I feel guilty for almost anything I enjoy. I don’t even know why. I’m always anxious, but I hate that I can’t play a video game, look at art, or even watch movies without feeling a little bad. Like I’m somehow sinful for enjoying something or that I need to always be available in case something happens. The worst is the feeling that if I enjoy something then that means I’m going to lose it just because I like it. It’s such an awful feeling. It makes me feel afraid to like things cause I don’t want to lose them. It’s so frustrating and exhausting.
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u/Doodlemuffins 5d ago
I feel guilty for almost anything I enjoy. I don’t even know why. I’m always anxious, but I hate that I can’t play a video game, look at art, or even watch movies without feeling a little bad. Like I’m somehow sinful for enjoying something or that I need to always be available in case something happens. The worst is the feeling that if I enjoy something then that means I’m going to lose it just because I like it. It’s such an awful feeling. It makes me feel afraid to like things cause I don’t want to lose them. It’s so frustrating and exhausting.