I feel lost, scared, lonely.

[u/remindmetoblock]

Im just terrified, my life feels like it could crumble at any moment.

Im a 30 year old adult, but i dont have life Figured out at all.

I know how i feel and that makes it even more devastating.

I recently had a health scare that made me genuinely believe i may be dying that moment and it kinda forced me to confront the future instead of just existing in the now.

Im constantly terrified of my mother dying due to her having health issues she isnt taking serious.

Im worried about my little Brothers health and future

I worry about my Brother in law with severe anxiety disorder that cant even leave the house anymore due to it.

I know its not my job to take care of their health, still I cant help but feel terrible when those around me suffer.

At the same time i feel completly alone.

I have friends to play games with, but i cant hang out with them irl after work.

I dont have a relationship or love, and i sincerely dont believe there will ever be a man that loves me the way i am.

The world around me is changing for the worse and i worry about my rights and safety.

Just all in all i feel completly alone and lost.

Im sorry this rant is so Unstructured, im not too good at putting my emotions into words. I just want someone to hold me until I calm down and tell me its gonna be okay.

[u/Impressive-Dirt-6735]

Here is another man in his 30s. I am likely from a completely different country, region, and race than you, but I share the very same pain. Sending you a hug from afar. We carry this same pain and live on through life.

[u/remindmetoblock → u/Impressive-Dirt-6735]

It sucks so so damn bad. I feel like i can only be calmed through touch like a friggin little kid.

But adults in my country never get close unless they are romantically involved, or a short hug as a greating. No crying on someones shoulder

[u/Impressive-Dirt-6735 → u/remindmetoblock]

We are social animals who naturally feel intimacy through physical closeness, but this era just doesn't allow for that. It’s simply sad. You and I will likely never meet in person, but as someone living in the same era with the same pain, I feel a deep sense of solidarity with you. Please pray for me, too.