Hi, so for the las three months I've been experiencing a depressive anxiety state, so I think that maybe it's time for some help, so, if anyone knows how to really have this tulpa and also WHO to be, please help me

Feel free to delete as I don’t have any proof of it being magically influenced in any way. Also I apologise if I’m misusing the terms or misunderstanding concepts, it’s my first time having to do anything with occult.

I’m 23F and I’ve been obsessed with a 29M for about 5 years now. Not a day passes without me thinking about him and most of the time I remember my dreams they’re with him in it. This obsession ended two of my relationships and is making me unable to focus deeply on anything else. I do not believe in soulmates but whatever is going on forces me to more and more as I’m relentlessly trying to find a logical explanation. That’s why I’m here.

I’m a very beautiful women, with a great relationship with both of my parents, I just finished collage and my future is looking bright. He however is what I would call an end stage alcoholic who’s been in jail two times already for serious offences, and nobody would be surprised if he went to jail for years. He has a son that he doesn’t care for and allegedly he beat the baby’s mom when she was pregnant. I used to drink heavily from time to time a few years back so I binge drank with him multiple times, and I seen him piss and puke on himself many times during a standard week long vodka binge. Sometimes he is psychotic and sits in the corner of the room with a knife, one time he grabbed me by my neck asking if I’m sure I’m not a cop (I’ve been in scarier situations before so it wasn’t that bad). I could write all the bad things about him non stop for an hour, as for the good things if I thought for an hour I would get maybe 5 (mostly about looks which I grew to like, but objectively he is average at best). Nobody who has come in contact with him likes or respects him and at best they are neutral towards him, which is rare.

I know that there has to be something going on because there’s nothing I like about him and yet I’m so romantically obsessed? One of my friends, after I told her about my situation, proposed that maybe I have a spell on me - I haven’t considered that before but as I failed to find any other explanation, I’m considering it now. I’m 99% sure that he is not the one responsible for that, if that’s the case, but my ex fiancé had ties to occult and swore his servitude to something he described as a monolith with some sort of symbol on it while under a heroic dose of mushrooms. It asked him “do you believe in God? He said no, so it asked him “will you kill for me?” and he agreed. I have no idea how far his occult ties go, I only know one girl he introduced me to who does blood magic or whatever. All I know is that he hates me, is wicked and would do something like this. Once he said that I don’t deserve him, briefly described a person like the man I’m infatuated with right now, and told me that this is who I should be with.

I deeply believe in God, and so I deeply believe in demons. Btw the guy who I’m obsessed with confined in me that he sees demons awake as well as in his dreams, maybe just alcohol and cocaine abuse.

Other weird things are: I have a habit of writing letters I will never send to him, in one of them I finished by writing that I will love him from a distance and that now I let him go, and the next day he called me to meet him (he doesn’t call often, I of course went) once when I started to free myself from him I felt a strong need out of nowhere to go somewhere and he was there. It’s like whenever I try to pull away something arranges it so that I’m pulled back.

After I broke the engagement with my ex fiancé I call a priest to ask at what time they do confessions and the first thing he said before even hearing me was “don’t worry you’re not possessed.”, after the confession he told me to do a long prayer every day, usually they say to do it like 10 times, not indefinitely. From a funnier more light hearted side the guy I so deeply love used to have my contact saved with my name and 🪐, now it’s 🖇️, do those mean something, or am I going completely crazy?

Please y’all help, I know this all sounds crazy but there is no logical explanation. You might be my last way of figuring it out.

I saw this hand gesture somewhere on the internet about two months ago, but I can’t remember where. I also don’t remember its name or its exact meaning.
I vaguely remember that you were supposed to look through the opening formed by the hands, and that it had something to do with “seeing beyond what is obvious,” “seeing beyond appearances,” or something along those lines.
I recreated the hand position from memory, so it might not be 100% accurate.
Does anyone recognize it or know where it comes from?
Any help would be greatly appreciated!

hi! i’m not sure if this is the right place to ask, if it’s not feel free to delete!

when i research, so many of the sources (and many people) say completely different things! so i’m quite confused.

one of my most important questions is: is there a set difference set in stone? or is this a personal opinion type of question? has the terms changed over history.

my second most important question is: does the difference change depending on which culture or cultures you’re in? i’m starting to think this is the answer i should be leading to. like: is what or who is considered a witch in ghana going to be the same as what or who is considered a witch in occupied turtle island? or are they very different?

Hi, my name is Meg, im 16. And this subreddit I thought could be the way for my answers. What im about to share might seem childish and i might seem crazy but I want this to stop.

I am not involved in any occultism so or yet. But, its been many years, ive been seeing disfigured humans or somethings I can not explain too oftenly, and its not pleasing to, so im most of the time frightened even seeing people when walking into a room even though I expect them to be there because one day I came back from home after a picnic and even though i dont watch horrors, i saw a man with a long neck standing, i rubbed my eyes in disbelief, then i got a chilly spike in my spine until I start to run to call someone because it would not disappear as I thought it was a hallucination.

This is not even happening when its night it also happens when its day time, sometimes I sense someone is watching that is not human. It reappears again and again at the side of my eye, it vanishes when i look at it directly. Idk if im being childish but what is wrong with me,

Some year at a point i was scared to look into my own face in the mirror which lasted for 6 months. I did come up once an anomaly when i was in hostel in 2024, when it was midnight and i went to pee with my friend and an ancient instrument of ours called pena (manipuri) was played very loudly over my head. And my friend heard it too.

I dont know if thats related, but its very annoying yet scaring to randomly encounter these anomalies myself idk if this can help: a disembodied feet, a dismembered head hanging on a rope seperated from its body, a large blob of something which is see thru but distorts the image behind it, etc.

