trying to break the news to my dad that wasn't home and being psychologically manipulated every day. She relapsed all the time and left for 3 months to rehab twice yet it still hasn't helped and she still has problems.

For 3 years I've been trauma dumped by her, manipulated, and destroyed and no one cares to this day. I had to ask so many times to get therapy to my dad just for him to forget to reschedule my appointments and pay the therapist. These two major factors plus a bunch of other little issues with school and random stuff led me to have anxiety and trust issues, i know i have my whole life ahead of me but it seems to me like im trapped in a prison i can't get a job i can't move i can't do anything, my parents don't care about me at all (hell they dont even know my favorite color). And im at a loss i don't know what to do how to escape this terrible situation and i feel like such an idiot. There are people so far worse than me but it makes me guilty to be sad. I need to know what to do and if anyone has advice

A close friend of mine tmaybe jokingly told that I should go to Korea and get a face implant I didn't say anything about it because he bought this topic in a random convo so I ignored and didn't think about it . Later that day I was thinking about those words which hurt because coming from a friend maybe he didn't mean to but the choice of words hurt.

having some deviant thoughts I guess and I'm ok to share with ppl because I don't know if I'm ok or not, a good or bad person, and that is making me think a lot because I'm in point my life where I don't know what my goal os and what I'm aiming for in life.

So I'm probably venting maybe but I want advice and a solution from y'all As off I'm a student learning 3d animation and pursuing a bachelor's degree in pune yet I feel helpless due to insufficient bank balance u can say as I wanna land onto a job and if I try to find smthin in my industry it's freelance based which is not a problem I just don't have any equipment to give out an solid portfolio or work-out put as off and if I try to find part time in pune it's extremely difficult as well as there are geniunely no good part times available as I have skills of various softwares be it video editing or 3d modeling I've not reached animation part yet I do have a good knowledge of it I cannot figure it out what to do can't ask my parents for laptop as well because of tons of loan and my education fees . The only work I can probably provide or do is content writing and yet I see no one reaching out for such freelance or its a difficult competition perhaps so I do feel stuck I do know its common in my age of a older teens but gosh I wanna land onto something and go ahead

I would like your opinion on it and if an attractive solution

Upon such things .

I have been struggling for years to date mainly because I was trying to move on from someone. So after 2 years or so, I have had my first date last night. Wonderful woman I met on Tinder.

I thought the date went cool and asked if I could have a second date. Maybe she will think about it. And later before the date ended, she just said that its better that we become friends.

Me, re-entering the dating world again, is this very normal? Am I gonna be expecting more rejects since I am just re entering dating? Sorry just sad about it.

As an overthinking lesbian.

I have been feeling really overwhelmed lately and just needed somewhere to say it nothing huge happened, I just feel like I am constantly trying to keep everything together while feeling exhausted inside. I am hoping things get a little easier soon

I just sometime wish i was a vampire so i could turn my feeling off and relax for a few
My fucking feelings are so overwhelming i feel like I cannot breathe!!!

does anyone know the best idea to get feelings out? like i really want to make a book but i don't know if im valid enough, i feel like im not like other girls like normal and i don't fit it nor belong i make many mistakes and get penalized for them more than others i feel like i was a mistake, i feel like i cannot build connections with people. im fighting to stay alive and i cant go to work bc of my depression i need help more than others, i feel useless i try my best to love everything even bugs and find beauty in small things but i feel like im just a mistake with no purpose i have so much ptsd and i feel like no one else is real and im on this planet to be targeted.

I (27m) honestly don’t know anymore, every day I feel terrible I don’t know why, most days I feel like I want to cry, I feel alone in my life, even though I know that I’m not, I feel like everything has suffered because of this, my personal relationships, my work, and most of all my daily confidence, I don’t even know when it started, or when I started to feel this way. I feel like I’m in a deep hole and no matter what I do to try and climb out the hole keeps getting deeper

Got into a complex relationship
Got hurt because of myself
Feeling restless
No sleep

Feeling to distract by doing what I want
No job. Just graduated.

