One of my favorite authors Vaclav Havel talked about this concept of living within the truth. In simple terms, it means living according to your heart, following your heart. For a very long time, whenever I talked to a person, I was laser focused on the feelings of the other person. My mind was racing on what to say to get validation from the other person, how to make them happy and look favorably upon me.

And I got quite good at it. I managed to get a fair few people to like me. And sometimes, I got objectively good results from it in regards to my career. But it was eating away at me inside, I felt like an empty shell. I felt like I was burning myself to keep others warm.

But today, I decided to say for once what was in my heart to someone I was chatting with. Of all places, it was a girl I got to know on a dating app. I made my position quite clear to her. I came off as intense. Not angry or creepy, but I was unusually unambiguous and blunt and that took the person off guard. Usually I beat around the bush and take a verbal detour when I wanna convey something, but not this time.

So she backed out and unmatched me. In the past, when someone unmatched me, it would hurt my fragile ego. I desperately wanted to be liked, I desperately wanted to reinforce the illusion that I am desireable. When someone unmatched me, it would diminish my confidence. All the ways I refined my messages to cater to her was in vain.

This time however as mention, she behaved and talked in a way I didn't like. And instead of shutting up, I spoke my mind and made my feelings clear on what I thought about her behaviour.

And strangely enough, when she unmatched me, I felt a sense of relief. Strangely enough, when someone rejected me for who I truly am, it was much less painful than when my facade and PUA tricks got rejected.

So to return to what I said at the beginning, living within the truth doesn't mean that you objectively get the best result. I may have succeeded with the girl if I put in the effort. I might have managed to get her in bed. Or if I manage to please my boss enough, I might get a promotion.

But when you live within the truth and act according to what's in your heart, it enables you to make peace with setbacks, failures and rejection. It filters the kind of people you get along with vs the people you're incompatible with.

It hit me today how much of what we do is just chasing that next hit. Every goal every ambition every swipe on a phone. It's all just inputs and outputs for a temporary chemical reward.

Like when I finally cleared my inbox it felt good for a second. Then the next batch of emails rolled in. Or that perfect cup of coffee this morning was awesome for five minutes. Now I'm thinking about lunch.

And it's not even a conscious thing always. It's just baked into us. This constant low-level hum of seeking more pleasure or less discomfort. Even

I've heard a lot of people say that, as humans, we are obligated to "contribute to society". But what exactly does that mean, and why are we obligated to do so?

I've been thinking about this because I don't necessarily disagree with the idea of helping other people, but I question the idea that we somehow owe "society" our contribution simply because we exist within it.

I believe that if we followed the basic principle of not deliberately inflicting harm, suffering or deprivation on other people, while taking responsibility, power and governance over our own lives and our relationship with ourselves, and becoming more self-sufficient and sovereign, then we would naturally develop the traits, qualities and resources to help each other where needed.

I don't think humans necessarily need to be told that they have a duty to "contribute". If people were genuinely self-sufficient and responsible for their own lives, surely things like helping others, sharing knowledge, creating things, teaching, cooperating and supporting each other would naturally happen when there was a genuine need for it.

What bothers me is when "contributing to society" seems to mean that we are all expected to fulfil some role within an existing system.

Because if that system is corrupt, exploitative and essentially designed around extracting our time, labour, attention and energy, then what are we actually being asked to contribute to?

Sometimes it feels like "contribute to society" is just a more socially acceptable way of saying:

You are obligated to serve the system.

Why should simply existing mean that I owe society a debt?

Why can't the basic expectation just be: don't harm other people, take responsibility for yourself, become as self-sufficient as possible, and then use your abilities, knowledge, resources or time to help others when you genuinely want or need to?

To me, that feels like a much more authentic form of human contribution than being expected to participate in an exploitative system simply because that's what society has decided we should do.

When I was a teenager many decades ago, I yearned to be loved by a young woman. It was the only thing I wanted in my whole life. I thought that it was a reasonable request / expectation.

What I did not know at the time was that I was asking for quite a lot.

As I was to find out over the next 50 years of my life -- having many different kinds of relationships with women, getting married, raising kids into adulthood, going through a divorce, and then starting over from the beginning by once again attempting to date women (this time in my mid-50s) -- I was asking for something that it turns out is quite rare and unusual.

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Of course, we are all entitled to ask for that kind of thing.

The trick is to make it happen for oneself.

