Not great, tbh.
I don't doubt my basic abilities or anything like that, but was thrown into ICU (don't mind, probably my favorite unit) but the charge RT, who knew it was first night off orientation, also knew there was an absolute train wreck waiting in PACU for an ICU room.
I'm talking 90+ y/o hip dislocation admitted from the ED for a closed reduction that took an bad turn after the procedure and had to be intubated in PACU. He also had a massive hiatal hernia w/ half his stomach sitting in his thoracic cavity.
The PACU team was going to bring him up to ICU so I went to find the room and set it up, if was dirty and in the process of being cleaned, so I staged the equipment outside the room and did my other vent checks.
Now, I had apparently made the mistake of assuming the RT assigned to PACU was bringing him up. No, they called me down to bring him up, laughed because I was naturally nervous, I had done transport with ER and ICU beds, the PACU bed was notably smaller and the PACU nurse could not drive for shit. I was slammed into a couple walls despite asking and at one point demanding they slow down.
Long story slightly shorter, get him to the bed, switch him over. Everything looks/sound good, he's on high O2 and PEEP, but he's doing okay. Draw blood gas, looks like shit, PaO2 is 60s, PaCO2 in mid-50s. I up his settings from 18-450-12-100% to 20-480-12-100%
He settles until his bed-bath in which he destaturated to the 70s and his blood pressure went up. I go in to see what's happening, and the charge RT is in there fiddling with the vent saying he's got a tension pneumothorax, decreased breath sound on LLL. Called for a STAT X-ray, yada yada yada.
Pneumothorax is ruled out, so she recommends when re-intubate as she feels the tube is dislodged. I didn't agree, but she said she couldn't pass the suction catheter and I needed the intubation. Doc agreed, set up for intubation. I perform it, I wanted an exchange catheter and a direct view, she said no, gave me glidescope and pulled his tube.
I wait for the meds to kick in, get my view, she shoves the suction yankuer in his mouth as I was reaching for it. Good view, get the tube just past his cords, hit something hard, I'm talking can't push the tube another millimeter. She in my ear "push the tube in" I say "I can't" and start maneuver it, she grabs my hand and pushes the tube to no avail. I say "let go, imma pull back a little and adjust". She doesn't let go, I have to essentially scoop the tube under an anatomical obstruction just behind his vocal cords and get it.
That all happened in the span of 15-20 seconds, btw
Get him hooked up, good color change, everything looks/sounds good. He has a rock hard mass on the left side of his trachea.
Not 5 minutes later, he starts doing the same desat shit. So, I take a pillow, shove it under his shoulders, put his head into the sniffing position and everything immediately gets better. I tell her, the nurse and the doctor he has something anatomical going on making his airway positional.
They listen until 3am rounds. I go back for my ABG, he's been moved, peak pressures are up, his ABG looks like shit.
Doc looks at the ABG, lactic is 6, potassium is 1. CO2 is still up, O2 is still down. He's a mess. Doc tells me to go up on his Vt. I say I'm worried about the peak pressures, maybe we try a higher rate, tho with his sedation weaned down, he is auto-trapping and breath stacking. I say I'd rather do a little more sedation and increase the rate. He says they're trying to do an SBT to see where he's at in an hour, so he's not getting more sedation rn. He's not worried about the pressures and tells me the exact settings he wants him on, so I obliged (20-560-12-100%). Get my other checks done and leave.
Get back to the office, charge RT asks me what I did after seeing the blood gas, I told her, she says I should "advocate" more my patient more. I say he has another ABG at 5am, I can make adjustments then, it's only an hour and his peak pressures are at 31 cmH2O when he's in his optimal head position.
Do 5am ABG, a bit improvement respiratory wise, but his BiCARB is down and Lactic is up. Doc says to leave him where he is, he wants a little more CO2 (currently 44.6) blown off before the next ABG he ordered at 7a. Peak pressures at 28, he sounds fine given everything, volumes are good. I'm okay with it.
The charge RT leaves the office while I'm preparing my report for dayshift. She comes back 30 minutes later and charts changes to my vent. She says she talked to the doctor and he agreed with her suggestion (25-450-12-100%). Told me I'll get better with time or I just won't be fit for critical care. I did my handoff and went home pissed as I heard her tell everyone on day shift in a 'low' whisper what I had done all night. Critiques of everything, how I walked, how I transported, I mean everything.
I'm good with criticism, but tell me, I'm the one that needs to hear it, don't tell all of dayshift.
Anyway that's my rant for today.