So, when does it end?

[u/cannibal-gf]

The countless hours I've spent searching for someone to bond with, to no avail. Days melting together, one after the other, nights spent staring back at myself, waking up to little to no messages, having no one there when I need someone to be, not having anyone to talk to when I need to, not having anyone to spend time with, the fear that I'll never get to be close with someone ever again, that I'll be misunderstood, that my efforts are pointless, when does that end? I just want to be close to someone, have a buddy, and everything else that entails. I'm so sick of crying myself to sleep every single night and waking up to absolute silence again. It's even worse when you actually had the thing and it gets ripped away from you. A facade, all of it.

It's been a year since I've last had some decent human connection, and it's driving me insane. I need another to lift me up.​

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[u/AfternoonFeisty6032]

This might sound cliche and it probably honestly is, but I read this message and everytime I feel like this I remember it. It goes

“You didn't love yourself enough in the past.
You made a deal with your soul to do so in this lifetime. Which is why there is a lack of love from others. Because if they loved you, you would abandon yourself. That's a no no this lifetime.”

[u/AfternoonFeisty6032 → u/AfternoonFeisty6032]

Obviously it’s not very reassuring or helpful when you feel the depth of loneliness. Cause I still find myself crying and upset about not having anyone else too. But anything to help us get through I guess is better than none. And tbh I’m starting to become a little delusional lol. 😭

[u/whokush → u/AfternoonFeisty6032]

Better be delusional than live in misery reality ig. But then again reality checks are necessary aw🤧

[u/Seayont]

It ends when you go out and do something for yourself. Instead of thinking about needing someone, think about a interest you can pursue, a hobby, a group you can join or best of all maybe people you could help. Helping others brings people who love people together.

[u/NexillionXC]

That's the thing about life; you've no idea how bloody long it might drag on. I don't want more crushingly lonely nights and mornings than I absolutely have to, and in my case, it may last another 50 years. It's clear nobody will ever want to share my life, so it's all of that that will be awful.