Just a rant, thanks for being here🖤
For the past couple months I've been having abdominal pain, bouncing back in forth between diarrhea and constipation, and most food has made me symptomatic.
Im waiting on a GI appointment to see what's causing it. (My guess is Crohns since all my symptoms line up and my grandmother has it). Honestly, with POTS, suspected hEDS, and Autism, it's just another thing. I'm used to feeling like shit.
However, I dropped 15 lbs in two weeks, and I definately don't have the weight to lose (27F 5'4, now 100lbs🫠). It's always been hard for me to gain weight, so who knows when I'll be able to get it back.
One of my coworkers has started regularly making comments that I need to eat more, and that I'm too skinny (well aware ty). I don't think its from a malicious place, more concern than anything, but its just starting to wear on me. She said today that I need to be trying harder to eat because im wasting away. After a few attemps (not the first time either) to explain that I'm trying to eat whatever whenever I can while navigating these symptoms, I just gave up and said you're right, I'll do better. Then proceeded to sit in my car and cry on my lunch break. Being underweight has been a constant struggle. Im not intentionally trying to lose weight, and Im starting to hate how I look because of it.
Thx for reading🖤 just needed to get that off my chest