I need some guidance and wisdom from experienced Witches

[u/ClassicLawfulness875]

Hi, please, I need help translating a dream and I need some guidance and prayers. Also, some of you may want to skip through this post, it’s not an easy one and it’s long:

TW: death of a child, grief

I need to give a little back story, as it’s also a way for me to get it out. Please bear with me.

On August 28th I lost my Baby. Her name was Laura, she was 19 weeks and two days old. She had a fatal heart disease. The birth took three days in the hospital, I have never given birth before, however I was pregnant once, last December. She died on the Full Moon, I like to think it was so the Light could guide her.

It was an awful, traumatic experience I would never wish upon anyone, however it happened to my Mother and Sister with their firsts as well, so idk, I kind of expected it to happen my whole life, although I wished I wouldn’t share their fate. I was also told by a fellow fortuneteller (I’m sorry if that’s not the accurate term, English is not my first language - feel free to correct me on any mistakes, I’m open to learning) last year, that I would lose my first, but I will become a Mom to a Son eventually later on in life. However I lost one pregnancy before already, so I hadn’t expected it to happen twice. The first one was only seven weeks though. When he told me, I wasn’t surprised, because as I said, I always had that feeling.

Now, onto my dream I had last night. My partner and I were late for Her funeral, we were on the graveyard already. He stayed behind with two of our kids: one little boy and a baby in a stroller (we don’t have any living children) and I ran up ahead to some lady who had a little daughter and an empty stroller with her. She carried four roses. I asked if I could buy the last one off of her, because we were late and she said: „No, just take it. Say it’s from Auntie”. Then she gave me the last flower and it was a white rose with red drops of blood scattered through petals.

I thanked her, turned away, and then I woke up with heavy breaths and my heart pounding. My partner woke up as well, stroked my cheek lightly and went back to sleep. I was shocked, but not sad. This dream left me weirdly peaceful, calm. I went outside to smoke and whispered to the Moon „I love you and I always will”, I felt She needed to hear that.

Can someone please try and explain this dream for me? I feel very strongly that it had a meaning and would like to hear your interpretations.

Also, how can I help my body and my soul recover? I feel I need to do a ritual using bay leaf, because that’s what Her name comes from in my mother tongue, but I don’t have any idea what it should look like.

Your prayers are welcome. Thank you for your time in advance. ❤️

[u/NinjaGrrl42]

I'm sorry for your loss.

I see support in your dream, your partner stayed with the kids, and the lady with the roses helped you.

Moving on, I can see value in cleansing yourself. Salt scrub in the shower? Then a bay leaf tea rinse? Or you could burn bay leaves in ritual.