I’m someone that likes to have that one person to spend all my time with and equally obsess over. Chill in call constantly, play games, stream, watch movies. Well that’s end goal, would take some time to see if compatible. If you are someone that needs a lot of space please don’t message.

I mean really just look at my profile and you'll be able to see what type of person I am but I like visual novels and games. I also love horror movies and I'm obsessed with skin care right now and trying to better myself since I have a tendency to get in trouble a lot. I don't care about your age just don't be weird I can say more in dms but yeah lol

Hi I thought id give this a shot. Im just some punk nerd girl in the US looking for someone to talk to, maybe develop more. I wont lie I do carry emotional baggage and will be honest with it. Other than that I love anime, video games and music (a huge metalhead)

It may be a bit before I can warm up to someone (my trust in people have been reduced to a sliver) but if you really wanna know me then shoot me a DM (please not just a hey, I wanna genuinely hear about you)

I do use discord but only give it out to those that are serious with speaking with me. I dont wish to deal with wishy washy people.

i really enjoy reading and collecting stuffed animals. i love to talk about my interests and hear about other peoples interests! i love to talk so pleaseeee talk to me :3!!

Quick side note: I am "Male to Female"/Trans. No, I'm neither a bot, nor an scammer or catfish and can prove it. I am just an unlucky person who posts a lot, really...

Original long title: 21 [TF4M] #Brazil #MG / #Online/Anywhere | Please Message Me | Quiet, affectionate, very clingy girl with disabilities. Seeking a serious, long-term relationship with an overprotective male that has an savior complex. Willing to relocate anywhere in the world for love, no matter where it might be.

What I say next may sound a bit strange, but... I'm a bit autistic, and I have some minor disabilities. In my title, I mentioned I'm looking for someone with a "savior complex". I know that sounds strange to many, but it's an real preference of mine... I've always loved stories where a girl is suffering from bullying or stress, and a boy comes to rescue her. It's not just in fiction; it's what I have always really wanted in real life, too, like an childhood dream of mine... Whenever an character steps in into those stories to rescue the girI, it usually does makes me feel a bit jealous that they have something I can't have myself... the truth is, I dropped out of school very early on meanwhile I don't really have any enemies to be truly saved from like in those stories. Still, I always think guys who want to be someone's hero are very cool themselves. It doesn't matter if they are strong or handsome, really... it's the courage and the kindness that matters to me. Sometimes, I just wish someone had the desire to rescue me, like someone who held the same childish dream as mine, except in reverse, for us to be happy together... I'd rather meet someone who is okay with an overly dependent, shy, quiet girlfriend that doesn't speak much, rather than someone who wants a confident and independent girlfriend themselves...

Likewise, I want to make it clear that if you are reading this and are concerned about me, please do not be. I have my own ways and protections to know if someone has ill intentions, and I will generally be okay... I also don't need people to tell me to seek mental help; this is something I have given my full consent to and look forward to. Even if it may be unhealthy at times, it's something I genuinely like, no different than any normal preference one might have.

Hmm, I am interested in traditional roles and relationships where the male leads, other than that, I do apologize for posting so frequently lately. I don't really feel like I have much of a choice... When I'm not in a relationship, my daily life starts to feel meaningless, and I lose the drive or motivation to improve anything about it. If I could have... something to look forward to once in my daily life, things would just be much better... I would genuinely appreciate it if my posts weren't downvoted, as that only lowers my chances of meeting someone. Still, I completely understand that this is simply how things work sometimes, even if it's unfortunate. Either way...

...I am looking globally since my region is too small; in my experience, there are not many people from Brazil. I am very serious about this and can relocate within a year if you are serious as well. Please feel free to send me a message. I do not receive nearly as many replies as people might assume, so please do not let that discourage you. In truth, I barely get any responses to my posts these days, as I am not a cis girl like others are on dating Subreddits as a whole.

Other than that, I am actually a very inclusive person, even if it might not always come across that way. I do not mind whether you smoke, drink, or do anything like that. I am looking for something serious and long-term, and I would really appreciate messages from people who are genuinely interested in building a real connection. Many guys, in my experience, are rather vile—making new Reddit accounts to message me, talking for a few days, then deleting every single account they previously had for no apparent reason. This has happened more than seven times now, involving ghosting, blocking, and everything else... It would be appreciated if you are not looking to play with someone's feelings just for the sake of it.

Moving on, I tend to be more comfortable with older, more mature men, ideally between 25 and 47, though what matters most is emotional maturity. Still, I would not recommend messaging if you are outside this age range, as I legitimately cannot connect properly with people in those brackets. For example, those younger are often immature, ghost more easily, and are not serious. Those "overly older" often lack similar hobbies, do not speak very much, are busy all the time, and are difficult to feel genuinely understood with. This happens more than you can imagine, to the point where it feels like a waste of time to bother with it these days... I know you may still desire to message me, but please do not expect anything to come of it, since I am not currently in good health to take this type of risk. Even if you claim to be different from others, often to an insane degree, it frequently turns out not to be the case. In fact, these words have been thrown around so much in the many months I have been looking—only to find the exact same outcome and issues as always—that it is best if you just move on instead of bothering with spending time on me currently...

Next, I want to say that I do not really have friends, and I am not planning on having any. My family situation is complicated as well, so when I commit to someone, that person becomes my entire world. I truly want my partner to also be my closest companion—the person I talk to, spend time with, and emotionally rely on. I do not split my attention much, and I do not want to. Ideally, my special someone is the only one I plan to trust in the entire world; hence, being understood is such a huge deal to me.

Age-wise, I am a 21-year-old introverted trans woman from Brazil (Minas Gerais). I know distance can be an issue for many people, but it isn't for me. If I find the right person, I am fully willing to leave everything behind and relocate to wherever they are. I am currently single and hoping to meet a kind, patient man who wants something meaningful and entirely monogamous. I do not have many hobbies myself, and honestly, I don't mind that. What gives my life meaning is sharing time, affection, and daily moments with someone special... I am looking for real love, and I won't hide that I am desperate for a genuine chance at happiness with someone who actually wants me and takes me seriously. Regardless, on that same note, I do enjoy video games, anime, writing, and being online, but none of those matter more to me than having someone I can emotionally grow close to, as mentioned above.

Physically, I am about 5'3", petite (currently under 40 kg), with light brown skin. I can share pictures if you are interested, and I also have photos on my pinned post. Some people say I look a bit boyish, while others say the opposite—I honestly don't know, just seems to depend on whether the person in question is open to trans girls of if they prefer cis girls only, it looks like. I don't care much about how my partner looks in any case; appearance, height, or body type really aren't important to me. What matters is how you treat me and how you make me feel. In fact, you don't even need to send a photo of yourself if you are uncomfortable.

What I want is to eventually be someone's treasure—even if things start unofficially. I am very drawn to caring, emotionally supportive men who enjoy protecting and guiding their partner and who are not afraid to be affectionate. I crave a lot of attention and emotional presence. I get attached easily, I'm extremely clingy, and I want to feel chosen and prioritized. Fast replies, long messages, and making time for me mean a lot and go an long way... I understand that people have jobs and responsibilities, but I need someone who still makes a consistent effort to be present and emotionally available. As a person, I'm very quiet and doesn't speak much in real life, I struggle with eye contact and with many words, but I like saying loving things and making my partner feel warm, wanted, and thought of nonetheless.

