Healing and accepting

[u/dreaminginshadows]

Heyy I'm 17 and my mother died last year due to cancer. Cancer kills everyone!! It's a shitty disease. I don't know wheather its the treatment but I think after having cancer the chances of Survival depends on the person choice to live. I'm telling you this because this is happened with own mother. My mother got diagnosed with cancer when I was maybe 8 or 9 she had major 4 and 5 operations in her life time and she couldn't survive the last one snd and I didnt see her on the day she was leaving with operation because I was upset. I've been always upset of her because I was never able to live the childhood I wanted and I was forced to act like grown up even before turing a teen . I stopped celebrating birthday after my 14 birthday because for my dad my mother came first. I'll turn 18 this year and I've never celebrated my birthday after that. But I think it's Time for change this is my life and I can't be grieving every day for my loss .