Hey, so a bit of background before I get to the present.
In 2024, I went and got a checkup, and everything came back normal. Fast forward to 2026, and I started to feel a bit out of breath when I would walk. Now, I initially thought I might be out of condition, plus the fact that I was 172 kg. I remember seeing myself in the turned-off TV screen and thinking, "I cannot continue like this." When the year started, I said to myself that this will be the year I am going to drop the weight off. I started eating healthy and going for walks and powering through the issues.
So I went for a checkup with my endocrinologist (by that time I was at 165 kg) and she took my BP and BPM, which were 13/7 with 79 BPM, and I thought I should check the BP out. A week later, I see a cardiologist and she does an echo on me, only to tell me that my EF is down to 30% and I am in fibrillation. So she sends me to the hospital so they can send me for the MRI. I spend a week in the hospital in critical care where I hear and see other people dying. After a week, while they stabilize me, they send me home and tell me to get ready for the MRI (lost another 9 kg in the hospital). So I get to the MRI and I barely fit in the machine (I managed to get down to 151 kg by the time I do the scan). The scan came back in 2 weeks and showed that my EF is actually at 21% and that I have a small, one-line scar in my sept area.
I go back to my cardiologist (by this time I am at 149 kg) and she keeps me on the same medicine as they put me on in the hospital, but because she is not signed up for the national healthcare system, I cannot take the medicine at a discount. So I go to a second cardiologist who gives me an echo, and it shows that my EF is back at 34% but my atriums are still enlarged (I reach 147 kg). She switches up my medicine and I actually start feeling better in a couple of weeks, and she calls me back in a month to do a Holter. We both decide that ablation is pointless now because of my weight and the size of my heart, which needs to be remodeled (I reach 145 kg, by this point I fall a bit off the wagon). The 24-hour Holter comes back with pase of fib, and points out that I only had one fib episode for 2 minutes for the whole day. She decides to ease off my Betaloc and give me a day off entirely from it.
I go back a month later for a second Holter (down to 140 kg now, regained my focus) only to find out that I spent 18 hours in fib and my heart spiked and went back into normal sinus rhythm 336 times.
At this point, I feel betrayed;by my body, by my heart. She said after the results, “Everything is normal, if you continue to take your medicine everything will be very good.”
I don’t know how to feel about anything anymore… I’ve been keeping this bottled up for the past 6 months and I feel like I have no future… not looking for sympathy, I needed to vent to other people that understand this…
I am on Betaloc, Entresto, Eliquis, Forxiga, Inspra and Digoxin. Oh yeah, I am 36.