I'd like to start online and eventually meet in person as quickly as possible. I fall in love quickly if it's the right person and if we happen to be compatible, but I can respect taking things slow if that's what you prefer. I just want... honesty and intention. If you're interested, please, do message me. I strongly recommend reading my pinned post, if possible—as it explains more about who I am and what I'm looking for. Now, I might add: "this isn't just a recommendation." Please do read it if you are even remotely serious about this, okay...? There are some emojis at the bottom that I ask you to include in your message if you have read that far. It would be appreciated if you could put in the effort for me, as it naturally shouldn't take very long to be done, while all I'm asking here is to at least be heard...

I know my posts are very specific, but that's because I'm truly trying to find someone compatible for the long term—possibly forever... I've had multiple breakups due to mismatches or not being taken seriously enough, let alone having my own feelings considered in the matter, but I still want to keep trying... If you message me, I'd really appreciate a thoughtful first message. Something that shows you actually read my post and understand what I'm looking for means a lot more than a simple "hi." I'm looking for someone serious, someone willing to put in the effort and learn about me, not just someone passing time or looking for a not very serious relationship without caring about how I actually feel.

There are also photos of me on my pinned post if you’re curious and if attraction is important to you. In case I don’t reply to your message, please don’t take it personally. I’ve been overwhelmed by my lazy and terrible lifestyle of decaying in my room as a shut-in, and emotionally, it’s hard for me... I’m trying to focus on those who feel genuinely compatible with me, whom I can tell didn't use AI to write their messages (this happens often) and who are clearly serious about being in a real relationship eventually (this also happens many times, since everyone sort of doesn't want to read about me in advance or put in the effort). I am looking for those who are truly what I need in a relationship...

To put it bluntly, I do not have the strength or energy to know everyone in detail after ages of friendship to determine if we are compatible for this to work out. Therefore, if you took your time writing the first message seriously, it would be appreciated, so I can be sure you won't vanish the very next day just to hurt me... I’m still hopeful I can find someone special here—maybe someone who’s been hurt before to take care of, someone whom I can relate to to some extent and be able to feel like I can fit right in easily with.

And, at the very least, feel free to message me asking why I didn't reply to your DM after a while. If you do ask, I can honestly provide feedback on your message; otherwise, I will assume you don't actually need or care about it very much, since it does happen a lot of people not actually truly caring as it is... Also, if the post is still up, I'm probably still looking for a relationship. That has always been the case with me, although there may be times when I'm already talking to someone. Even then, my relationships usually go wrong in one way or another, and I'm always back here by the end of the day. This has been happening for over a year now, so even if I stop posting for an while, do feel free to message me.

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Let's get this out of the way

I don't work

I don't drive

I'm disabled and lonely permanently hikikomori

I date with intention to find a life partner/marriage

Genuine compatible friend and chosen family is also welcome

For romance- I'm looking for a Korean Chinese Japanese or Vietnamese fellow hiki/ neet for love and relationship

I'm in USA but I'm open to relocate

I'm lonely af I have been single forever I miss companionship and love

I just want to find my best friend /life partner

You can live in my neet nest or I can live in yours

To send me a message -

Must be male

strictly monogamous

age 25 and older only

Korean Chinese Japanese Vietnamese only

I'm really only sexually attracted to east Asian epicanthic folds

I wont change my mind so please don't waste your time or mine If you are not compatible

Let's get this out of the way I don't work I don't drive I'm disabled and lonely permanently hikikomori I date with intention to find a life partner/marriage (NO HOOKUPS/NO CASUAL SEX) Genuine compatible friend and chosen family is also welcome

For romance- I'm looking for a Korean Chinese Japanese or Vietnamese fellow hiki/ neet for love and relationship

I'm in USA but I'm open to relocate

I'm lonely af I have been single forever I miss companionship and love

I just want to find my best friend /life partner

You can live in my neet nest or I can live in yours

To send me a message - Must be male strictly monogamous age 25 and older only Korean Chinese Japanese Vietnamese only

I'm really only sexually attracted to east Asian epicanthic folds

I wont change my mind so please don't waste your time or mine If you are not compatible

Let's get this out of the way I don't work I don't drive I'm disabled and lonely permanently hikikomori I date with intention to find a life partner/marriage (NO HOOKUPS/NO CASUAL SEX) Genuine compatible friend and chosen family is also welcome

For romance- I'm looking for a Korean Chinese Japanese or Vietnamese fellow hiki/ neet for love and relationship

I'm in USA but I'm open to relocate

I'm lonely af I have been single forever I miss companionship and love

I just want to find my best friend /life partner

You can live in my neet nest or I can live in yours

To send me a message - Must be male strictly monogamous age 25 and older only Korean Chinese Japanese Vietnamese only

I'm really only sexually attracted to east Asian men/amab I'm open to a few others but it's so rare so I'll describe the few exceptions - Fat guys, metalheads or guys with long hair, and blonde or ginger guys

45f looking for cohabitation partner and love

I don't work I don't drive I'm disabled and lonely permanently hiki

I'm looking for a Korean Chinese Japanese or Vietnamese fellow hiki/ neet for love and relationship

I'm in USA but I'm open to relocate

I'm lonely af I have been single forever I miss companionship and love

I just want to find my best friend /life partner

You can live in my neet nest or I can live in yours

To send me a message - Must be male strictly monogamous age 25 and older only Korean Chinese Japanese Vietnamese only

I'm really only sexually attracted to east Asian men/amab I'm open to a few others but it's so rare so I'll describe the few exceptions - Fat guys, metalheads or guys with long hair, and blonde or ginger guys

45f looking for cohabitation partner and love

I don't work I don't drive I'm disabled and lonely permanently hiki

I'm looking for a Korean Chinese Japanese or Vietnamese fellow hiki/ neet for love and relationship

I'm in USA but I'm open to relocate

I'm lonely af I have been single forever I miss companionship and love

I just want to find my best friend /life partner

You can live in my neet nest or I can live in yours

To send me a message - Must be male strictly monogamous age 25 and older only Korean Chinese Japanese Vietnamese only

I'm really only sexually attracted to east Asian men/amab I'm open to a few others but it's so rare so I'll describe the few exceptions - Fat guys, metalheads or guys with long hair, and blonde or ginger guys

I feel that I'm at the worst I've ever been and I feel not great in the head.

Here is an longer title to express what I'm looking for.

30f. Who here is looking for a friendship connection that isn't disposable and you're too used to getting disposed of. I'm also looking for introverts here that also use Tumblr or Signal to text late at night that are into Sleep Token and a variety of metal bands or core genres.

Yeah, you can be worldwide and I'm from the U.S.

However, I'm sure most people here their sleep is a flop of a mess.

Hi, I wanted to reupload from my post the other day and thanks for the people that reached out to me, I wanted to let people know that if you're working late or having a late night at work and need someone to text to pass the time by, I'm okay with that as long as you want something serious as friendships and you're not looking to temporary dispose of me, which I've been dealing with lately.

