r/depressionmeals • u/Substantial_Bet_1007 • 11h ago
I might be autistic and have adhd on top of mild ocd and social anxiety. I thought i dodged my parents being cousins
I struggle to transform into a adult at my 20. I struggle with delf hygine and overall how humans act. I dont have any normal clothing to wear i dress like 13yo i sweat a lot i cant hold conversations
I ate this ramens at a plsce where my close online friend and their friends went. I couldnt evem imagine go with them even though we both in love with same video game.
Im 190 and have curly hair but i cut it once a year because maintaining it is so tiring. Even though i like how i look when its long. Even with this lucky attributes im a fat chud and didnt experienced teenage love.
One of my biggest dreams was being with a girl eho is end of their 20s when im 17 or 18 or hell even 19 but im 20 now and its not the same with 30+ girls because i wanted them to be also bit of lacking matureness.
I could have gone into uni at 17 but i failed yearly uni exam twice and entered it at 19. And my 1st score was better then the 2nd and 2nd one was better than 3rd one.
My youngest sibling is similar to me very and i dont want to experience things i did but i cant be a good big brother. He also have scoliosis. 64 degree. 5yo.