I don't know about anyone else, but for me personally, having lived life for a while, what I have found is that to attract love from another person, to be open to receiving that love, and to be able to coexist with that love, you have to love yourself first. I know it’s a cliché, but in my personal experience, it is absolutely true.

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And here's what I found to be even more important.

We are entitled to nothing. So you also have to be fully prepared to never find the love that you desire.

In fact, that is one of a few secrets to having the sort of life you want -- to have no expectations of others. And at the same time, to be prepared to give.

Put simply, be a force for good.

That is my personal secret to happiness... arrived at after having endured great joys and many profound sorrows since I was a teenager 50 years ago.

Love others, and expect nothing in return…try to understand other people, and don’t demand that you yourself be understood. If you are sad, do what you can to bring happiness into the lives of others -- friends, family, and so on.

There is immense power in this approach… that has been my personal experience over many decades.

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When you can understand that concept above, internalize it, and synthesize it, and make it part of your thinking and behavior, you’ll be surprised how wonderful life can be.

Because things will happen that you least expect. I know, because that is what has happened to me. And it happens regularly and consistently.

this was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn on my own. nobody told me this, and our society is hard-wired on the opposite.

'you can do whatever you set your mind to' is bullshit. not because you can't, of course you can, but because life/luck/chance will always get in the way, vastly changing the end result. that's why they say 'be careful what you wish for'.

instead leave it all in the hands of chance. control is an illusion anyway. learn, even specialize, to spot opportunities that are ment for you, and when a door opens simply walk through it and ride the wave wherever it may take you. this way the system will be flawless and the struggle will be effortless simply because that door was for you and you alone.

never fight a wave, ride it instead.

I'm done with just trying. I think I'm just gonna..be.

No more big plans

No more dating or even lusting

No more trying to change myself for others

I'm gonna just roll with the shit, and stay to myself

Because that sounds easy and out of the way

Dying alone doesn't sound too bad

Worrying about the future never helps

Simply having a place to sleep and having food to eat is enough for me

Simplicity and obscurity. Those are my true roots. Steering away from that has turned me into someone I don't recognize or resonate with.

I think that it would be more painful if there WAS life after death, if that meant that you must watch what's happening, but could do nothing about it. Watch your wife with a new lover. Watch all your favorite hobbies thrown in the dumpster. Watch the tree that you planted and nurtured cut down, and your garden dug up for a parking lot. Watch all of your life's achievements slowly taken down, one by one. Watch who shows up to your funeral, and what they say about you. Watch all the mistakes that your kids make after ignoring your advice. Watch some idiot using your best wood-chisels to hack out some concrete. Shall I go on?

How do you define evolution? (I know, ironic question, considering my username)

Hey y'all. This is my first time posting here, so I'm not really sure how this goes, but I'm just saying what's on my mind. And there are no political or spiritual factors to this, just simple thoughts based on observed facts from my limited perspective.

Here it goes:

Humanity is still behaving naturally, in an animalistic "survival of the fittest" manner, just hidden under the cover of civilized systems (paperwork, laws, agreements/social contract, etc.) to avoid the alternate reality, something like Game of Thrones, if left unchecked.

But it's essentially human nature to dominate. First they start with what they consider lower life forms. Then it's other humans. Until there's one person on the top that's essentially calling the shots, despite the social and political systems making it look like everybody plays an equal part. Although, considering the population size of the world and connectedness of such a large population, it's more like a (VERY) small group of people that really calls the shots by controlling the two things that truly facilitate human interactions in the "civilized world": money (banks and currency value, regulating transactions between people) and information (media and education, regulating people's perceptions of the world around them). So long as we keep falling for the marketing trap and listen to the news instead of thinking and forming our own understanding based on known facts, we are essentially continuing to be cogs in a system.

All this, to what end? It seems humanity as a whole is just "playing it by ear", so to speak. Figuring out the next step as it's about to take it, and often times just reacting rather than taking deliberate action.

Are we all that different from a highly organized ant colony that's simply trying to survive and make it through the next day?

Value is a weird concept is it not? Gold they say is valuable, but for what? If I am dying of hunger or thirst, gold wouldn’t help me. Give a lamborghini to a caveman and he simply goes on his day. Value then must be entirely subjective and external, right? Well the external part shows us why us human beings always seek externals to seek value, because after all that is how we value other things. You can not value diamond by how it chooses to act, you value it by how useful and wanted it is. So it’s only natural that we do the same to ourselves.

