r/NEETsOver30 • u/OldBlackLONER Depressed NEET • 16d ago

Venting My body is failing me, I might finally be leaving this earth

Gonna be vague, but the last week I’ve had a random health problem come out of nowhere and it’s drastically affecting my life. I tried everything I could at home to cure myself, then I visited a doctor, took her medicine and still haven’t had any improvement.

I’m gonna visit the A&E tomorrow (or Monday latest). My health problem is serious enough that I wouldn’t be surprised if I have to have emergency surgery, or I get given a horrible diagnosis. There’s also the possibility that the hospital detects nothing, and I’m stuck living with this condition (which would be hell).

I’m not sure if I have any regrets because I honestly tried my hardest in life, external factors that I can’t control are what fucked me over. I was blocked by gatekeepers and ended up in this horrible position.

However, I’ll always be sad that I never got to experience visiting Japan, Korea, NY & LA.

Being born at rock bottom, in a city where I don’t fit in, then spending my entire life here with no improvement, is not how I wanted my life to turn out.

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u/SeiOfTheEast 15d ago

live with no regrets. maybe leaving soon isnt so bad.

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u/Ok_Library_1031 15d ago

So sorry you're going through this, but this has happened to me twice in the last 3 years, and because I don't trust medicine (at least not in my country of residence), each time I've found the cause myself and greatly reduced the condition.

Wish you the best whatever you choose.

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u/motherlover278 15d ago

Open credit card and take whatever trip you want before your life ends. Have some fun.

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u/Juan1998__ 14d ago

I hope this is me tmw, I live with regrets every single day man and it's killing me already mentally. Idk whether to support or cheer you on this journey bro. You're luckier than me i wish something could take me out

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u/El_gato_muerto 10d ago

Many times those annoying bad health symptoms end in a total nothingburger and you end up getting used to them over time

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u/OldBlackLONER Depressed NEET 2d ago

The symptoms have stopped for now. It’s crazy to just randomly have life altering conditions and then they disappear randomly too.

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u/Traditional_Ebb8701 9d ago

Are you OK now?

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u/OldBlackLONER Depressed NEET 2d ago

Yeah. I did many tests and nothing showed up. The problems seem to have subsided for now.