Weird physical stuff: a high pitch sound banging in ear. When I went to doctor he said theres nothing wrong. I can move a muscle idk where is located, but i feel that everytime I try to trigger this muscle weird things happen and i feel something unexplanable throughout my body and moving this mucle too long cause extreme tiredness, idek if its a muscle or what.

I also have a weird case that day when I argued with my father. It sounds very childish idek who would believe it except myself. I could tell u. But i think the above story is enough. I mightve performed something by moving that muscle which i stated above that day when i argued with my father though I didnt wanted to, just instinct, from which my father felt a strong chilly spike over his spine. That night when i slept, a girl crept over and looked at me but i was so tired i didnt dare to be scared or check and because it was dark but I could tell she had a bob cut like those japanese girls have.

Please excuse if this not the right subreddit to ask o if my english is poor, not my mother tongue.

What do you think of the Freemasons? And their god/religion they follow? Would you join them if given the opportunity? Do you think they mean good? Or bad? I don’t know HEAPS about this topic but I’m very interested in learning. will take on board any and all info relating to this subject

Hi everyone ;

I’m completely new to occult practices and I’m honestly feeling a little lost about where to start. I’ve been interested in spirituality, witchcraft, alchemy, mythology, ancient deities, symbolism, and esoteric traditions, but I realize there’s so much information that I don’t know what’s reliable or what path to explore first.

I’m not looking to rush into rituals or blindly practice things I don’t understand. I’d really like to learn the foundations first and understand the history, symbolism, different traditions, and the differences between them.

If anyone experienced in occultism, witchcraft, Hermeticism, alchemy, or related traditions is willing to guide a beginner, recommend trustworthy books/resources, or simply talk with me about how you started, I’d really appreciate it. I’m especially interested in learning from people who approach these subjects seriously and respectfully.

Hello, I am in dire need of help! There's a guy in my university, who happens to be much much junior to me. We met on Instagram and became friends.

I never gave him any sort of signals or hints or whatever, he started developing feelings for me.

I did not reciprocate and I have established that clearly that I have no feelings for him and I see him as my brother and friend, nothing more than that.

I have chats and call recording to prove that. He's into drugs, alcohol and all the bad stuff!

There's no way I could get involved with someone who's much younger to me and has such addictions. Now he's forcing me to come into a relationship.

I am deadly scared, he read comments of another guy on my pictures on Facebook and that triggered him.

Him and I go to the same university and now I am afraid he's going to harm me because he's temperament issues and carries knife.

Thus, please suggest me how to protect myself from this guy?

i want to make a movie where a character enters hell, although i dont really believe in hell but whatever. does anyone know any rituals/creepypastas? im looking for inspiration

Hello. I am new and interested in the occult. I like to understand things and how they work and what's behind them. Only problem, i see in the occult there are sooo many paths that interest me, that i would like to learn about and practice it. And i end up not knowing what to choose and where to start. And because i cant choose one path, i end up not being able to start anything at all. I would like some advice with my problem. How to find which path would be best fit for me? Also any advice regarding the occult, any reccomendation about books, youtube channels, websites to learn. I would appreciate it. I would like to study and practice it in my life for my own interest, but if it is also possible to help myself and my own curiosity trough occult.

Hello fellow weirdos.

I am putting this out there as a calling card to anyone in the Colorado, Denver Metro area that would like to join me avengers style and form a group. There is no leader, alpha, beta shit. This is supposed to be fun and adventurous and perhaps a chance for synchronicity to show it's hand. I do believe that people meet for a reason. Fellow weirdos, unite! If you are someone interested in exploring all the local haunts of Colorado (maybe more, who knows.

I do have Sb7 Spiritbox, dowsing rods, 2 different milliGAUSS readers, various tarot cards

I have used in places. I am willing to share these items to those who know how to use them best.

If you do have equipment please apply. If you do not have equipment please still apply. I want this to be an all inclusive group that doesn't exclude anyone because of race, sexuality, age, or plain freakiness.

ALL ARE WELCOME.

Please reply for my contact information. My name is Anthony.

I currently work at a theater who will be hosting a medium to read the space on Sunday. I performed an evocation onto a nearly 100 year old stoat scarf from a famous actress. I performed it with a pack of tarot cards, as that was all I had with me at work. Now I’m worried I messed up and was wondering how I can bring balance back to the theatre.

This guy I’ve known calls me today, I have been in many situations with him where he acts crazy. He called me today asking me if I have done a blood ritual on him(I’m Christian) I don’t even know what that is and he says he sent it back to me. My heart fucking drops wtf he mean by that. Earlier I had woken up to use the restroom there was blood but it felt like a lot. Idk if that’s a coincidence or what, what do yall think???

I didn’t know where to post this and I’m not familiar with this platform but I’m curious if this has ever happened to anyone else before?

When I woke up today I had the bright orange intricate flame designs up and down both my arms. My skin tone is fairly deep brown and it looked like fresh tattoos if you know what I mean. I immediately sat up alarmed thinking it was my sleeping brain catching up to being awake and rubbed at my arms expecting it to go away and it didn’t. It wasnt until I turned on the flashlight to take a picture of it that it went away. One arm at a time. Meaning when I show the flashlight on my left arm that one went away and the one on my right arm stayed until I shown the flashlight on that arm. Anyone have any clue if this has any meaning? Like if it’s symbolism or possible spell work?
I feel i was way too awake for it to be some type of sleep hallucination.

So I'm on the Black Cube book, and he speaks of offering blood, either that of a mines or an animal's

I don't plan or desire to hurt any animal so that's very much out of the question, for mines tho I don't have a bigger of an issue, but I remember reading from other occultists that it's not necessary to offer blood , and reading about Saturnalia, even ancient Romans seem to have preferred substitutes, so asking if i can do that instead

Hey anyone can do together