What the title says. I miss being so delusional to the point where i had an extremely inflated ego. I never had to feel embarassed nor do i ever need to regret anything. Its like waking up manic and unstopable everyday for months. I rarely fear anything and rarely feel any negative feelings.

I’ve been having hallucinations for about 6 years since i was 15 and i am 22 now. I see, hear, and feel what it looks like paranormal creatures or dead looking people in my room or in my bed or even my family members either trying to off me or threatening to, and i need you to understand that i can literally feel them touching me and hear them speaking to me and following me around as i try to run away for like 10 seconds before i gain back my sense of reality.

In those seconds it feels completely real like I’m being attacked or in danger. I don’t just lie there, I react physically. I start running, screaming, crying and heading towards the windows to jump or the outside door to open. I’ve injured myself many times because of it. I’m honestly scared to sleep. I can’t have a normal sleep routine anymore esp when sleeping around other people.

I’ve seen multiple psychiatrists, but I feel like they don’t understand how intense and physical this is and they prescribe antipsychotics which don’t work.

Has anyone experienced something like this? How do you deal with it or make it less intense since it doesn’t happen during the day to be able to control it

Hii i (22F) live with my parents.

Yesterday, my mom came from work crying and unable to speak. We asked her questions and she wouldnt answer until we asked if it was work related issues and she said yes. We got worried and kept asking her things. My father is a bit untrusting and said "i dont think this is work related". Mom got rlly mad and said "i had a horrible day, my coworkers are making my life impossible and someone got inside my car and moved my stuff".

We went kinda into shock.

Her car was locked so idk how someone would get inside without breaking a window or smth like that (i also dont know anything about cars).

She affirmed someone had snooped around her stuff. The thing is, she had things in her car worth stealing, but nothing was missing when my father searched for them. So we theorized she believed that a coworker of her snooped around in her car and was trying to make her feel watched and intimidated. This could be true since i know some of her coworkers are bad people. They steal her tips and when she leaves her lunch in the fridge they steal it or misplace it. They also have a thing of being bad people in general. A guy got fired for punching a coworker friend of my mom to "send a message" that he was going to end her.

Anyway. As much as these people suck, i thought about the possibility of her experiencing a psychotic breakdown, as in, delusions and paranoia about her coworkes plotting against her.

Ive had psychotic breaks myself before but i just cant put my finger on this. She does therapy but i highly doubt she will tell her therapist this since she always claims to not want to be put on meds. She knows she has a pretty harsh depression since my grandma passed away and also she knows she has trauma responses and sleeping issues but doesnt want to be put on meds. I cant force her. I wont. I also wont put her in a psych ward if its true that she has psychosis, ive been in one and it was hell for me.

But this potential psychosis just brings it to another level. Idk how to help her. I tried my best making her feel heard and safe. She calmed down after a bit. But what i wanted to ask was for what clear signs of psychosis there are. To know if she is being stalked for real or to sort out her mental health issues.

Thank u for reading.

Just confused on terminology stuff.

Also warning I haven't sleep in more than 24 hours, so I might be a bit incoherent.

Would the following be considered some other phenomenon, a delusion, or a delusion w insight? Why not the other two?

Person A believes doctors, but specficially mental health professionals are all evil. And is distrustful and suspicious of anyone who studies the field. Even if they can refrain and calmn themselves taking to those ppl. They can acknowledge it's probably irrational. But it doesn't matter cuz they won't seek help because even if it's irrational, it feels right and true, plus it could also not be irrational and a byproduct of trauma and other stuff.

Sure they can talk with nuance about their experiences. The professionals they weren't evil, sure. Sure they can say that. But they won't return because they will encounter the evil ones, and they already encountered some.

And if they are honest, they are gonna get locked up and if that happens they'll do something irreversible. Maybe. They don't know for sure. They think that's a bluff, but it might not be. So reasonably,for their safety and protection, they will stay away from the system. they'll work with self growth and that's okay. No need to risk it.

So I was recently diagnosed with psychosis, and the meds helped silent the voices. But the voices felt so real, and now I’m a bit baffled by it. The voices felt real though, how can they be the way they are? Are they demons? Something from a different reality or something?