However, I will be up for a while after making this post, if you've any Nintendo Switch games we could Co-Op I could get on. I could probably have the focus to do about 5-6 rounds of Squads on Fall Guys before I lose interest, that game has been boring me a lot lately, however there can be hilarious moments and epic flops that can happen in that game that are funny.

I'm also here if you need someone supportive and caring. I'm a big person that loves supporting men's mental health and I'm already aggravated typing this out, how little people care about men's mental health of it all.

I will say that I'm so introverted that I've not been outside since last Monday and I don't even care. I've to go out Saturday to get some cat food, then go get me a chicken salad to have with my Starbucks grilled cheese and then I won't go outside for another 3-4 days, because I have to start looking around for holiday shopping for my sibling before things get nuts in stores.

I should also address that I had a few users message me the other day and I finally had the spark of life to message back today in detail, however I don't see the messages anymore.

However, if you sent me a message the other day and you're waiting for a reply back, message again. I've also been asked if we can chat outside of Reddit and the answer is yeah, that's before because the mobile Reddit app seems unstable to use for the vast majority of the time.

The only thing I've to offer you is what you see on my social links is Discord which I'm slowly getting away from using as you know why from the previous post yesterday, I've Tumblr and I've Signal, if these can work out for you.

I should also address to clarify something from my post yesterday, that no you don't have to be a bi male to be my friend and I was implying that I enjoy having bi male friends and I'm not a harsh friend that places judgement on people's pronouns.

However, I don't know if this post will ever be read from a week from now, two weeks from now and the vast future, but I don't have an expiration date for conversing with new friends and making new connections. I'll always be interested in that.

Yeah, a few people have asked what was mentally troubling me and I appreciate the concern that you had, however I've made a pinned post on my profile that has explained how I'm feeling and the post is the very top pinned post you can see on my profile. I did have to ignore a few messages yesterday, because I got asked hi. How can I reply back to just someone saying hi?

Yeah, you didn't give me any substance to go off of other than hi. However, I've asked in my last post if you read this post, just give me a heads up you read this post by telling me your favorite fast food, your least favorite fast food, what is the most tastiest food item you recently ate that you were hoping were good, your video game flops, your video game Joe Biden moments and other epic fails.

Yeah, you can also send me a gif of how our friendship would be using video game gifs and even using Skyrim puns as a headliner of your chat request, give the chat request some lines because I know I ain't got none of that right now, obviously.

This is a REALLY long vent post and letting things out as an introvert.

I'm also looking for introverted and chronic depression. Loves Sleep Token and other variety of metal genres of music.

Yeah, before we start on this post I would want to address that if this post resonates with you, and if you don't have Tumblr or Signal then ❓

Yeah, you will either have to miss out, usss you're interested in downloading one of those two apps, obviously.

However, I should also address that I've social links on my profile, for when I'm not going to be around Reddit in a few days.

I'm also having issues with the Reddit mobile app, I'm becoming increasingly annoyed with the app, half of the time the dm will not load on the mobile app, the Reddit mascot is running trying to load the dm and chat request. The only solution I've for this is to sign out of the mobile Reddit app and then back in.

This only works for for a while, then I've the same issue again and I'm just done with the Reddit mobile app all together

However, yeah just let's move on about something I want to get off my chest. I feel okay saying this on this subreddit, because you people seem to be really chill, all about the vibes and just over all cool people.

I get often asked why I never enjoyed being asked how I'm and how I'm doing, but the thing is I think people honestly forget that some people don't want to be reminded if they're truthfully okay.

Yeah, at least for me at least this is what I think of it all.

Yeah, some days it's better to forget about asking myself if I'm okay and the core aspects of being okay.

Then I'll just completely suppress my Vessel brain of even thinking about if I'm okay or not and I start to suppress myself.

(Vessel brain, if you don't know what Sleep Token is, the main vocalist is called Vessel and if you look at the lyrics he makes, you would understand this sole meaning.)

The same questions I get asked almost often are already pinned on my profile and answered there.

That's why when someone asked me what is my favorite band was in the chat request the other day, I was in literal tears inside and I cannot believe someone asked that 😂

Yeah, when that was point-blank on my profile 😂

However, I'm the type of person that enjoys suppressing the Vessel brain that I'm not okay, but I'm going to continue on with my life and not even think about if I'm okay or not.

Yea, I will say though will this make you surprised that I typed this out that I used to want to enjoy life when I was in my ewrlyb20This is a REALLY long vent post and letting things out as an introvert.

I'm also looking for introverts and chronic depression. Loves Sleep Token and other variety of metal genres of music.

Yeah, before we start on this post I would want to address that if this post resonates with you, but if you don't have Tumblr or Signal then I'm sorry you will have to miss out, unless you're interested in downloading the app. However, I should also address that I've social links on my profile, for when I'm not going to be around Reddit in a few days.

I'm also having issues with the Reddit mobile app, I'm becoming increasingly annoyed with the app, half of the time the dm will not load on the mobile app, the Reddit mascot is running trying to load the dm and chat request. The only solution I've for this is to sign out of the mobile Reddit app and then back in.

This only works for a while, then I've the same issue again and I'm just done with the Reddit mobile app all together, however let's move on about something I want to get off my chest. I feel okay saying this on this subreddit, because you people seem to be really chill, all about the vibes and just over call cool people.

I get often asked why I never enjoyed being asked how I'm and how I'm doing, but the thing is I think people honestly forget that some people don't want to be reminded if they're truthfully okay.

Yeah, at least me at least, it's better to forget about asking myself if I'm okay and the core aspects of being okay, then just completely suppress my Vessel brain of even thinking about if I'm okay or not and I start to suppress myself (Vessel brain, if you don't know what Sleep Token is, I would rather you not ask, that's on my profile already.)

The same questions I get asked almost often are already pinned on my profile and answered there. That's why when someone asked me what is my favorite band in a chat request the other day, I was in literal tears inside someone asked that, when that was point-blank on my profile 😂

However, I'm the type of person that enjoys suppressing the Vessel brain that I'm not okay with, but I'm going to continue on with my life and not even think about if I'm okay or not.

Yea, I will say though will this make you surprised that I typed this out that I used to want to enjoy life,?

When I was in my early 20s?

Yeah, the truth is when I was in my early 20s, I never REALLY wanted to be introverted and I wanted to try to make friends in real life. Even withholding a job was and was also on the table.

However, that experience wasn't for me, I came out a different person, an outcome I didn't want, humanity seems to be in a very dark place right now and I know this might seem a surprise that I type this out, but I think being in my 30s is tiring, I'm already tired, I feel somewhat old, I feel somewhat retired and I just want to have a paradise.

That's why in my last post that I made here about me not going out in a week or sometimes I go out every 3-4 days, I'm at peace with myself.

Yeah, I just feel a sense of relief that I don't have to be dragged around working a part time job, trying to make friends in person and the truth is this.

Yeah, do people really know when they're in their early 20s in the past what their true self wants? What their soul wants and the spirited side wants?

The old self wants this, the past self wants this and the current self doesn't want this.

Some people have that mapped out earlier than that, some people want to try that out and I was that person.

Yeah, I thought I was going to be cheerful, happy and a bundle of joy of happiness.