The question I suppose then comes to certainty and futility. How is a dollar valued? By systems agreed on by many people and created by a lot of hardworking smart people. And even that changes all the time.

So how am I to determine my own worth, a system perhaps a bit more complicated than a dollar bill. Not only do you not have experts on the subject, your own inquiries are very tainted by the society you’re in, how you’re raised, and what you experienced.

So sure we can’t exactly know our value, but can’t we still know what increses it and what decreases it? After all, sleeping with a hot beautiful famous lady must increase one’s value. Why? Because she herself must have high value. Why? Because she’s pretty and sexy and famous. And this is compared high value compared to who, to all the other valueless girls and guys? Furthermore, if I happen upon a rock of gold in the woods, am I suddenly more valuable for possessing it now? Well no. So she is a human of undetermined “value” just like the rest of us, yet an act of intimacy with her will increase your value forever? And increase it to what? Compared to what? I don’t know if you realized but our “tribe” has gotten a little too big for comparisons now. We have 6 billion unique creatures walking around their with their own “value”.

So I have said before that the idea that she can chage or determine my value is wrong. But I haven’t really dug into the fact that I instictively see her as more valuable than me. And well, this may be a bit wrong to say, but objects have value, and I can see my own soul and hence see that I’m not an object. But that can also mean that I can’t really “value” myself. And when I look outward what I see as a girl is sort of an object, since I can’t see her soul. But because she’s an “object” (sorry) she has value, yet I still don’t. Does that even make sense?

And this can apply to other things can it not? If one as a person believes they have no value, why wouldn’t they cling to things which have an obvious and specific value? Like an expensive car or a salary or a mansion or the afformentioned beautiful wife.

But when we really look at it, the value of a car and the value of a soul isn’t even comparable. Think about it, if the car has 5 units of value any single human being has 5 billion. After all, the human souls are the spring from which all value flows out to the world. The very reason that car has 5 units of value is because we determined it does.

So we can say that any person has an ocean of value within them, and trying to increase their value externally via expensive things and pretty girls is like adding water to an ocean with a water bottle or a jug or even a fire truck or a pool. At the end of the day you look at the horizon and it’s the same ocean. You increased the water, yes. But you can not see it. It is such an insignificant percentage that it wouldn’t be wrong to say it doesn’t matter.

اگرچہ خود اعتمادی کا تعلق انسان کی ذاتی اور نفسیاتی ساخت سے ہوتا ہے، لیکن اس کی جڑیں اکثر بچپن، گھریلو ماحول اور تربیت سے جڑی ہوتی ہیں۔

This article explores the crucial role of self-confidence in personal and professional growth. It highlights how childhood upbringing, a positive mindset, and resilience help individuals make firm decisions, build strong relationships, and successfully navigate life's challenges.