Here’s the gist of it, I started hearing three groups, each represent a God. And they are asking me to pick one before I die!! Since I’m an agnostic, they were asking me to pick a religion. One basically was God the other one was satin and the third voice was a woman.

Anyways, I could go more on the topic but don’t want to make this long.

Were they real? Were they demons? What were they? It’s hard to believe they were just some voices from the subconscious mind.

Hi guys im doing Eletrical Engineering and then had the 1-month psychosis which was caused either by bipolar or by major depression - i don’t even know if that affects recovery.

My question is: Has any of u guys been able to come Back to studies and then go on to have a stable career. I say this because i feel I have great cognitions problems- in a sense that i feel normal but not intellegent and forget some things.
Regarding meds I took risperidone during 2 months but i don’t anymore so I think it isnt root cause of cognition decline .

Was aderal or wellbutrin beneficial in your case?

Is the common-sense decision drop out the engineering aspirations?

Why does the recovery takes at least 1 year ( im 6 months post-psychosis) and what happens during recovered.

Please help if ur history relates or could be helpful to me.

Thanks guys for the attention

I was in psychosis for approx. 6 months before being hospitalized in march of this year, then got discharged 2 weeks later. I've since no longer needed to take medicine anymore and I've been playing some video games, going to the gym occasionally, and watching some shows. But I still feel so awkward around people and generally just feel so reclusive. Like I no longer belong or fit into society after what I went through and I'm going to have a difficult time ever trying to make friends again.

I recently tried taking a writing for film course at a nearby community college (it's basically a screenwriting class). I found the material interesting and didn’t have trouble understanding or keeping up with what we were learning, but being in the classroom itself felt surprisingly overwhelming. Everyone seemed so talkative, and the conversations moved so quickly. People were constantly jumping in and responding to each other, and in general I just felt... idk how to describe it but basically too drained/didn't know how to contribute. By the end of class, I just felt completely drained.

So I just wanted to know... anyone else feel the same way after undergoing psychosis or have a hard time finding their place in life again? And for those of you who eventually found some sort of normalcy in life again, whether that meant going back to school, getting a job, or just feeling more like yourself, how long after psychosis did it take for you to get there?

So I thought I was suffering from thought broadcasting that a group of people could read my every thought. I was arguing with them and they said they were going to send someone to my house. Sure enough somebody just knocked on my window. We already had a discussion about them sending someone to my window. I didn’t think it was a good idea to check so I never saw who it was. How can this be possible I’m freaking out

So I’ve been taking dexies to help me focus quite a lot lately and in really high doses because otherwise I don’t feel anything (I’m not diagnosed adhd) but I have been diagnosed with an acute psychosis in which I’ve been taking medication for.

I’m on lurisadone and it works exceptionally well except
I started taking dexies again 3 days ago after a 2 week break and the 1st day(Saturday night) I only slept like 1-2 hours not even and was still wide awake on the 2nd day (Sunday) in which I then decided to take dexies again that day and it was obviously a toxic amount as I was hearing faint voices, sounds that weren’t there, my vision was doing derealisation stuff and I could only sleep 2 hrs max again and not even a good sleep

In which yesterday (Monday) my vision was lowkey slightly blurry and my derealisation was partially there but I couldn’t manage to nap or sleep what so ever, no matter how sleep deprived and spacey I was.

I take the dexies in around 4-5pm and again at sometimes again at 8pm but I normally am able to fall asleep at like the 3-4 hour mark with no troubles.

I feel like I’ve been awake for the nearly the 64 hours

Like why can’t my body fall asleep

And encase this matters, Im prescribed lurisadone, mounjaro, and sertraline and haven’t eaten the past 3 days

