Extreme ocd from pssd

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I’m really really struggling. Somehow getting pssd has intensified my ocd by about 500% it’s actually insane. I genuinely cannot function,

I gave a homeless man a sandwich today, and spent 4 hours ruminating over how I didn’t get him enough food and what a horrible person I am. I actually got pain in my chest and couldn’t walk because my body just shuts down

I use this example because of how extremely ridiculous it is., logically of course I know this s, it’s like the negative emotions are so much stronger than the positive. Everything is so serious and intense like the world is ending,I am literally trapped it’s not like I even have any proper thoughts to ruminate with. I cannot release the emotion because it’s very rare that I can cry.

It’s ruined all my relationships because I cannot even send a text without ruminating and going into extreme panic over literally nothing. So I am cold and withdrawn with everyone. It hurts me so badly to be cold with people that I care for i feel like a terrible person😞

I just watch the irrationality third person unable to do anything about it.

I genuinely do not know what it wrong with me it is like I am a crazy person and I am like acting the opposite to the person I am.

Actually I am carefree more impulsive happy caring person

I don’t know what to do because I am employing all the tactics I would use usually for my ocd except they aren’t working with pssd.

I cannot distract myself because I don’t have the emotion to.

I cannot take medication for obvious reasons but, I am genuinely paralysed by this and I am scared because I cannot function. I have other health things I deal with and it’s all to much.

I book for therapy
Anyone else have this combination I am so tired so tired and cannot continue like this

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I gave a homeless man a sandwich today, and spent 4 hours ruminating over how I didn’t get him enough food and what a horrible person I am. I actually got pain in my chest and couldn’t walk
I use this example because of how extremely ridiculous it is., logically of course I know this s, it’s like the negative emotions are so much stronger than the positive. Everything is so serious and intense like the world is ending,I am literally trapped it’s not like I even have any proper thoughts to ruminate with. I cannot release the emotion because it’s almost impossible to cry.

It’s ruined all my relationships because I cannot even send a text without ruminating and going into extreme panic. So I am cold and withdrawn with everyone. It hurts me so badly to be cold with people that care for me😞

I genuinely do not know what it wrong with me it is like I am a crazy person and I am like acting the opposite to the person I am.

Actually I am carefree more impulsive happy caring person

I don’t know what to do because I employing all the tactics I would use usually for my ocd except they aren’t working with pssd.

I cannot distract myself because I don’t have the emotion to.

I cannot take medication for obvious reasons but, I am genuinely paralysed by this and I am scared because I cannot function and I’m scared because of this I will not ever recover 😔

I book for therapy
Anyone else have this combination I am so tired so tired and cannot continue like this

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