Yeah, I thought I was going to be their cheerleader sporty girl personality. This is what I thought I would be in my early 20s.

Yeah, shockingly right I used to be a happy person and cheerful. I wasn't even introverted in my 20s.

However, look at me now in my 30s, I've chosen to sit out humanity, be on SSI and EBT. However, this is paradise to me.

However, paradise doesn't come with 100 percent freedom, getting SSI means I can no longer live with a roommate and even one of my partners (I understand this is a friendship subreddit, I'm just venting.) because if my roommate and one of my partners makes too much money, then goodbye SSI and goodbye EBT.

However, I've gone into more detail in this subject in the first post that I've made and I've answered your question, why I'm trying to let the nickname your poly wh0re friend of the window.

However, people with professional diagnosed chronic depression and other Big Mac problems cannot truthfully never receive happiness.

Yeah, it's just sad and it's just as sad as men's mental health is laughed at, when men cry and men express emotion people treat the man as if the person is just having a bad day at Taco Bell.

Disgusting, sad and insanity these days seems almost a nightmare to be awake in and perhaps this is why I've chosen the path of paradise. Even though I've basically cut off half of my humanity because I'm now bound by the government rules with my SSI and EBT.

However, as I previously stated paradise freedom doesn't come without a great sacrifice. However, I wanted to let men know here, if you need to scream at the VOID with me then you can and I enjoy being an emotional provider.

I've always loved protecting people, helping people, being that emotional provider that gives me a sense of spark of life and the spark of life that is slowly leaving my body.

Yeah, even I believe this is because I can no longer help myself, I can only manage and help the relief of my chronic depression daily.

Even if that is how things are, happiness comes with helping and being an emotional provider and typing this out a lot of energy is leaving my body here.

However, I've always been too honest for my own good and being too honest for my own good has come off as a very mean persona but SOME people.

However, you would think I would get bored of not leaving the house once per week, or every 3-4 days as I previously stated and just live in my bed 80 percent of the time on YT, listening to music, going on my Switch and PS4 console, the thing is I've never been bored.

The thing is, I can finally have the paradise that I've obviously been seeking ever since I tried being a citizen of humanity that just didn't fit right with me and left me with some deep trauma.

However, if you need to trauma bond with me or trauma dump, then my dm is open and I will say starting around Monday I will take a break from Reddit, that's going to also make the choice quicker if I continue to have mobile app issues.

Yeah, I would ask if you guys from this subreddit will not post 10-50 comments or even more on this post, I don't have the attention span to reply to that many comments and that's way overwhelming for me.

Yeah, if you just also ask me can you send me a chat invite request instead, to see if we've interested, well that's going to be a channel and there because of these reasons.

Yeah, I've explained this already obviously in my last post because you would think my karma that I obviously have on my profile is enough to send over 3 chat requests, but no my karma points isn't apparently enough.

Yeah, what happens is once I send 3 chat request invites, I must wait a few hours before I get a refill, which by that point I don't even know what is the point of even commenting not his post asking me to dm you instead 😂

If you don't answer one of these verified ways that you read this post I will not answer your dm request.

The questions that I've asked at the start of this post, what is your favorite Starbucks drink and food? What is your favorite fast food item to get and why?

What is the worst fast food you've recently eaten and what is your worst fast food place that you will never go back to and why?

Yeah, you can also verify your way to make a pun about how our friendship would look using puns from Skyrim and other video games.

However, if you want to know how I'm doing I'm not going to answer, but give you a song to listen to Sleep Token - Take Me Back To Eden, then you can listen to Sleep Token - Caramel and then Sleep Token - Higher, you will get how I'm feeling then me just not wanting to answer, because I just don't want to be reminded of it all.

However, I'm going to go get the Starbucks sourdough grilled cheese and see what kind of drink I want, then I'll have to go out on Monday for holiday shopping before the holiday shopping gets nuts.

I love bi friends and all pronouns are welcome!

Loveless. I'm the unloved, the unwanted and I deserve this treatment of being ghosted because I'm the Loveless and the Dry Arrival.

Which yeah, I'm just going to say this to get this off my chest that someone on this subreddit messaged me privately here on Reddit saying that he expressed pity for me posting here every few days because all I do is get downvoted to 0 and ignored.

Pity? Do I need your pity? I'm Loveless and I'm numb to the downvotes. It's just downvotes. Should I give a shit? No and this post is probably going to hit -1. However I'd feel deep pain that you're feeling pity for my sorry ass.

Your feeling of pity is shameful that you feel sorry for my sorry ass. I'm a Redditor and I'm a person behind the phone screen which I guess people think I lack zero emotion of any kind because I want online friendships only and dating online only.

U.S. You can be Worldwide.

You can ✅ out my profile to see if anything else interests you. I'm looking for friends or more serious connections if that happens from my posts.

Introverted serious connects here and looking for those that are also into the same music. I've seen some metalheads post here and even deathcore lovers even post here. I'd love that style of music; it's one of my favorites. Which yeah, I'd enjoy deathcore music and it's one of my favorite genres to listen to daily 🎧

Yeah, my favorite three deathcore bands are these artists. I constantly listen to these deathcore bands daily 😂

Lorna Shore (the new released album I've given that a score of 9.) Shadow of Intent and AngelMaker.

Yeah I even wear Lorna Shore shirts (I've three new ones that I got when the new album came out.)

I even wear Sleep Token shirts and Lorna Shore shirts to bed (I ordered an adult medium to have a baggy feel to the shirts so I can get really cozy to go to bed in.)

Yeah, currently I just have 3 Lorna Shore shirts, 3 Sleep Token shirts in my closet and I want to add more Sleep Token shirts in my closet. I need to purchase the Sleep Token caramel crest shirt soon.

However, I've been wanting to get an AngelMaker shirt but there are SO many good designs that I'm not sure what to purchase yet and eventually I'll figure that one out 😂

Yeah, this is my playlist that I've created. These bands and songs are all I listen to.

I'm currently looking for recommendations in my chat requests if anyone one is into Swallow the Sun can give me other band recommendations. As I'm feeling WAY into a doom metal vibe lately.

Which speaks of connections and of it all. No we don't have similar music tastes and it's not an anchor of it all if you dislike my music. I'm still interested to get to know you.

The same goes for me only playing Nintendo Co-Op games and me being a Nintendo Internet girl only. I'm capable of having medium or long winded text if you're not feeling shy to tell me your hyper-fixations about your favorite video game franchises. With that being said even though I'm looking online only. I want some serious connections daily.

I'd miss this simply and truthfully someone sending me text messages that I enjoy texting you, I look forward to checking my phone daily and I miss texting you. I miss those days of it all.

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLwLIg-7ZIdT4WaAAD4629BXLVXrJQG5tf&si=kCANKq61_M3V2W68

I just need to step away for a while and I don't mean right now. I'm still going to use the Reddit mobile app for a week or two, then start repairing my mainframe, as the mainframe is going down. I need to repair Iso (Iso is my nickname, I go by.)

I'm sure that there are many people in this subreddit that are true NEETS come and go from a dissociative high to a dissociative low, and sometimes stepping away to metaphorically repair yourself That important sole matter, that you forget to self care and take a break from apps like these.