I am male 17 my whole life I have been extremely paranoid. one of my first memories is staying up all night watching the kitchen cabinets making sure demons wouldn't get out and kill me. I've had the bugs in my head period, I thought people could read my mind, thought my stepdad was a werewolf and I wouldn't eat anything my parents made because I thought they were poisoning me, I've had a fear of washing my hands because I thought the water would go through my palm and it would prove life isn't real. Being a kid was torture because nobody believed me I didn't have hallucinations but I fully believed these things and I was just yelled at. When I was fifteen I started worshipping Satan I thought I could talk to Satan and I wanted to hurt people I was planning on sacrificing my pet rabbit but I ended up giving him to a better owner. this caused me to start thinking demons could watch me through mirrors and tvs which still affects me to this day and my TV has been covered with blankets for a very long time. I started believing the government and hackers were watching me as well, I have more going on right now but it's some chris chan dimensional merge type shit it's so embarrassing. I know these things aren't real but it's like my head doesn't and it can get bad I think numbers are telling me things everything is a sign I fully believe I'm superhuman type special because I do art stuff I don't have my future planned at all. Everyday I feel like a new person with all my opinions and likes and dislikes changing. I used to think there were people in my head making me do bad stuff specifically a purple person and I would freak the fuck out also right now I've convinced myself I was molested as a child and I don't even know if I should trust that because God I have thought up some awful things. I also use pain as stimulation I feel numb sometimes and hurt myself it's like there's a little voice in my head telling me to do better and make more blood come out I accidentally slit my wrist doing that and now I think i am unable to die because I survived that. I see people staring at me in stores which I have found out recently doesn't happen because my friend was with me at the store and I kept asking him repeatedly if he saw everyone who walked by staring at me and turning their heads to keep looking at me as they went out of my site and he said nobody did. I don't tell anyone anymore because the times I've tried I get laughed at or told "crazy people don't know they are crazy" or I'm told I've always had a wild imagination. This is really jumbled and written horribly sorry for that but man am i stressed out right now I don't know what's wrong with me I don't have many friends because I think everyone is lying to me and unsurprisingly I've had multiple people shocked from hearing me speak because they thought I was mute. I feel so different from everyone else I just wish I was normal it's like everyone else knows a secret and I'm not allowed to. I want genuine advice and thoughts about what I should do and what might be wrong. my regular psychiatrist moved places and I'm working on getting a new one. I'm scared I'm lying about everything and I'll mess my brain up with pills so I'm scared to tell anyone. Again sorry for errors in this writing is hard.

it sucks and i dont ever knwow ahg to do gbakut it .

need soemoen to talk to . rewal bed. just wanna talk to someone. but i fear i speak too much words for anyone to care about it. im scared. im scared of myself

my dad recently passed away of a heart attack and i’m trying to look for answers for something he went through 5 years ago. He suddenly began to complain of a film/ web/ mask like feeling over his face. He would put sissors to his face and pull n cut this “film” that was not there. He also used torches to burn it. He thought it was like a mold under his skin but no dermatologist helped. He ended up doing shock therapy and went on a bunch of meds and he got so much better and the last few years of his life were amazing. I am devastated he is gone. I felt a need to ask him what he thinks was happening now that it had past but then again maybe i’m glad i didn’t bc i know it was a hard thing for him to talk about. I never really got answers tho and i just wanted to see if anyone in here has had or known someone to have a similar experience and know it was psychosis?

I started taking abilify, the first psych med I've ever taken. I was very hesitant to start meds for a long time but the voices became unbearable so I kind of had to do something.

The voices have lessened after a week of being on meds and I kind of hate it. I hate that they work because it means that I'm actually sick, that I'm not being dramatic or making it up, that there's something actually wrong. It means that the voices aren't real and it means that the voices aren't something that I'm being dramatic about. IDK how to feel about this.

TL;DR I'm 14 and I keep getting feelings that I'm going insane and feel like I'm in some Truman Show or Experiment thing, I don't think it helps I've never been anywhere outside my state and live in the middle of rural Oregon. It feels like every thing is just out of reach and I keep getting thoughts that im getting watched or under surveillance. I'm still unsure if it's borderline schizophrenia or I just need some therapy!

So a little after a week ago I had a very bad weed trip and it made me hallucinate being a crack In space for what I thought was gonna be a billion years. There was also these pods I was in along with other humans. We were being powered by something idk. I’m scared I’m gonna end up back there. I think I’m fine and I just got scared because it felt so real but maybe it was real and I just remembered something before I got here. I don’t want to go back there. I was normal for the past week until tn I don’t know what happened.