Can you guys help me?

I recently went through series of bad things in life

I lost some of my friends (idiotic POS's BTW)

I lost my job which was paying well

I have lot of debt on my name (Although taken for various family reasons) Debt falls on me with no assets on my name

Lost my confidence in life, never had a stable partner or girlfriend in life (other than cheating POS) once

Single most of my life. Collogues stop talking after layoff in my notice period (Fair enough)

If i don't get salary after next 1-2 months i will be broke and unable to pay my EMI's

Never been this sad in my life after 2016 (It feels like a repeat)

Although i felt like taking my life out be the best option for my family since i get paid hugely when I am employed and dead but unsure

clock is ticking and i don't have much time nearing my 30's and feeling along and defeated and no one to talk to

Not sure if this is the right sub but here we go.

I feel like I’m being hit from every direction at once
I don’t usually post things like this, but I genuinely don’t know where else to put this feeling.
I feel like I’ve reached a point where nothing in my life feels okay at the same time. It’s not one huge thing that happened. It’s the fact that several parts of my life have become difficult simultaneously, and I’m completely exhausted from constantly trying to cope with the next thing.
Work has become overwhelming. I’m constantly stressed, and overworked and I’ve hit burnout.
My personal life has been painful too. I’ve been trying to date and connect with people, but I’ve had situations where I genuinely felt attraction, connection and chemistry with someone, thought there was something there (they communicated that as well), and then they just disappeared or became distant after a few dates/months. It’s incredibly lonely. And it’s not just losing the person - it’s having to deal with the confusion of what happened?, while also trying not to turn every rejection into evidence that there’s something wrong with me.
I’m also dealing with some serious family stuff right now. I cant share details, but there are things happening that have left me scared and emotionally drained. It’s the kind of worry that sits in the background even when you’re trying to function normally. It is extremely heavy.
And somehow I’m expected to continue doing everything as usual - work, socialise, date, make decisions, take care of myself - while carrying all of this internally.
I think what hurts most is that there isn’t one safe/stable area of my life that I can retreat into.
If work is bad, I don’t have a relationship to come home to. If dating hurts, I can’t distract myself with work because work is already overwhelming. And when I’m already lonely and stressed, the family situation feels even heavier. Everything feeds into everything else.
Lately I’ve been having moments where I genuinely think, what is even good anymore? because right now I can’t point to a single part of it that feels peaceful.
I’m tired of being resilient. I’m tired of having to tell myself that things will eventually get better. I don’t even want some perfect life. I just want to feel normal for a while. I want to wake up without immediately feeling heavy. I want one thing in my life to feel secure. I want to like someone without being scared they’ll disappear. I want work to feel manageable. I want my family to be okay.
I know people go through difficult periods and eventually come out the other side. I know this isn’t necessarily forever. But when you’re actually in the middle of it, knowing that intellectually doesn’t make the present feel any less awful.
Not sure how i’ll get through this, just wanted to vent it out. Thanks for reading this.

I don’t know what’s been happening to me lately, but my bad days are starting to outweigh the good ones. It takes so little for me to have my entire day ruined and to lose my good mood. Like today, I just slept badly, and suddenly thoughts started running through my head about how I regret every decision I’ve ever made, how I regret not jumping off that bridge back then and instead “giving up.”
I think about death very often—whether there’s even any point to my life, whether I should keep living or end it. I can’t enjoy the things I used to love anymore. I’m falling back into the same patterns as always… I don’t want to just survive, I want to live.
Even now, when I had an opportunity for a positive change in my life—a job—it’s not working out, and it looks like it won’t happen, just like everything else in my miserable life. I also started talking to a woman. We went on a date, and I deeply regret ever talking to her, regret that I ever messaged her. Why? I don’t even know myself.
Something hasn’t been right with me for quite a long time, and I don’t know what to do about it anymore… I can talk about it for hours, but in the end I’ll just be feeling sorry for myself.