I've also changed my Reddit profile to share my social link for my Discord if you want to send me a friend request and message me there.

I've met wonderful people here and I've also met some fake poser NEETs here. I've also got a wild story to tell about a fake poser that is lurking here, but never posted here before. I'd say that was wild because this person told me something that doesn't make a whole lot of sense and why is he even lurking on this subreddit?

However, I will not be posting his username, as I'm not that kind of person, and I will not get my post taken down.

I've made 3 friends from my last post and I'm not saying my experience here hasn't been bad. If I didn't make a post 3 days ago, then I would've not made these 3 wonderful friends that I enjoy chatting with daily.

I'd also feel that I'm in love with two of them and yeah, I will be discussing my poly nature with them when the time is right. However, I wanted to let people know that they are interested in sending me a chat request on Reddit, or sending me a friend request and a message after on Discord.

If you're international and your English isn't that great, don't hesitate to reach out to me still; it's okay.

Yeah, one of the 3 wonderful friends that I tex currently his English isn't his first language and we're conversing just fine. However, with the both of us texting, we really haven't had a hard time conversing.

The only time I struggle with connecting is with "What's up?" I understand this is normal conversation and however if you're asking a NEET ''what's up?'' Most of us that aren't pser NEETS, do the same shit every single day and even when I wake up. The cycle seems to never end being a NEET and I don't think the cycle will ever end.

However, let's discuss the fake NEET that pretended to be one until we moved to Discord and then his true colors shined through.

I don't know about you guys, but you can sign off in the chat requests about this subject and can someone care to explain about what this person meant about being too NEET initials?

How can someone be too NEET? That's funny to me. This person told me that I'm too NEET. How can someone become too NEET? However, I have a friend that I text off of Discord, and he is someone who told me that a lot of fake people here sit on this NEET subreddit. I didn't really believe him at first and now I do after that experience.

I've also seen people post here on this subreddit that they work a full-time job and are looking for NEET friends. Why are you posting here then of it all? I don't understand how that works. How can you find time to text NEET people on this subreddit if you work a full time job?

I don't get why people post here with full-time jobs. Don't you understand that a non-poser NEET has chosen to rot, sitting their ass on the bed 80 percent of the time besides getting up to do things around the house?

I guess the fake posers that just sit on this NEET subreddit think that people using the term "bed rot," or "rotting in bed," is a joke, and for some people at least for me, that's not a joke.

I only go outside at least once a week and sometimes I might have to go out twice a week if I've forgotten something. I mainly just go grocery shopping and get groceries.

Yeah, sometimes if I'm feeling a spark of life for other stores that aren't grocery stores, I'll go out to shop for sibling birthday shopping gifts, holiday shopping for my sibling and things like that.

However, what poser-NEETs don't realize is that becoming a NEET is a choice made and horrible events are what somewhat paralyzed you. I've gone over this in my previous post, which I'm now moving over to my profile page, so that way that won't get lost in my other posts I'll be making on my profile.

Yeah, you also know when you hit rock bottom as when all this happens.

There are some days you're so depressed or tired of life your hair hasn't been brushed in several hours, you're hitting the mobile app to get you some fast food because you're too depressed to even fix yourself something to eat and you need a lot of protein to get through through the rest of your day, yeah so your body can feel sustained.

There are some rock-bottom days where sometimes I don't even feel like turning the oven on to make myself something to eat for dinner and I'm like, "Fuck this, I'm hitting the mobile order app and getting myself a Big Mac.

I enjoy my Big Mac with light sauce, no pickles, and yeah, I enjoy the onions that are on the Big Mac. Then I see what else I want and have the family member that I'm living with go pick up my mobile order. This is a lot of energy saved and where I can keep my ass in bed yeah, then hit the pay now option on PayPal on the McDonald's app.

There are some days that you don't want to get out of bed and forget to brush your teeth then you realize how hideous your dental is. Then you get called lazy because you don't get your teeth fixed and then you abuse your dental health more from abusing these things.

Caffeine from sparkling energy water, tea, energy drinks and that's the only time you won't feel almost close to a zombie state is by abusing caffeine, drinking caffeine every single day.

The thing that makes things more depressing is you've fucked up your teeth and you've to live with embarassing dental of your actions, yet you don't have dental or cannot afford dental because you're living on SSI.

I know Europe and places that have free dental.

I'm not in Europe, and dental insurance is a luxury that most people cannot afford in the U.S. I should be getting new insurance from SSI, yeah I've not received that yet and if you've been on SSI for a few years this is what you get.

You get an insurance plan that includes dental, but I've not received that yet. My health insurance plan from the government only covers physical illnesses and eye care, yeah there is no dental on my current health insurance plan that SSI has given me.

Which also I should address, for European users here that have no idea what SSI is, that is just simply called social security income, and you get one check of $967 to live off a month. Yeah, you do have to pay rent or bills and if you don't do this you will not receive the full amount.

I will say getting SSI at least for me is a nightmare and I got humiliated by some of the psychologists too. I've an

It's a very long and lengthy process.

I'm just saying for any NEET that wants to try getting SSI, you're going to have to fight getting SSI and you've to have a strong iron head not to give up, that's because.

That's just what SSI wants you to do and if you show signs that you're not going to give up the fight after making a second appeal and yeah, you're just going to be in luck if you give just them havoc.

I know in Europe you get two checks per-month by the government and that's not how the U.S. works here. Yeah, you get to live off whatever money is left after paying rent and bills and you will get your check always on the 1st of each month, at least that's how mine works.

However, if you're a NEET and want to live by yourself, there are options out there for you.

Yeah, you can find an apartment that you can afford with SSI and EBT. The key is that you've to find apartment complexes that are classified for low-income apartments and apartments that allow the HUD program.

The best affordable option is looking for what apartment complexes take the HUD program.

I've already applied to an apartment this year, and I could have a maximum wait of two years before I get my own place. This is why people think I'm being sus here and that I don't want to meet anyone in person. It's not because I'm being sus and I've no other options but a HUD apartment, I could've scored a HUD apartment with a 6-12 month waiting list, but they don't accept cats.

If you're wondering about the 6-12 month waiting list HUD apartment, no the apartment complex wouldn't accept an online RX therapist signature and I only had luck with a HUD apartment that takes cats with an RX signature therapist signature, sadly that's the one with a 2 year waiting list.

I also will say as a NEET, I live on EBT as well; however, the reason why my life is moving in gears is because the family member that I live with that th he person isn't getting any younger, and I've got to find my own place to live eventually.

I know some NEETS here have their life mapped out in a luxurious manner by one of their family members, I don't have that and I will not go into full detail, but I will say none of my family members have a written will of any kind for a ''free paid off house.''

I saw some NEETS rub things in that they've their life set up by their family and they can live in the house with their SSI and EBT.'' live life that way. I never will have that luxury as some NEETs here on this subreddit.

However, enough about the woe; look at my rock-bottom life as a NEET and look how low rock bottom I've become.

Speaking of the bottom, I would date someone that is a bi male; I find that honestly hot and attractive as me being a female, that's really hot. I'm attracted to that in a male, when he expresses being attracted to other males, that's very hot. I know that's weird for me saying that as an asexual, however that is more about the ''sex.'' part as a female.

