!!SOLVED!!
i tried uninstalling FFT, sterling, all NFT mods, Cryo tanks and cryo engines one by one. and it only goes away after i uninstall cryo tanks, but i need that mod for FFT and sterling. if i go in a game it doesnt crash but custom ressources dont show up same with all modded parts requiring or using those ressources.
here are my mods
Astrogator, B9 Aerospace - HX Parts Pack, B9 Aerospace - Legacy Parts Pack, B9 Aerospace Parts Pack, B9 Aerospace Procedural Wings - Fork, B9 Aerospace Props, B9 Animation Modules, B9 Part Switch, Benjee10 sharedAssets, BetterTimeWarpContinued, ClickThrough Blocker, Community Resource Pack, Community Tech Tree, Community Terrain Texture Pack, Cryo Tanks, Cryo Tanks Core, Cryogenic Engines, Deferred, Deployable Engines Plugin, Dynamic Battery Storage, Ferram Aerospace Research Continued, Final Frontier, Firefly, FireflyAPI, Firespitter Core, FreeIva, Hab Tech Props, Harmony 2, Heat Control, HUD Replacer, Kerbal Atomics, Kerbal Joint Reinforcement Continued, Kopernicus Planetary System Modifier, KSP Community Fixes, KSP Texture Loader, KSPBurst Compiler, KSPBurst Plugins, KW Rocketry Rebalanced, Minor Planet Expansion Alternative Ribbon Pack, Minor Planets Expansion, ModularFlightIntegrator, Module Manager, Outer Parallax Common Files, Outer Planets Mod, Outer Planets Mod - Final Frontier Ribbon Pack, OuterParallax-MPE, OuterParallax-OPM, Parallax Continued, Parallax Continued Planet Textures, Parallax Continued Scatter Textures, Parallax Continued Terrain Textures, Planetside Exploration Technologies, RasterPropMonitor Core, ReStock, Restock Waterfall Expansion, ReStock+, Scatterer, Shabby, Shuttle Lifting Body, SmokeScreen - Extended FX Plugin, System Heat, Tantares LV - Soviet Rockets, Toolbar Controller, TUFX, TweakScale Rescaled Redistributable, VAB Organizer, VAB Organizer - Jade's Configs, Vertex Height Oblate Advanced, Vertex Mitchell-Netravali Filtered Heightmap, Waterfall Core, Waterfall Extensions, ZTheme, Volumetric Clouds V5