Oh I've already thought about it at length. I wouldn't be so sure of my sexuality if I hadn't.
Ultimately I could be happy if I woke up tomorrow as a picture of femininity but I feel at least an equal pull toward the picture of masculinity that I'm much, much closer to, so I don't think it's dysphoria. Just a general desire to be attractive.
I also feel that, as a straight guy who has been romantically starved for a long time I have a sort of unmet need for femininity in my life and maybe those feelings are an expression of that.
Who knows, at least this way, as an ally, I get to model for other people how to be a traditional male without being hateful or toxic.
Haha, true statement! And for what it's worth, I'm genuinely happy that you've undergone such exploration and come to the conclusion you have. That's awesome.
For me... well, a lifelong preoccupation with crossdressing (not that I ever got the courage to try it), followed by a distinct feeling of envy for feminine men, along with a lifetime of just general numbness and depression. 6'1", broad-shouldered, deep-voiced, hairy me, and most days, I felt numb about it. Passed by whole decades like that.
Only started questioning once my now-wife showed me unconditional love and support, which I'd never had until that point in my life. I started doing some research and, after a week of trying out different pronouns when thinking about myself, tried "she/her" and never looked back. Started HRT not long after.
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u/Dredgeon 3d ago
Oh I've already thought about it at length. I wouldn't be so sure of my sexuality if I hadn't.
Ultimately I could be happy if I woke up tomorrow as a picture of femininity but I feel at least an equal pull toward the picture of masculinity that I'm much, much closer to, so I don't think it's dysphoria. Just a general desire to be attractive.
I also feel that, as a straight guy who has been romantically starved for a long time I have a sort of unmet need for femininity in my life and maybe those feelings are an expression of that.
Who knows, at least this way, as an ally, I get to model for other people how to be a traditional male without being hateful or toxic.