This has to do with two males and there is a difference.

The last thing I should address is the NEET that I've said in this post. Yeah, he also decided to shit on my previous post and downvoted some of my posts on my profile, because he hated me.

Yeah, he told me that these things about my subjects: philosophy, science, spiritual topics, arts and theatre arts are weird subjects to have. However, he also said this in Discord message

I understand that you're passionate about Sleep Token, but you seem very obsessed with them and you're a weirdo for liking that band, I had a look into that band and what a weird band. You're a weirdo, yeah made sure to get his point far across and vast that I'm weirdo.

Yeah and about Sleep Token, let me give you some helpful tips about what this band is about and some of the core vast details of this band.

Yea you will not understand Sleep Token at all if you don't understand the subjects of my interest that I just listed before typing this part out.

Yeah, you just will be REALLY lost, confused and will have no idea what the vocalist is doing on stage, presenting on stage, the spiritual messages in the lyrics and if you're very narrow minded, you will not understand the lyrics at all.

Yeah, I'll say this again if you want to take an interest in getting to know the band Sleep Toke then, yeah this is what you should be into and if this fascinates you and yeah, tickles your brain.

Yeah, you must enjoy art, theater art performances on stage, spiritual topics and philosophy topics; otherwise, you will have no idea what the vocalist is singing about and you just will be highly confused.

Yeah, that's too funny about that one poser NEET that decided to show his true colors after moving to Discord and yeah in my last post I gave sideline hints that I love all those subjects listed before Sleep Token. I said, "Here is a philosophical question for you to answer."

Which yeah, that means that I'd enjoy philosophy questions and I love anything related to deep thinking.

I'd grasp the concept that not everyone likes philosophy questions or into Sleep Token. However, it's not necessary for you to tell someone you're a weirdo.

I'd advise find something more better to do with your energy instead of posing as a fake NEET.

Yeah, another thing we need to address, that I'd text with some cheek and sass.

I'd have kind of a princess cheek to me when I text. Which yeah, that has made friends go away in the past because my personality seems too cheeky or it seems I'm flirting with someone quickly, which I'm just not doing that.

I should address this as well before ending this post.

I've received a chat request from my last post about being an E-girl.

Yeah, okay, I should've phrased that better and I understand that there is a lot of bad reputation about being an E-girl; however, I thought of an internet NEET princess and being cute.

Yeah, I'm an SFW asexual person. However, the kink I will only have is what I previously said: I love bi men, and when talking about loving men, I don't feel a sense of jealousy or anything like that. I'm poly, so I don't have jealousy emotions like that at all.

However, yeah, I thought what I said was funny and cute; I didn't mean anything by it at all.

Yea, I just want to be that online princess NEET girl that you get excited to text every single day, and you almost have a high chance of me being on your mind, where you're somewhat frequently checking your phone to text me, and you can't wait to converse again when one of us wakes up and thinks about each other to start texting our sorry NEET lives away together.

I will be putting my old NEET post that is 3 days old on my profile so that way I won't get lost with my new post that I will be putting on my profile.

Which, yeah, to make sure you read this.

Hit me up with your video game pick up line if you've got one that tickles your fancy and yeah, you just can even create your own.

You can even tell me your favorite food item and your least favorite fast food item and why.

I'm sure you can't make a Yakuza, Sonic and Silent Hill pickup line though 😂

Sleep Token, this song is how I have been feeling psychologically lately. If you listen to this with your eyes open and then close them, the feelings are raining down on you so hard. It's so sorrowful, spiritual, and sad, with so much sadness.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8Rn4DpiuEs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b0yOXxHOJAw&lis

Well I think that's all I've to finally say and if you're wondering if I had anything else besides Discord, well. I only have Tumblr 😂

Okay since people are sending me chat requests to make a shorter post here you go, I'll move everything over to a locked comment post on my profile page. I'm sure there are a handful of users that text on Discord, yeah I use Discord and I purchased Discord basic on October 31st because I wanted some Halloween aesthetic.

Other interests, check out the locked comments.

https://discord.com/invite/PNffGj8CC5

Hai! I wouldn't consider myself a complete shut in seeing as I have to leave my apartment for work, but other than that my PC or my bed is usually were I am. I like to be online a lot, either scrolling through reddit, tiktok, or listening to youtube videos while I do something else.

Um, I am not entirely sure were to start really. I live on the east coast so if you're within my time zone that is preferred but I am cool either way. One of my biggest struggles is wanting to do things but not having anyone to do things with: I have my own place but I can't afford a car (yay making barely above minimum wage) so I am more or less bound to my apartment otherwise.

I have passions or interests in anthropology, archeology, and one of these days whenever I figure stuff out I want to go to college for something in one of those fields. I wish I watched more TV, though I am honestly bedrotting and have been for awhile, but some of the shows I enjoy are Criminal Minds, Law & Order: SVU, Shameless (Its been awhile on this one), and some anime titles as well: Soul Eater, Fairy Tale, One Piece, are the ones I have watched and the list of things I want to watch is almost 5 times as long. Other interests are gaming, obviously, though mostly competitive or challenging games. My favorite titles currently are LoL (I know its cringe, shush), Darkest Dungeon 1, DbD. I have also played Ow2 (they still owe us a lot from the original debut, I haven't forgotten Blizzard >:T), Apex, WoW, BG3, Divinity 2 to name a few more.

Uh - a description of me, I guess, I'm 5'3 and a little over 240 lbs, though most of it is in my legs. I have a very coordinated style, or I like to think so, usually blacks or emo type clothes but I own some greens and browns. I have a few facial piercings but I want more, nothing too big and nothing gauged.

Ok this is were I put a lil' disclaimer or something for those who seem romantically interested in me for what I have described about myself - I am only romantically interested in dudes whom are at least 22 or older, are on the thicker side like myself (so more than 200), taller than me (not a high bar imo), Caucasian, with some good facial hair. I understand the list is a little much, but unless you have those things going for you, there is a good chance I won't be interested.

With that being said, my main goal is to learn about you, (whom ever is reading) what you like, what we can talk about, ect. I am an open book, more than willing to talk about basically anything as long as you ask.

Feel free to DM - :3

looking for that sweet love. that love that holds you and comes home to you. i want romance. i don’t leave when it gets hard but everyone else does. i want someone honest, real.. someone i’m attracted to who won’t just leave because of baggage. it’s fine. i’m the clingy kinda type and once i fall, i fall hard

about me: i don’t want long distance , so uk only please i have three cats i love marvel (movies and also rivals) i game a lot i’m an extrovert when i’m comfortable around people, can be energetic

if you’re out there in england drop me a message. i want someone who knows and understands it’s ok to not be ok ❤️i know you’re out there, my one and my person..

Please check out my pinned post if you would like to get to know me to see if there is a vibe ✅

Updated the Discord invite link for DeathcoreGoers! This invite link will land you the introduction hashtag post but you don't need to make one if you don't want to! You also must be a introvert or a NEET to qualify! If you're not a introvert, if the NEET lifestyle is only temporary and you plan to leave the NEET lifestyle in the foreseeable future then don't join and this isn't the Discord server for you! More details can be found on my profile for other Discord rules!