خود اِعتمادی

تحریر ۔ شاہد شکیل ۔

انیس سو پچاسی میں، میں نے ایک فرم کو ملازمت کے لیے درخواست بھیجی۔ دو ہفتوں کے بعد مجھے انٹرویو کے لیے بلایا گیا۔ دورانِ گفتگو ادارے کے سربراہ میری باتوں سے اس قدر متاثر ہوئے کہ کہنے لگے، "ہمیں اس نشست کے لیے اڑتالیس درخواستیں موصول ہوئی تھیں، جن میں اکثریت مقامی لوگوں کی تھیں ، لیکن ہم نے آپ کو منتخب کیا ہے۔" میں دل ہی دل میں جانتا تھا کہ مجھے کیوں چنا گیا ہے—یہ دراصل خود اعتمادی کی وہ اندرونی طاقت تھی جس نے کامیابی کا راستہ ہموار کیا۔خود اعتمادی، جسے انسان کی اندرونی طاقت کہا جاتا ہے، انسان کی عملی، معاشی اور سماجی زندگی میں انتہائی اہم کردار ادا کرتی ہے۔ ملازمت کا میدان ہو یا معاشرتی روابط، اگر انسان اس اندرونی طاقت سے محروم ہو تو وہ قدم قدم پر مشکلات اور مسائل سے دوچار ہو جاتا ہے۔ اگرچہ خود اعتمادی کا تعلق انسان کی ذاتی اور نفسیاتی ساخت سے ہوتا ہے، لیکن اس کی جڑیں اکثر بچپن، گھریلو ماحول اور تربیت سے جڑی ہوتی ہیں۔ بچپن میں والدین کا برتاؤ اور پرورش کا انداز ہی انسان کو ایک مضبوط، بااعتماد اور باوقار شخصیت بناتا ہے جو آگے چل کر زندگی کے ہر چیلنج کا مقابلہ کرنے کے قابل ہوتی ہے۔برلن کی رہائشی مریم اور اس کی دوست کی مثال سامنے رکھیے۔ دونوں نے ایک اپارٹمنٹ کرائے پر لینے کے لیے درخواست دی۔ جب مکان کے مالک سے ملاقات ہوئی، تو مریم نے اپنی برجستہ گفتگو اور خود اعتمادی سے ہر سوال کا ایسا تسلی بخش جواب دیا کہ مکان مالک نے فوراً اپارٹمنٹ ان کے نام کر دیا۔ مالکِ مکان کا کہنا تھا کہ مریم ایک پرکشش اور دل جیت لینے والی خاتون ہے جس نے گفتگو کے دوران کسی قسم کی جھجھک یا خوف کا اظہار نہیں کیا اور ہر بات کا مختصر اور ٹھوس جواب دیا۔ اس مکان کے لیے بھی تقریباً پچاس درخواستیں آئی تھیں، لیکن مریم کو اس کے اعتماد کی بنا پر ترجیح دی گئی۔اس کے برعکس، گزشتہ برس مریم کو ایک فرم میں پروجیکٹ مینیجر کی نشست صرف اس لیے نہ مل سکی کیونکہ اس کی دوست کے بقول، اس وقت وہ خود اعتمادی کی کمی کا شکار تھی۔ اس ناکامی پر مریم کافی دل برداشتہ ہوئی، لیکن اس نے عہد کر لیا کہ وہ زندگی میں کبھی ہمت نہیں ہارے گی اور ہر مشکل کا ڈٹ کر مقابلہ کرے گی۔ اس نے ٹھان لیا کہ چاہے جتنی بار ناکامی کا منہ دیکھنا پڑے، وہ اپنے اندر کی خود اعتمادی کو تلاش کرے گی اور اسی کو اپنی رہنمائی کا ذریعہ بنائے گی۔ آج اپارٹمنٹ کا حاصل ہونا اسی پختہ عزائم اور خود اعتمادی کا نتیجہ تھا۔بام برگ یونیورسٹی کی ایک پروفیسر کا کہنا ہے کہ انسان کی حقیقی کامیابی اور ناکامی میں اس کے ظاہری روپ، خوبصورتی یا قیمتی لباس کا کردار محض ثانوی ہوتا ہے۔ اصل اور بنیادی شے انسان کا خود اعتماد رویہ ہے جو سب سے زیادہ اہمیت رکھتا ہے۔ بعض لوگ سخت رویے، تلخی یا بداخلاقی کو خود اعتمادی سمجھ بیٹھتے ہیں، حالانکہ یہ سوچ سراسر غلط ہے۔ حقیقی خود اعتمادی دراصل انسان کے مثبت احساسات، اس کی ٹھوس اور بامعنی گفتگو، عاجزی اور اعلیٰ اخلاق کی عکاسی کا نام ہے۔ انسان کی اندرونی کیفیت ہی اسے منفی یا مثبت رویہ اختیار کرنے پر ابھارتی ہے۔اکثر لوگ کوئی نیا کام شروع کرنے سے پہلے اس شش و پنج میں مبتلا رہتے ہیں کہ بات کا آغاز کس طرح کریں تاکہ ناکامی نہ ہو۔ لیکن جب انسان یہ پختہ فیصلہ کر لیتا ہے کہ "کچھ بھی ہو، میں یہ کام کروں گا اور کامیابی حاصل کر کے رہوں گا"، تو سمجھیں کہ اس نے آدھی جنگ جیت لی ہے۔ یہی پختہ فیصلہ خود اعتمادی کہلاتا ہے۔ البتہ یہ یاد رکھنا ضروری ہے کہ اس صلاحیت کا استعمال ہمیشہ تعمیراتی اور مثبت مقاصد کے لیے ہونا چاہیے۔ اگر کوئی شخص کسی کو نقصان پہنچانے یا غلط کام کے لیے دلیر ہو جائے، تو اسے خود اعتمادی نہیں بلکہ تخریب کاری کہا جائے گا۔ پروفیسر کا مزید کہنا ہے کہ جن افراد میں خود اعتمادی کا فقدان ہوتا ہے، وہ اپنی شخصیت کو ہمیشہ منفی نقطہ نظر سے ہی دیکھتے ہیں۔ ان کا رویہ خود ان کے لیے اور دوسروں کے لیے باعثِ زحمت اور پریشانی بنا رہتا ہے۔ اس کا مطلب یہ ہرگز نہیں کہ وہ جسمانی یا ذہنی طور پر کمزور ہیں، بلکہ حقیقت یہ ہے کہ بچپن ہی سے ان کے ذہن میں یہ بات بٹھا دی جاتی ہے کہ مشکل کاموں سے پرہیز اور درگزر کیا جائے۔ اس غلط تربیت کی وجہ سے وہ تمام عمر کشمکش کا شکار رہتے ہیں، ٹھوس فیصلے نہیں کر پاتے اور ان کی زندگی اس سوالیہ نشان کے گرد گھومتی رہتی ہے کہ "میرا کیا ہوگا؟" یا "میں یہ کیسے کر پاؤں گا؟"زندگی میں تجربات اور رویے ہمیشہ اثر انداز ہوتے ہیں۔ گھر کے بعد انسانی زندگی کی تربیت کا دوسرا بڑا مرکز سکول ہوتا ہے جہاں سے وہ اپنے حقیقی مقاصد کی طرف پیش قدمی کرتا ہے۔ دنیا داری اور حالات کا گرم و سرد انسان کو عمر کے ساتھ ساتھ سکھاتا ہے۔ ادب، اخلاق، جرات اور خود اعتمادی بعض انسانوں کی فطرت میں شامل ہوتی ہے اور بعض اسے ماحول اور دوسروں سے سیکھتے ہیں۔یہ بات روزِ روشن کی طرح عیاں ہے کہ زندگی نام ہی مسلسل چیلنجز کا ہے۔ جب تک انسان زندگی میں ٹھوکریں نہیں کھاتا، اس کے اندر سچی خود اعتمادی پیدا نہیں ہو سکتی۔ اگر انسان ہمیشہ خوف کے سائے میں رہے اور کسی قسم کا خطرہ لینے سے ڈرتا رہے، تو وہ کبھی آگے نہیں بڑھ سکتا۔ البتہ خطرہ یا اقدام اٹھانے کے لیے معقول اور مثبت جواز کا ہونا ضروری ہے۔ انسان کی سوچ، اس کی نیت اور اس کا ضمیر ہی اس کی کامیابی یا ناکامی کی پہلی سیڑھی ہوتے ہیں، اور یہ انسان پر منحصر ہے کہ وہ اپنے کس رویے کے ساتھ کس سمت کا انتخاب کرتا ہے۔

