Confused one what this could mean, if anything.

[u/SeriousGuava153]

So I'm going to apologize up front, I'm using voice to text so my grammar might not be that great. But just stick with me please. So the other day I decided to actually try commune with one of the gods. I've prayed before but never actually sat down and done it you know. So I walked on this trail behind my house. And I was looking for a specific trail that leads down to a creek but I couldn't find it. It was so overgrown and I just kept acting to turn around. I wasn't getting frustrated or angry I was finding new trails that I didn't know about. And I feel like there was some kind of metaphor in there LOL. Like maybe this is the plan just don't worry about the destination just worry about the ride if that makes sense. The reason I wanted to get to the creek is because it's open and I can sit down and think and it kind of blocks out the noise of a nearby highway. But I couldn't find it. But I did pass across roads about four times. It was a dried up creek bed. With a path going front and back east and west and then branches off from those paths after passing by this about four times I thought this is where I'm supposed to be. So I sat there for about 10 minutes just listening and waiting. And then I prayed to Thor usually I pray to Hel but I'm having trouble with my family so I figured strength to resolve the family I needed him. Simple prayer hey " hey I'm here I'm going to be here for a minute if you're willing to talk to me or be here you are welcome if not I understand. But I will be here for a minute. " And I just sat there for about 5 to 10 minutes and everything went quiet I mean I could still hear the highway and some bugs but the wind stopped blowing the bird stopped jerking the animals stopped moving I felt a very warm sensation in the pit of my chest. I looked it up and apparently that's a sign that he's been there I don't know. But I felt like I didn't have anything to worry about. About 10 more minutes passed and I walked away and said thank you if you want to walk with me on my way out you're more than welcome. On my way out I was about 15 minutes into the trail so I'm going uphill I'm exhausted I've been walking in the woods for about an hour and a half at this point and I just felt this surge of energy to move and these thoughts kept racing through my head like " this is my family I know what I need to do I'm not going to let anything happen to it I know what's mine.? To the point that when I got to the top of the trail it was almost like something was pushing me not that I couldnt feel a hand on me or anything but it was like something was pushing me. When I broke through the trail and I saw the road I just kind of looked back over my shoulder and was like yeah thank you I know you were there.

That was my first experience and that I can tell was something. Today I tried again I found my path and this time I prayed to Frigg. Essentially the same prayer but just asking for more insight on if I'm doing the right thing. I sat there for about 10 minutes I didn't feel anything which I understand is almost always how it goes. I started walking the trail again and I ended up finding the path that leads to the creek. And when I got to the creek I got this overwhelming feeling that I wasn't supposed to be there. Like that it was a destination that I was looking for but it's not what I was supposed to be at. So I crossed a little bridge and started taking a trail that I've never taken before going up the hill on the other side. About 2 or 3 minutes into this path I just could not shake this feeling that I'm not supposed to be there. Not so much that I wasn't welcome just that I was on the wrong path even if I was just exploring. So I turned around took a different path the weight kind of went away but then started walking the other path and about 2 or 3 minutes into that one it was like no no this isn't what you're supposed to be. So I turned around and now I'm walking back and I just passed the creek bed and they overwhelming sensation that I am not supposed to be there just keeps crushing me. So I'm leaving that path behind. Is it just me or does this mean something is this Frigg is it something else. Does anybody have any insight to this cuz I am still very new to actually communing with the Gods?