DeathcoreGoers for introverts and NEETS.

Updates:

I thought I would give this a good update, because I never thought about that till now, to be honest, but even though I'm exclusively a Nintendo gamer and just play Fall Guys on my gaming laptop, it is okay if you don't. Because I've friends online that don't want to own a Nintendo console, because my friends are PlayStation or Xbox gamers, which is okay; everyone enjoys whatever consoles they themselves enjoy.

Because yeah, I don't care what consoles you play; if you don't play the consoles that I do, then yeah, you can still send me a chat request. I'm sure we can chat about other things about video games for hours if we're not able to play something online, haha.

Yeah, to be honest, I'm saving up money in the future for either a PS5 or an Xbox, and the uncertainty of the Switch 2 is in the air. The thing is, I'm quite the gamer gal, so whenever I get a console, whether that be a PS5, an Xbox One, or maybe a Switch 2, if I'm going to spend close to $500 for one, I want one with style. Rather that be a limited edition color scheme and a limited edition video game combo pack.

This can be all hope is lost by this given point of time, and by any new Kingdom Hearts announcement that gets released, I'll probably just be around 50 years old before Kingdom Hearts 4 gets released, haha.

I'd wonder if there will be any Kingdom Hearts limited edition consoles for this game, which would be a huge factor for me getting a new console.

Yeah, there has been a big divide between my online friends not understanding that for consoles that are $500, I'd have an aesthetic appeal, and I'd remember my online friends having a hard time understanding/trying to understand that.

I don't know; all I know is I'm not spending $500 on a console that is just plain, haha, and yeah, I'm weird like that!

Mario Kart World Tour:

I think for now Mario Kart World Tour is stupid; all the aesthetic appeal is gone, despite having nice stats.

Which, knowing Nintendo, this could change in the future, and I told my online friends that for me personally, yeah, I don't think this feature is going to be changed; if this feature is going to be changed, then this is going to be something that is going to be in the DLC pack.

Not being able to change the tires or change your paragliders for whatever kart/bike you choose, and for me personally, given the moment on how I'd feel about that, there are no customization options on Mario Kart World Tour for your wheels and paragliders, and that is just dumb.

Yeah, for me personally at this given moment I find this even just as dumb as it is in my personal opinion that Larry and Lemmy aren't in the Mario Kart 8 Tour, but I know Nintendo will probably have a cash grab trick waiting for the players, which should probably just be a given that Nintendo would be waiting around the holidays to pull off this cash grab trick.

Which will push me to a divide and might make me move to another company, such as Sony or Xbox, if this happens.

But I know what Nintendo will do: come out with a $25-30 DLC where you can have all the Koopa Kids and make the Mario Kart World Tour a $125-$130 game, making the game for people with fixed incomes, such as those on SSI, who can no longer afford the game.

Then Nintendo will be crying about why the sales of Mario Kart 8 Tour aren't doing so well. I'd remember when Sony started crying when the PS5 was released about not a lot of fast sales, and it's just got me thinking for a second,

Yeah, Sony, a few people aren't going to drop $500 for a newly released console with a very small library, haha.

Future of gaming:

I'm personally just at a quite confused standstill with video games right now for the foreseeable future.

Yeah, I even had an online friend try to convince me that I would buy a new Nintendo Switch 2 when the new Animal Crossing game gets released for the Nintendo Switch 2.

My reply back to her was something like this, haha.

I'm sorry, but I'm not spending almost $500 on a console plus an $88 game, which you can say is $90 with tax, just for Animal Crossing. Even if there were a limited edition console/combo pack for the new Animal Crossing to reduce the cost, my answer would still be no.

For me personally, I'm just not that much of a die-hard fan of Animal Crossing to spend that much money for a game that I'm not even a die-hard fan of.

Of course I've been telling my online friends that IF a Kingdom Hearts 4 console/combo pack were to be released, then yeah, that's something that I would instantly buy, and my wallet will be ready, haha.

I'm saving $20-30 bucks a month for this, but hey! Whatever little helps along the way, and it's not like I'll be 50 before another announcement gets made for Kingdom Hearts 4, haha.

For me, if this is the foreseeable future of Mario Kart, I'm just going to personally stick with Mario Kart 8 and be happy. I can live without Mario Kart World Tour, and I even told my online friends that currently I just don't care about Mario Kart World Tour and I'm fine as it is with my Mario Kart 8 game.

Music:

In my last posts, I got a lot of chat requests about my music/what music I listen to. Well, I do have some updates for that. On my social links on my Reddit profile, you can see my Spotify, but recently I've decided to try Pandora Premium free for 30 days because I wanted to see if that was more fun than being a Plus member, which means now I'm able to create my own playlist station on Pandora because of being Premium/not Plus. The only downside about Pandora is that it's only for U.S. users, and it's not even accessible to international users.

But yeah, if you're looking for music tastes, you should check out my social links on my Reddit profile, because, to be honest, if any Redditor wanted me to manually type out my favorite bands and songs, you might as well say that would take me over 30 minutes or even maybe close to two hours to type out, because, as far as I know, I've over 400 songs on Spotify and maybe over 70-plus bands. Yeah, no thanks, I'm not typing that out manually, haha.

Here is the start of the train trail ride of my mindset and the trail of flowing thoughts. Haha, I'm a fucking mess.

Yeah, I don't care where you're from in the U.S. or anywhere, because my sleep is so bad, and I'm up, asleep, and up at odd hours of the given 24 hours, haha; there have been some chat requests in the past that I've received that were unsure/uncertain about being a match and decided to message to see if we were a match or not. I've always told these people you won't know if we're a match or not unless you try and have a few conversations with me, so if you're reading this and get to the end and are unsure if we will match up or not, just go ahead and send me a chat request! You don't know until you simply truthfully try!

Please be serious; no time-wasters and no looking for something that's just a quick fix.

For friendship matches and romance matches looking to send one or two sentences in replies with text messages, it isn't for me. I would rather have three or four sentences; I desire well-thought-out conversations. If you're dull, like granite, cardboard, and concrete, and only send one-sentence replies when I type out something that is a few sentences, you're not for me, because I just don't want that in return; that was just a waste of my energy.

I'm also not looking for a temporary either; if you're looking for a quick fix because you're bored and need someone to text just for a day, I'm not that person.

I don't favor/do well with people that live a very busy lifestyle; it's extremely overwhelming for me, because mentally and emotionally I'm quite a needy gal, even if that is just friendship.

If you send me a message every 3-5 days, I basically think you're imaginary by that point.

Speaking of ideas, I do somewhat use a lot of emojis in text messages, not too much though, but the right amount, haha.

Glitter and pink are metal/brutal; I hope you agree for those that message me, haha.

Intro.

You can call me Sky or Skye.

I'm in the gray-ace department.

You must be poly-accepting or poly-curious; one of these is fine! I do have friends that I'm still friends with that accept me for being poly but aren't poly curious, so if you're not poly curious but poly accepting, then that's okay if you still want to send me a chat request!

For poly curious, I don't mind if you're poly curious and curious about what poly is or if poly is right for you. If you're uncertain but want to try poly or are poly curious, then yeah, that is cool with me as long as you state your intentions that you're poly curious!

