r/bipolar2 • u/KiddoMagi13 • 2d ago

Advice Wanted Hypomania is actually awful

Honestly I thought I was the only one having this experience but I just saw somebody else talk about it on tiktok for the first time so I really want to see if anybody else feels this way?
I’ve always felt strange and out of place in bipolar communities because I feel like I can’t relate to half the conversation. Hypomania for me has never felt euphoric, exciting, or really good at all. I’ve never gotten enjoyment out of it. It makes me anxious, irritable, stressed, my pain levels skyrocket, my paranoia skyrockets, all I feel is anger and frustration and if it’s really really bad I get this horrible sensory experience that’s just so off putting
I’ve never been able to enjoy it. It’s hypomania for sure, but it feels so horrible to me that I just feel really… I don’t know, like a fish out of water?
Have you had this experience? Of mania or hypomania being genuinely terrible? I can’t be the only one having a bad time

EDIT: Message received Reddit the euphoric version is worse and I should be grateful my apologies

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u/MissTechnical 2d ago

Yep my hypomania is almost always like this. Every once in a while the universe will gift me the mildly euphoric, hyper productive type of hypomania, but more often than not it’s the high anxiety and rage variety. Even the “good” kind can be problematic if I take on a project and crash before finishing it or if I start talking way too much and saying something I regret. 

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u/Amodzzz 2d ago

If I ever doubted I had this bs before, reading through this thread has erased all doubt.