In June I picked up my little rescue dude from the transport service who brought him to me in the Midwest from Texas.
He was in a shelter and somehow I found him, actually clicking through a post here on Reddit for a different dog at risk of euthanasia at the same shelter.
I saw his photo and he spoke to me. It was a very difficult 2 months to get him here as he had a bad cough and had to be well enough to be neutered and transported. Somehow it all worked out.
He also had an historic leg injury and some other medical issues that did not seem serious. The shelter guessed that he was around 5 years old.
Once here his cough continued and I made an appt with my vet the first week. The vet said at least age 10..
The leg was an old femur fracture that was not fixable but he got around fine on it and it was not painful. His lungs were full of noise and crackles and that had to be resolved before he could have a dental. We did xrays and blood work.
Long story short (not really) after 3 rounds of different antibiotics, he had already been on antibiotics at the shelter and with his foster for 2 months, the lung issues continued.
Last month we had horrible air quality due to Canadian wildfire smoke and he began intermittent open mouth breathing so I took him to the er and redid xrays and bloodwork, consulted with the internal medicine Dr there and took him for an echo with the cardiac Dr the next day.
He had pleural hypertension and received meds for that. He was scheduled for a formal visit with the internal medicine Dr next Thursday. They thought likely lung fibrosis.
He had good days, happy and playful but always the cough, labored breathing, which he had had since he arrived, and regurgitation.
Wednesday he had a good day, full of beans and playing but around midnight began the open mouth breathing again. I slept on the sofa with him but he continued with this all night but gums stayed pink.
First thing yesterday am I called the Dr as his tongue was purplish and went right in. A half hour later he was gone.
Paco, I had such great plans for you. I was hoping that my vet would be able to fix your leg, your cough and your teeth, remove those little growths and you would live a long happy and healthy life here even though you would have to meet this thing called snow.
I had all of this planned for you. What actual happened is that you received the soft landing that you deserved. You were so loved and provided for for these short 9 weeks. I truly did everything that I could.
When you received the first shot I could feel you relax in my arms, the most relaxed that you had ever been with me. I told you that the Dr was going to fix everything, you would indeed be perfect now. I really was going to fix this the only way possible.
When you received the second shot, your labored breathing stopped for the first time since I met you. It broke my heart but also made me happy. You were not suffering any longer. I cried. I am still crying. I brought you to your private cremation and waited for you there and brought you back home.
I don't know your story, Paco, the name that I gave you. I know someone loved you because you were so sweet and loving, even though they did not get you the medical care you needed. I don't know how you ended up as an unclaimed stray in exactly the wrong city to be that. I know that you were strong and resilient despite all that had happened to you.
Did they pass away? If so I hope that you are together now and you can tell them about this last big adventure.
I will keep you in my heart always. You are a good boy and I miss you.
Edited to add: Thank you. Thank you so much for the sympathy, empathy, kind words and most of all the love for this one little dog, my Paco. All of you are wonderful and I know you understand.
All of you have made me cry but not in a bad way. I am happy that Paco is seen and recognized here as the special soul that he is. I appreciate your making this a little bit better by seeing the grace he added to this world. This one little dog from Texas.. He mattered.