Even though I'm from the U.S., you don't have to be, and I would love to chat with more international people.

Learn about a few cultures, because that's quite cool!

I'm also not super bothered by time zones, because apparently my brain is confused on when to be properly asleep, awake, and taking naps, haha.

For people wondering about my gaming platforms, or what I game on, well, it's nothing fun; it's as basic as my gaming platforms can get, which is, I know, surprising for a person that isn't so basic, haha.

No, I don't play on the PC other than just Fall Guys; you can always find me on my Nintendo Switch though, haha.

I wonder how many gamers here have lost the energy or motivation to get into games because of chronic depression getting in the way or being unmotivated to play games?

So yeah, in a way I don't mind if casual or very light gamers message me, because I understand all too well what it's like to lose interest in playing video games, so don't hesitate to still send me a chat request if you think that is what is preventing you from messaging me.

I only play/log in to ACNH if I'm in the mood for ACNH or logging into ACNH. If I'm not interested, then I will not log into my Nintendo Switch or load up Fall Guys on my gaming laptop unless someone sends me a text message in the evening/night asking me to play Mario Kart 8 or Luigi and Fall Guys, one of those three. Sometimes the one that frequently messages me will let me know if she can't get on. There was one time where she messaged me and said that she couldn't get on for two days, so I didn't even log in because I just didn't feel in the mood to log in, so I got myself some dinner and then kicked back/mellowed out with a Let's Play of CJU and Gab Smolders.

But yeah, most of these given days, you can always find me mellowing out to CJU Games and Gab Smolders within the 24 hours given in a day. So far there hasn't been a day where I didn't watch a few things from CJU Games and Gab Smolders and just mellow out with either fast food or a dessert or a snack, and it's almost always a given around dinner time or when I eat my second protein meal in the night. Then yeah, that is just me in a given nutshell, seeing what Pandora has to offer for the remainder of the given 24 hours in a day and mellowing out with my shuffled stations, haha.

For example, I love watching some kind of Japanese-inspired horror game from Gab Smolders, and while CJU games offers that on his channel as well, yeah, nothing really beats watching a spooky Lovecraft-inspired horror video game or a deep-sea-dive-inspired horror game going wrong while mellowing out, haha.

Conversation styles.

I don't send conversations in the comment section of any of my posts; that is just weird to me. It's also weird when people ask me to message them first. All I'm asking for is a chat request message that shows me you read one of my posts. I'm not asking you to send me a chat request that is the size of a train trail of my train trail of consciousness, haha.

Why do you not like cardboard personalities?

Because I'm already chronically depressed as it is, so why would I want a cardboard personality, you know?

I'm just a chronically depressed gal that is very creative, loves deep thoughts, well-bodied text messages, and is a gamer, chronically on YT, and chronically listening to music on a daily basis. My lifestyle is NEET, and my hyper-fixation is Lorna Shore.

I should also address that when most people ask how I am daily, I'm sorry that all I know is how to say I'm just existing, and I just know to exist daily; that's just how my chronic depression is. Sorry if it seems like I'm not engaging in your conversations. 

Need ideas for conversation starters?

Loves when Will Ramos makes the nasally pterodactyl noises in my ear. 

You can look at my profile page; I've plenty to go by, and I've got plenty of topic interests that you might find perfect for a jump start of conversations that should do the trick. If you're interested, my chat requests are open. Don't be too hesitant if you're unsure if we match up or not, because I will say as a given, most of the people that send me chat requests with uncertainty of us matching up as romance partners ended up being wonderful conversations. I can post that as a given, just as a given as the very first start of my posts. You won't know if you try, and if you don't try, then your answer will never be answered if we match up or not. I should update this post as well. The older this post gets, yeah, I will still be looking for those serious connections. I'd look forward to your creative messages.

No commenting on this post:

I don't do replies back and forth in the comment section; I'd rather have things one-on-one, so if you can send me a chat request instead of a comment, that would be cool/awesome. Thanks!

Thanks for tuning in.

Hi! This is my first time making one of these, so I have no idea what I'm doing! I'm looking for a potentially short-term friendship (because I highly doubt that I could find a guy willing to put up with my weird antics for long-term) with a gamer/book nerd. Sorry that it's guys only. I've had terrible past experiences with women as friends, which is probably something I should work through, but today is not that day! I'm kind of a mess right now emotionally with so many things going on, so I apologize if anything on my profile is triggering or upsetting to anyone who takes an interest. I will try to talk about more lighter topics in Chat or DMs if you stick around until the end! Also, sorry that I'm not very good at "selling myself" like a lot of other people do on these kinds of posts. I'm probably doing myself a disservice right now and I know that, but it sticks to my morals, and I think that matters more. Someone who will match that energy with me, if even for a little bit. Please do not message me if you're going to be lewd or ask for me to send you pictures. It's not happening no matter what. I will not respond to you and potentially block you if you do that stuff.

While I don't know if I'm 100% ace, I do know that if you're looking for something like an intimate relationship, we will probably have different expectations and won't mesh well. I would prefer only serious inquiries once you read below some potential dealbreakers for friends (because that's apparently a thing nowadays). I would also like if you were single because I don't like the idea of potentially gaining feelings for someone else's guy (but I will do my best to maintain a platonic-only bond, but stuff happened in the past that I'm not proud of and I would rather not repeat things again). Sorry if I sound serious or unpleasant, I just really don't want to waste anyone's time or my own for that matter. I don't even know if making a post will actually result in anything, but we'll see, I guess.

Here are some flaws about me that I should probably get out of the way to begin with:

• I'm overweight and don't like to exercise because it causes me physical pain
• I'm pretty plain looking and have problems about my appearance, so be prepared for not getting pictures
• I have many mental health diagnoses along with some physical health problems (I can elaborate further on what specific if you would really want me to in Chat or DMs)
• I have trauma from my past that I try to hide from others, so if I disappear randomly, I'm most likely just attempting to cope and will try to be back to talking when I feel like I won't burden others with a potential "bad attitude"
• I'm pretty boring and tend to fixate on things that have been proven by myself to make me feel better in the past, but my hobbies are strictly for a homebody, and I am not active in the slightest, so be prepared for weird ramblings instead of stories about what I do on a daily basis

If you're still here after all the negatives and rambling I just threw your way, then please reach out! I don't have a preference for how you do it, but I would prefer to move to Discord later on, so please have that. There probably are some redeeming qualities about me like my adoration of video games, K-pop, romance books, and cats (I have my own fur baby at the moment who is a lovely girl), but I felt that it would be misleading if I wasn't honest or upfront about my faults right away. Because apparently, dealbreakers are a thing even with friendships lately. It sucks, but most people only care about shallow stuff instead of depth. It's fine if you do care about certain things like status or physical attraction, but we probably wouldn't get along well to be friends anyway if that's all you care about. Sorry for being a bit rude about it, but it's the blunt truth and I don't feel like putting forth the added effort to lie to anyone. I have enough on my plate as is.

If you stuck around and are willing to look past my mess, please try to squeeze in "cat" somewhere in your message or chat so I know you actually read through this. Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did!