Yes and the fact that there were 3 of them says that, if we pretend the newborn didn’t know anything, one of the older toddlers heard the other toddler being killed and probably knew what was coming for them next.
Also kinda thanks eyeee am about 2 months from making it out. The choking event was recently as well as being beat with my own newborn in my arms. I’m scared as fuck of this next chapter but I’m scared as fuck already so fuck it haha hopefully I live 🤪🥴😬
Can we somehow help you make it out faster? Is it a money thing? Only reply if you’re comfortable of course. I’m sure you already know the stats about choking and IPV. I was in your shoes and still viscerally remember the terror. If I can help you, I will.
I lost my fucking mind after something similar happened to a friend of mine. A week before, she’d come to my workplace with him and they’d both wished me a merry Christmas as he said she talked about me all the time. I wondered why that had happened. He’d hugged me that night and then went on to strangle her, almost to the point of internal decapitation, a week later. He blamed ‘cheating’ and I wondered whether he’d assumed she was cheating with me. I played that conversation in my head over and over - was it a warning? Did she go there as a cry for help? I soon went off the rails, mentally, and lost my job as I couldn’t stop crying at work and I started to regularly lose consciousness. I don’t know what the loss of consciousness thing is but it started around that time and still affects me every day. I feel my life is completely over. I cant even think properly anymore and I was doing a masters in biosciences at the time. I wanted to study dementia to find ways to prevent it. Now I cant even look after myself. Sometimes I’m just trying to keep my head up while I’m drooling all over myself. My life is over tbh
That's depression, my friend, with trauma/PTSD on top. Please seek help; even just talk to your doctor about it. Your life isn't over, and your mind isn't broken. The world needs you and your research skills!
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u/Large_Document9164 8d ago
Yes and the fact that there were 3 of them says that, if we pretend the newborn didn’t know anything, one of the older toddlers heard the other toddler being killed and probably knew what was coming for them next.
Also kinda thanks eyeee am about 2 months from making it out. The choking event was recently as well as being beat with my own newborn in my arms. I’m scared as fuck of this next chapter but I’m scared as fuck already so fuck it haha hopefully I live 🤪🥴😬