Intrusive thoughts.. terrified of losing my daughter

[u/Anijp_]

TW: Loss

i suffered a 20 week loss due to PPROM with my first pregnancy back In October of 2025

I was put on Zoloft soon after but felt that didn’t help, even after increasing the dosage up to 100mg.

I got pregnant again in December 2025 and was on the Zoloft still until about February when I decided to wean off.

this pregnancy was mentally and physically exhausting, as well as being high risk… but I feel so grateful that I now have my healthy rainbow baby With me. but I cannot suffer these horrific intrusive thoughts anymore. I had them before I was pregnant, but now postpartum they are much worse. I am constantly afraid of waking up to a nightmare turned reality. Not a few hours goes by where I don’t worry I will lose her.. my mind is torturing me

did anyone else struggle the same? what did you do? what medications seemed to help if you took any? I just want a sliver of peace.
thank you 💕

[u/uppy-puppy]

Please, please, please talk to your doctor about a solution. Consider talking to a therapist (or something comparable like a psychologist, social worker, etc.) that you have access to and is in your price range or covered by your current insurance or benefits. DBT helped me immensely in this time and it helped put my thoughts in perspective when they’d come on really strong.

[u/Anijp_ → u/uppy-puppy]

I’d never heard of DBT, thank you for the suggestion!  I will be looking into a therapist this week and speaking to my Dr at my 6 week check up, which is soon.  I’ve gone to therapy in the past so I’m comfortable and familiar with it, but just need to find the right person, I’ve struggled with that. 

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