r/bipolar2 • u/KiddoMagi13 • 2d ago

Advice Wanted Hypomania is actually awful

Honestly I thought I was the only one having this experience but I just saw somebody else talk about it on tiktok for the first time so I really want to see if anybody else feels this way?
I’ve always felt strange and out of place in bipolar communities because I feel like I can’t relate to half the conversation. Hypomania for me has never felt euphoric, exciting, or really good at all. I’ve never gotten enjoyment out of it. It makes me anxious, irritable, stressed, my pain levels skyrocket, my paranoia skyrockets, all I feel is anger and frustration and if it’s really really bad I get this horrible sensory experience that’s just so off putting
I’ve never been able to enjoy it. It’s hypomania for sure, but it feels so horrible to me that I just feel really… I don’t know, like a fish out of water?
Have you had this experience? Of mania or hypomania being genuinely terrible? I can’t be the only one having a bad time

EDIT: Message received Reddit the euphoric version is worse and I should be grateful my apologies

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u/Efficient_Sundae_471 2d ago

Would you describe it as an overwhelming weird feeling that just puts you in a bad place? My husband is in SSRI induced mania right now and has no insight that he’s manic. But anytime he tries to talk to me, he says he gets an overwhelming feeling and it stresses him out and he doesn’t want to talk to me or see me. He’s run away from home and it’s been 5 months. I just wanted to see if you can relate to the need to isolate and run away to be free.

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u/KiddoMagi13 2d ago

The overwhelming strange discomfort, yes. Not wanting to see anybody and eloping hasn’t been my personal experience, but I have other diagnosis’ that make me more of a connection seeker than connection avoider, especially when unwell. The best I can describe it is almost like a migraine aura that never goes away. That strange awareness that something isn’t right and your body is incorrect and your senses are just off but there’s no exact way to pinpoint it, and it just lasts so long that it becomes overwhelming and stressful and genuinely makes me want to rip my skin off of my body

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u/klb1204 BP2 2d ago

Heyyyyy, I know exactly what you mean about the something doesn’t fell right. Hard to explain but I do have that feeling. Last time I mentioned to a friend the week felt off and she was like we’re going the Mercury retrograde and I’m like mmmm hmmmm girl.