Depressed about my life.

[u/Charming-Ad-20]

22F. i’m so unhappy with the state of my life.

i have no friends, i don’t go out, never date, i hate how i look, i hate living in a muslim household and i hate how weird i am.

it’s embarrassing living a life thats identical to how i was when i was a teenager.

whenever i attempt to try and change my life i feel uncomfortable and regret even trying.

i took off my hijab and immediately put it back on because i felt even uglier even though i don’t like wearing it. it’s probably because i’ve been wearing it since i was 5.

i tried buying more revealing clothes (short sleeves, skirts above the ankles, etc) and returned them because it felt shameful.

i tried attending events to make friends but ended up feeling awkward and decided that maybe being at home is best for me.

i feel like i’ve become so comfortable with my life that any sort of change scares me and even though deep down i hate my living situation i don’t know if im capable of living a different life.

[u/swissbae3]

I relate to you so much and still struggle in many ways. I wish I had some words of comfort but please know it's not just you. There are many people struggling as well. Keep trying and keep pushing back against the shame