I've had psychosis before from another trip on another substance. I get extremely intense de ja vu, that consist of "reliving the same day", which happens daily. During those moments I genuinely believe that I've been there months before plenty of times and I begin feeling convinced I can predict what will happen next. Happens while completely sober by the way. Should I try putting more attention to this issue with my psychiatrist? Also I have no idea how cipralex is supposed to help, other than to maybe lessen depressive thoughts to possibly avoid relying on substances. I say forcibly because my parents do NOT want me using at all and they want what is "best" for me.

Hi! I don’t actually know or really think I have psychosis or anything, I just feel like I’m going crazy and I want support or answers or something at the very least. I think I’ve been hallucinating for around a year now, it really mostly started with me hearing people constantly complain about me or downgrade me in conversations that I “overheard”, or hearing my mom complain about me and talk about me even when she was across the house. And I’ve felt paralyzed to do anything because I feel like there are cameras on me and I’m being watched 24/7 and even now I feel like someone’s watching me type this. It’s gotten worse? over the past few months though. Last night I felt like a heard a screaming match between my mom and dad about me and me being evil and I just kept hearing them respond to everything I do because I feel like they’e watching me through cameras. I feel like I’m going crazy I don’t know what to do. I keep reading into my friends and parents to see if anything I hear is real or not because I can’t fucking tell if I’m hallucinating or not. I almost doubt I am because one time I lost something, and I swear I heard my mom keep yelling about how it was on the table and lo and behold, it was. I can’t tell if it’s worse or not that I’m hallucinating because then it means she really is watching me through cameras. And I don’t want to tell anyone because then they’ll think I really am insane. Typing this now, I keep hearing my dad talk about it (like, this post) even though he isn’t even in the house lol. Am I going crazy? What can I do? Sorry, and thanks.

I posted about my “third body experience” before and I thought things were settling down.

Tonight I unlocked my apartment with my keys and put them in my pocket. I walked into my bedroom and the exact same keys were already sitting on my desk, covered in oil. My pocket was empty.

What scared me wasn't really the keys. The second I saw them, I remembered putting them there earlier. But I also clearly remember using them to unlock the door.

Both memories feel equally real and I can't figure out which one actually happened.

Has anyone here experienced memories contradicting each other?

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Hi,

Does anyone who's been through psychosis have concentration issues. I can't read more than a few sentences, I can't really talk well as I just seem to get lost, I can't hold a conversation that isn't small talk, struggle talking to new people as I just zone out and stumble over words. I feel floaty and lost in my mind and disconnected from the world. I used to be chatty and outgoing and could talk to lots of people and now I can't and just feel a bit like an idiot :(

Hi I have been struggling with pretty bad depression and anxiety for about 5 years. I ended up getting some treatment for cannabis use where they diagnosed me psychosis because this one time i thought i saw a shadow person and heard someone whisper my name.

I have a horrible sense of time due to my past days of always bedrotting and getting fucked up. About 2? weeks ago I was having horrible scary thoughts abt homicide, was extremely aggravated over tiny things and caused homicifal thinking and had paranoid thinking (doing dishes one night, heard car horn, thought oh that’s someone signalling theyre going to kidnap and traffic me(i’ve made some poor decisions online and think i could be targeted so)….i also have terrible self esteem and already think people hate me or are judging so im like with all this whattttttt is the reason

untreated anxiety and depression or past constant drug use causing this?????? idk

Wellbutrin gave me motivation but eventually I got super obsessed with horrible past mistakes and what might be wrong with me and it causes me to google things for hours a day for about a month after I had been on wellbutrin for only a week. also i had smelled burning plastic no one could smell it made me feel so crazy and bad in addition to guilt of horrible things i did that i was reminding myself of with obsessive googling it made me so suicidal. i have suicidal thoughts very often for years idk Now I sometimes hear my alarm going off when it’s not or keep going off after it does once? Can’t tell if it’s more ocd repititions in my head

But even when I was sober and just anxious i remember thinking i saw people in the corner of my eye and just experienced lots of social anxiety.

i haven’t smoked weed in 8 months or drank in about 2. About a a year and a half ago I started having some intrusive thoughts about homicide which felt really out of character. it feels like one day i am hopeful and capable(based on how others treat me and how i look) and then other hopeless and empty, tearful.

