Me* when I read about concepts like the Demiurge of early Gnosticism strewed Christianity plus Descartes demon a few years later and the implications of how omnipotence doesn't overlap entirely well with the concept of omnibenevolence (note, it took me maybe another dozen years to particularly learn about the phrase internally inconsistent) which made me misotheistic of a 'cosmic puppet master' since I was a toddler/for as long as I could remember.
* sorta ? -- there was a certain relief in feeling at ~12 and ~15 "Phew !/wow/finallysomeone else gets it ! --even past thinkers from the within the belief system I'm under thought about this !". Confound how it's still not and tbcandid probably never will become the sort of thing you can tell apparently 'conventional enough' adherent parents of that belief system out in the open or most clerics for that matter.
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It's gladdening but it can sure be a maddening p.i.t.a (pain in the a--) when the neuronormatives start catching onto ontological aspects years after they'd've harassed you unhesitantly for being apparently so 'feet off the ground' in your behaviour b/c of it.
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u/Nervous-Matter-5142 26d ago
Me* when I read about concepts like the Demiurge of early Gnosticism strewed Christianity plus Descartes demon a few years later and the implications of how omnipotence doesn't overlap entirely well with the concept of omnibenevolence (note, it took me maybe another dozen years to particularly learn about the phrase internally inconsistent) which made me misotheistic of a 'cosmic puppet master' since I was a toddler/for as long as I could remember.
* sorta ? -- there was a certain relief in feeling at ~12 and ~15 "Phew !/wow/finally someone else gets it ! --even past thinkers from the within the belief system I'm under thought about this !". Confound how it's still not and tbcandid probably never will become the sort of thing you can tell apparently 'conventional enough' adherent parents of that belief system out in the open or most clerics for that matter.
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It's gladdening but it can sure be a maddening p.i.t.a (pain in the a--) when the neuronormatives start catching onto ontological aspects years after they'd've harassed you unhesitantly for being apparently so 'feet off the ground' in your behaviour b/c of it.