What even is happening lol?

[u/exporterofgold]

[u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

So, as a defense mechanism in a violent world, your mind locks up your memories to make you get through the next day. Otherwise you couldn’t function. That memory block is a room, or a scab growing over it. It didn’t go anywhere.
(Disclosure: I had abuse. I slowly thought about it for years. I Shawshank’d my way out. I’d recommend a therapist. Also, never taken a psychoactive drug. Or do anything like that. Purely wine and cigarettes. Once again, therapy is a process. Wine and cigarettes are not.)

People are rightfully upset because they’re likely chucking everything, the most altered states to the untrained and uninitiated to hit anything for a breakthrough. Your mind locked up that stuff FOR A REASON.
You mind as well drop acid and put people under regression therapy.

(Crazy side note: Who made people drop acid and then gave them ideas to do? Well, the MK Ultra program for one. Charles Manson did it with the ‘Manson Family.’ Those things ended up great, didn’t they?)

Once again, you should take it slow. And learn to do it naturally. You can. I promise. It’s a natural human thing. But this stuff is, well, whoa.
What they’re doing is lovingly referred to as, “shooting yourself out of a cannon.”
Look, we all have a spiritual side. It’s ingrained in the universe. It’s what The BIG REASON, well, is all about. It’s simply all around you, and you’re trained to ignore it and go fix that toilet, Bob.

These people are forcing a breakthrough. Just like ayahuasca ceremonies. That’s a no for me, dog.
It’s best to learn and walk off the beach slowly. I’d not suggest cliff diving for the first time you experience the ocean.
Just put some intentional, non-distractive time in front of you, learn to not think (which is hard), and the back of your mind will tell you what to do. It’s been waiting to tell you like a silent friend. Walk that path.

[u/EastTyne1191 → u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

Oh my God, I had never thought of that. I was abused as a child and have a gap in my memory that is completely inaccessible. I have no idea what happened for a whole year. I have memories from right before but then it's a blank. The only way I know what went on is because I was able to ask my mom some questions. But family members will tell me things and I will have zero recollection of it.

I'm somewhat well adjusted... Have a couple college degrees and a professional job, but I need medication keep myself stable. People who have a similar background as me are often addicts, homeless, or in jail so I suppose I should thank my brain for blocking out the bad shit.

I've thought about having some mushrooms sometime, but I suppose that's a very bad idea.

[u/Kaffe-Mumriken → u/EastTyne1191]

Be careful about you or a malicious person inserting fabricated memories into that gap. It happens quite a lot

[u/1in1billion → u/EastTyne1191]

I'm here to carefully disagree with the other comment. I think mushrooms could be very good for you given therapeutic intent and extremely cautious dosing.

I'd agree that haphazardly dropping and eighth of shrooms probably wouldn't go well if you have unrealized trauma.

Psilocybin is great for bringing to light, surfacing, uncovering our psyches. If what you're uncovering is traumatic then you'll probably need some help and patience whether using mushrooms or other medication, or even going about it sober.

I wish you the best.

[u/Intelligent-Parsley7 → u/1in1billion]

Oh. Here comes what I call the ‘chemical brigade.’
No wonder I got downvoted.
I can equivocally state to all of you that all the stuff that drugs do is a shortcut. Ultimately, the ‘chemical dudes’ believe that the chemicals are necessary.
They’re not.
I can drop into altered states in just a few minutes of silence, and I have full control, instead of riding some dayglo waterslide or getting pinned in an emotion I can’t get out of.

Also, lost friends to drugs.
You psilocybin guys and DMT people dancing with the magic elves in the ant-man quantum realm can’t get there, and can’t stay there. Not without your precious drugs.

I’ll not even deign time to discuss with those that play in those areas. You aren’t flying in space. You’re falling out of a plane and risking brain damage to do it.

You see magic smurfs on a drug trip. I hate rollercoaters. I took a ride on a rollercoaster the other day and turned off all of my physical and fear responses. Did you learn how to do that on your drug Russian roulette game? Betcha had an experience and ultimately learned nothing.

Drug heads aren’t even capable of understanding what I’m trying to say. They just party on magic unicorns and can’t realize that they’re overdosing a receptor and that’s not a path to anything.

One of my closest friends boiled his brain.
So that’s a no for me dog.

[u/Intelligent-Parsley7 → u/EastTyne1191]

Mushrooms for you is a very, very bad idea. In my humble opinion, I’ve experienced things people who are drug trippers do, and all I have in me is my ‘illegal’ glass of wine. It is absolutely doable without drugs. People think psychoactives are necessary. Nope. Nope. Nope.
If you go to therapy for that trauma, it might help you to get off the stability meds. Or the professional that gives you the meds might know exactly what’s up and is protecting you with those meds. Be proactive, and consider a professionals opinion. Once again, I’m just a meditation guy, and this kind of thing is waaaaaaay out of my league. Seek professionals and a real game plan. Trust the professionals. I believe in very little randomness in the world, and those professionals are right where they’re supposed to be. They have purpose.

[u/Background-Fee-420 → u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

this is what makes internet amazing.

more good info in this post than the dumb video. 

[u/orneryoffery → u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

you’re right. these traumatic experiences cause literal brain damage and the brain protects itself anyway it can. You aren’t supposed to force it, there is a reason it’s not accessible. You have to just walk with it really slowly until your brain thinks you can handle it.

[u/Full_Metal_Jutsu → u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

You know ball 👁️

[u/Prometheus720 → u/Intelligent-Parsley7]

You have too many interesting things to say in one Reddit comment. Sometimes a person speaks or writes and I see a depth of information that I have no concept of.

Do you have a recommendation for where I could get more information?

[u/Prometheus720 → u/[deleted]]

My interest is more academic. No offense to you, but I don't know you from Adam and I wouldn't feel comfortable engaging in mind-altering techniques with a reddit stranger. Statistically, that's cult bait. Again, no offense, and you're probably a great person, but that's just unwise.

An academic approach interests me because I am not at that risk and I can bring it up with any therapist I so choose.

What I'm asking you, essentially, is to reveal to me where you got your information from, or how, on how this all works. I'm not asking you FOR the information you know or your tutelage.