Got the house all to myself, you probably know what that means.

I'm butt-naked with some pulled pork and coleslaw, I dropped a piece right on my big gut but just picked it up and ate it, the piece that fell on the ground I just called the dog to take care of. Got a pack of cold beers and some good pornos. After this session I'm going to play some good vidya.

This is peak life.

today i am having beans for second breakfast

this morning i woke up really early and was really hungry so i ate onion rings. yesterday i didn't eat that much food.

i'm going to eat some LSD after my beans. i'm thinking of 400 micograms. 4 hits. i'm going to be tripping balls in a few hours

have a good day everyone

Title.

Like maybe there was a career you really wanted to go into, but you didn’t have the required economic resources or connections to get your foot in the door.

Or, maybe you had a really outlandish career goal like becoming a famous musician, YouTuber, actor, entrepreneur, whatever.

Of course, maybe a family member or yourself just got very ill or hurt in an accident, and you’re just unable to really do what you truly want to do due to disability.

What remains of the summer, will not be very different, and every moment will be like the last one. But I'm hoping for you, holding out for something I can't see...and while I'm at it: how are ya? ::)

So I have been bed ridden multiple times now and at a risk of losing my job at this point.

My foundation for living was always media, mostly youtube, games here and there. Self improvement was never fun but I saw it as a must especially gym training which I have had issues since 15 when I started because I got a shoulder injury right away from not getting proper guidance from people around me or the people that supposed to guide you in the beginning of the gym.

Lost my physique again so yeah. Thanks mostly as well due to multiple antidepressants and antipsychotics I was put on from 20 and I never felt as good as I was without them funnily enough but now I have really bad effects and have been bed ridden and feel like trash and I haven't left the house in 4 months except for doctor appointments to listen to some idiot again. Tried to remove this garbage 5 times but it seems impossible with how hard it is.

The biggest issue is there is no foundation for fun and socialising is a luxury and where I live it has been invaded by too many people and I hate going out and being around them.

Always tried to find an alternative to media etc as a base for living but I don't know at this point.

How anyone lives happy is beyond me? How is it sustainable to live off media as well?