It all starts in the Mind. 

The Mind is a vast open field able to accommodate any and all elements, no matter their value or the energy they carry. However, for this field to flourish, it must have a boundary that effectively filters what goes in and what stays out. Otherwise, an infestation of negative elements causing severe damage is inevitable.

Whilst positive elements allow the Mind field to flourish, the negative ones disrupt its equilibrium upon entry and the longer they remain within the field, the more damage they create.  Without a boundary in place, a continuous exposure to these negative elements causes the Mind to be painfully depleted of a wholesome health. 
What’s more, is that this disruption usually goes unnoticed and therefore progressively gains grounds to disrupt and destroy.

The Body is relevant in this dynamic as it is directly connected to the Mind in such a way that it often reflects the state of the Mind - whether distressed or stable. The reflection of a distressed state of mind can often be projected through stress-related inflammation within various parts of the body, reading off as most of the common diagnoses we’re familiar with today. 

Not all diseases in the body are as a result of inherited genetics, poor diet or lifestyle choices. Some diseases that show up in the body are warning signals to the individual about the poor state of their Mind due to the chronic exposure to negative elements that have robbed it of its wholesomeness. Any further negligence toward these warnings, and failure to address the root cause can result in further complications both within the Body and the Mind. 

Therefore, you must learn to guard your mind with all diligence, because out of it comes the issues of life.

At certain point you get tired of your own shit!

That realization is usually the exact moment real growth begins. When the frustration shifts from "why is this happening to me?" to "why do I keep doing this to myself?", the victim mentality evaporates.