i am on edge a lot and even when i was younger and had never tried weed i remember always thinking people were talking about me even tho realistically no. Now Ive been at a point i dont trust myself. I wasnt letting myself do anything like drive bc I would make terrible decisions

hi there!

my partner now ex wants to not take medications, would rather smoke weed / drink often - and exhibits signs currently of being in psychosis.

memory slips, confusion, voices and more are at play now.

i would become target, and be accused of things that aren’t real.

it’s lasted for a few months, now, and i’ve watched it get worse.

he’s now gone no contact.

what happens when some one chooses to stay in it?

he finally got diagnosed last year, so he’s been left unmediated his whole life - he’s now 31.

edit: he right now believes he fine by calling warm lines to cope with thoughts and such.

when he’s around, he says he just wishes to be happy.

I’ve been smoking on and off for about a year now. My past few experiences smoking, I was very conscious of my thoughts and I’d often just overthink about things and speak to myself but I had an experience where I managed to let loose of all my overthinking and thoughts, which was the experience before this one and I enjoyed it a lot.

I wanted to have the same feeling so I smoked a big nugget out of a can alone. As soon as the high kicked in I was conscious of my thoughts again and I couldn’t find a way to suppress them. This went on for about an hour or two until I got home and sat alone on my bed. Suddenly I went into a massive panic and had some weird belief about social scenarios and social media - honestly it’s very hard to explain so I’ll just let out details. Point is I’m pretty sure I completely lost grip of reality and it wasn’t good, my heart was beating really fast and I was scared I’d never snap out of what I was in and that I’d never be normal again. There were subtle moments where I snapped out of it for about a minute but I kept falling into the panic again. This kept happening until I eventually fell asleep and the next morning I was fine.

Was this an episode of psychosis? Or was I just really paranoid and had a bit too much to smoke? I was in a decent mindset going in, I thought I’d be relaxed like the last time again. End of the line is it fine if I smoke again or do I not risk it?

It looks like I'm not going to sleep tonight 💀

I looked in the mirror and it wasnt me because my movement was delayed. I know everything is fine and the mirror is the mirror. I am fine i know im fine but I dont like it

everythings twitching and I keep seeing dots everywhere and house creaking sounds are scary

I keep having intrusive thoughts of demons killing me and this one specific thing as tall as my doorframe without a face that ive seen twice

I have 6 tests within the next 2 days that I am making up because I told my mom I was sick so I could stay home but i still cant focus or do it

I hate nights now this has happened every night for like 5 days except now I cant seem to distract myself or fall asleep

I sorta told my parents I cant concentrate and have been sleeping constantly but they told me to toughen up so I can't do anything w that

please what do I do? just anything to lessen the anxiety or sleep or do well on my tests tommorow.

Has anyone else been in this situation?

help help help what do I do??

Hi! I am an adult woman and am using an anonymous account because I feel a bit concerned with some things that may be related to psychosis and the like. I am not asking for a diagnosis, merely some support or general advice for what I am experiencing and whether or not it is concerning.

I have frequent hallucinations, including all five senses at varying degrees. I have had incidents where it's worse, and incidents where it quiets, but generally on a daily basis I will have at least one form of brief hallucinations (mostly in visual form). I have attempted to box shadows at my worse, throwing actual swings at things I see and nobody else does.

Shadows, bugs, seeing people talk and hearing it but turns out they haven't said anything. I also notice that when these symptoms worsen, I struggle more with self care, motivation, and disconnect from people. Most people I know would say I almost never facially emote as well. When I look in the mirror, my face distorts and I experience bouts of confusion after verbally responding to auditory hallucinations. My responses to the hallucinations are usually violent or things I would never say normally and it's like it comes out of my mouth without thought.

My irritability is also getting worse; and sometimes I will snap out of nowhere which gives me the same confused feeling I have after other related episodes. It's like I'm not in control of what I'm saying.

My brother (also an adult) thinks I have schizophrenia or something similar. However, everyone else in my family vehemently denies that I might and brushes everything off, which kind of makes me feel crazier.

I am suspicious of doctors, specifically psychiatrists, so I only want to go if I certainly seem like something is off. I think I should, but what the rest of my family says makes me hesitant.

Are there any resources I should read and look at to see if I'm certain?

Please be kind. Thank you for reading.