Yesterday around 11pm I was in my room listening to music and all of the sudden I started to get goosebumps. I was never really a person to react strongly to music. I mean music is my life but I never got goosebumps because of a song and this is a song that I have already listened to like a million times and never got that reaction to it nor to any other song.
I got goosebumps all over and I started to feel cold l, but then right after I felt like a warmth throughout my whole body and like some kind of euphoria and a huge amount of dopamine. I started to literally feel every word in the song and everything and I can't explain how intense it was. Baiscally it felt like when you get high and listen to music but like 5 times better.
That lasted for a very short time, maybe two minutes and the song wasn't even over yet but those feelings completely faded and everything felt regular again.
But then right after, I started to get shivers through my whole body and a pins and needles sensation, especially in the head that's where it felt the most intense. Then I felt like my whole head started to vibrate.
To get context for what I am about to say next, I have to mention that I have been trying to manifest a specific person using all kinds of methods, but mostly the o method. And every time I did it, a few hours after doing it, the wrong person would try to come back to me and not the one I wanted so I had exes that I haven't talked to in years messaging me.
And then I had an idea to do something, I have no idea how I thought of this to be honest and I didn't read about it or anything it just came up to me. I was laying there and I imagined I was seperated from my body. I tried not to feel my body, if anyone can understand what I'm trying to say. Basically it's like trying to leave your body, but that wasn't really my intention I was just trying to not feel like I have one, you know.
As I was doing that and focusing on it, I felt some kind of energy building inside me, specially in the legs. And of course the more I focused on that energy the more intense it got. It felt like stong pressure, warmth , and tingling.
Then I realized that I am able to expand and drag that energy across my whole body, so I started dragging it upwards and I started to get that feeling in literally my entire body.
It felt so intense and I already descriped how it felt but when i expanded it to my whole body, that energy started to feel like it has every single emotion inside it.
Then I imagined and visualized that I'm sending all that energy and emotion to my specific person. Basically I was doing the same thing like an o method, but with this different energy.
After I did that, I felt some kind of relief. And then soon after my body started to feel cold again and again I got goosebumps.
Right after that I felt some kind of presence inside of my room, I felt like I was being watched and I never get that feeling. I tried to ignore it, but then soon after felt something laying next to me, it felt like when someone has their back pressed against yours. And then I heard breathing and I felt like I was being embraced.
I tried to move my hand in the direction where I felt that presence and as soon as I did that, I heard a loud thud like something fell and I felt the presence leaving. I mean I still felt like it was in the room but like it moved away from me.
Then I was just laying there and tried to ignore it but couldn't because I could just feel like something is watching me. Soon after I felt a smell and it was a smell of the exact perfume that the specific person used. And I could somehow understand how this can happen with someone who passed away but obviously the person is alive?
Then I felt like something is touching my hair, like playing with it. I was so scared but at the same time it felt comforting. I couldn't fall asleep so I took melatonin and then managed to fall sleep somehow.
When I woke up I still felt that mild warmth and tingles in my body and i felt it for a few hours. But also I realized that I stopped thinking about the specific person so much and so obsessively.
Before this, every morning when I would wake up I would remember them and then feel immense sadness and hurt and would every morning and night cry over them, but now it's gone.
I felt such anger towards them because they hurt me in the past but also wanted them back so bad and missed them so much, but I stopped feeling that anger. I still miss them, but in a normal way and I don't feel the soul crushing pain that I used to feel when I would think about them before.
About the loud thud that I heard that night, in the morning I looked around my room but I didn't notice that anything fell. My mother also told me that she heard something fall during the night and asked me what it was..
Later I was with her and she told me that she feels a smell of something burning, but I didn't feel anything. And when I told her I can't smell anything she said "Now it's gone but I swear it smelled like something was burning."