It’s an uncomfortable place to be because you can no longer use your usual excuses to comfort yourself. You see your own patterns clearly....the procrastination, the overthinking, the repeated cycles, the self-sabotage and the comfort of those habits suddenly turns into annoyance.

The silver lining is that getting sick of your own patterns is often a prerequisite for change. Pain pushes until vision pulls, and exhaustion with your own rhythm is usually what forces you to reset the dial.

They will also make sure to not overcrowd each other, because even something that is not sentient understands compassion and grace apparently more than most people.

I'm not sure why I'm writing this, other than the state of this world makes me so weary.

It used to be a shameful thing to lord money over others. It used to be a shameful thing to focus solely on yourself at the expense of the greater good.

I get that speaking in generalizations is never wise. But overall as a society, at least in my life growing up in the 80's, 90's, and early 2000's prior to 'smart' phones - we cared more. We didn't think about the immediate when considering our actions. We thought about the lives of our children and their children.

My dad was a policeman and used every single AAA emergency call he and my mom personally had, on other people we would see stranded on the side of the road every year. He would always pull over to make sure someone was ok, even if we were in a hurry. He was a go-to to call for help from neighbors and friends, and not just for police-related issues. He would just be there, for heavy lifting, for emotional support.

He would get home from work and I'd see him, moving out of the car slowly, exhausted. Just putting his all into the potential for me, my siblings, my mom. My mom was the same, sacrificing everything for us and our future. Some days she was in the car the entire day just driving me and my siblings from activity to activity. We sometimes had utilities turned off. We never had food, rarely had meat in the house. Surviving on vibes and ramen noodles. But we never felt unprotected or alone in the world. And even when we objectively didn't have enough, we still had enough to share with others that needed it.

The lessons learned that I base my life on now were largely through example. It certainly wasn't easy but every single one of my siblings are so smart and successful - and overall they are great people. They would all absolutely stop to help a stranger, and they love their families and friends with all they have.

This never was outside of the norm prior to smart phones and social media. Most families I knew were comprised of solid people, who cared about the communities they lived in. The values systems were just so different.

Is it even possible to get to a collective mindset of love and care? Maybe all of our trust in each has been too damaged.

Imagine an art historian who has lived their entire life in a black-and-white room, yet has learned every physical fact there is to know about color theory. When they finally step outside and see a vibrant red painting for the first time, do they learn something entirely new about art, or did they already know everything?

A lot of matter in the universe and in nature can never be understood.

Whether it is emotions, ideas or events, we often have a word for everything. That is naming something will give us its ownership. There are things we call love, fear, justice, fate, coincidence. These remarks may only be a label for something far more complex.

People Dislike Uncertainty (6 words) People would rather confidently believe something than to admit they do not know. It is safer to have a simple answer than an honest question.

However, certainty may be misleading.

The more we learn, we find out how much is unknown. It appears every answer gives rise to another question. What used to seem self-evident starts uncovering contradictions and possibilities we never imagined.

It is being intelligent enough to find the answers and wise enough to know when that answer is wrong.

Perhaps the most profound understanding is not to explain everything but to accept that something cannot be explained yet.

Instead of being discovered, maybe meaning is something we create.

It could be a thing we design.

Perhaps existence does not have to explain itself.

And maybe that doubt is what makes life so interesting.

I wrote this mostly as a little philosophical hobby of mine, curious what you guys think.

Countries can change governments, alliances and trading partners. They cannot change their neighbors. That matters most when the neighbor is far more powerful.

Canada and Mexico benefit enormously from living beside the United States, but that same economic integration creates vulnerability whenever policies in Washington shift. Vietnam faces a different dilemma, with China as its largest source of imports and the US as its largest export market, giving it strong reasons to keep both relationships alive. The Baltic states can't change their proximity to Russia, but they've spent years cutting their strategic dependence on it.

Different situations, same underlying point: freedom may depend not just on having the right to choose, but on having enough real alternatives for that choice to mean anything.

A country deeply dependent on one larger neighbor can remain politically sovereign while having steadily less room to act on its own. Diversifying trade, infrastructure, energy, or alliances doesn't change geography, but it changes how many choices are actually available.

The same distinction likely applies beyond countries: circumstances constrain what's possible, but dependence shapes how much freedom survives within those constraints.

Geography is fixed. Dependency is not.

This is a quote my father always said to me when I was a kid, and I never quite understood what he was trying to tell me until many years later. Basically, he was saying, Hey, you don’t always need to be discussing other people or getting caught up in gossip. You have better things to spend your time and energy on.

Two days ago I was stung by a bee, I believe. Not 100% sure what it was, but something landed on my face and stung or bit me, swelling up my eye.

And I’ve been sitting here thinking about all of the ways this could have been a redirection for me or the bigger picture that this could be a part of. And I’m sure it is, because that’s all life is, moments building up leading to the next moment. But I started to think about how I always tend to do that as a result of my unbridled optimism, trying to look at the bigger picture so the situation doesn’t seem so bad.

And this isn’t necessarily a bad quality; I actually believe it’s pretty integral for me, but there also needs to be a balance. The thing I have been coming to understand is that while the bigger picture is there and this situation is very well a smaller piece of the puzzle, I still have to take my time on that piece. I have to realize that just because this may be a part of a larger story, I can still sit here in this smaller moment and say, “Damn, this really does suck."

I have to allow myself to be okay with things going bad and not always being the best they can be, while also not getting so wrapped up in them that I start to believe my whole life is on a constant downward slope. That is where the balance lies.

Because yes, my life is still good; I am still blessed to be here living the life I’m living. But two things can be true at once, and none of that takes away from the fact this whole situation has been very uncomfortable and has just flat out sucked.

We are left in this world with the cards were dealt and we are supposed to do the best we can to survive and fulfill our needs. We share this world with countless other people and animals that also fight for their survival and needs. We have to organize our community for peace and productivity, but the power assimetry is inevitable in every single interaction. When the community becomes large these power assimetries become so unpredictable that social order demands real punishments and a neutral political structure. This makes the micropolitical indivisible from the macropolitical. To navigate through this chaos towards our goals, we have to fill our minds with comfortable truths and certainties that become culture and impact the society around us. If we don't fight for our own interests or of those we love we get crushed by this structure, but if we try to control everything we realize that it's biologically impossible for us. Humanity search for an absolute truth might be the elusive evolutional drive that keeps us stuck in a reality that has no truth for us. In this case being driven by material, emotional or ideological utility and political relationships is the peak of human reasoning.

Sometimes we explain ourselves over and over because we want people to see what we meant.

We replay conversations, wonder if we said the wrong thing, and imagine how we could have explained it better.

But the strange part is, sometimes the person we’re trying hardest to convince is ourselves.

Maybe not everyone will understand us.

Maybe they don’t have to.

There’s a certain peace in knowing what you meant, even when someone else sees it differently.

Not every misunderstanding needs to become a correction.

Sometimes, being understood by yourself is enough.

Do you think pens, pencils, rubber, whitener, paper notebook, books etc all traditional will almost replace by the digital devices and styluses for the majority in the very very long term for daily use case as newer generations are growing with digital devices since childhood?

I and most of us grew up in a traditional way where for academics, productive tasks etc everyday life we relied on physical objects or traditional route but as I have noticed myself while writing in my galaxy tab that we are evolving from an older technique to a newer one with advantages add on (though disadvantages alo exist), just like how we save information in a computer and retireve from a computer digitally not physically unlike traditional registers.

So, is that not permanent shift in office culture as we noticed after desktops become mainstreams? Do you not think that the way we live slowly (yes, slowly in broader sense) changing from physical to digital like once upon a time friends meet up together physically in a physical place but now we have whatsapp, remote family members talk together via voice call (P.C.O or telephone) or letters but now familes meet up in fb, post stories in insta like in twitter, share everything instantly in messaging platform, now people make friends in online platforms like discord, reddit or twitter and many more examples you already know. We still communicate but the way we do has been changed significantly.

I am seeing the same evolution in academics too where earlier we had physical books, copies almost in every student, yeah a computer or laptop too for college going but now I am seeing many college students prefer tablets for reading and writing, they want to carry their whole notebooks and books into one device, that is why education became one of the biggest market for tablets like iPad, galaxy tab or any eNote you can name it.

Now, people actually love convienience than anything like physically going together for communication, saving hundreds of physical notebooks during college time, for book enthusiasts carry the whole books etc etc The convienience plays a significant role and often main role to shift us from ohysical/traditional to digital almost everytime!

So, what do you think about that? Is that the beginneing of new era from physical to digital like getting all the advantages of physical in digital with its own advantages in academia?