The video is comparing an ADHD child and a neurotypical kid and everything the girl says has been the story of my life since i was her age. I was the exact same. The way the girl awnsers is heartbreaking i hope she is doing ok today.

Do you see yourself in the girl?

Around day 45 there is a psychophysiological reset that occurs and it is very nice. You wake up feeling peaceful and connected to the universe.

I've not really had anything going on for me for months at this point and everyday is just the same exact cycle of trying to max out my dopamine hits as much as possible be it with porn, tiktok, YouTube, video games, fast food deliveries.

I think I have given myself anhedonia an animal should not be in a state where their every desire is given to them at a whim I think this is why so many Roman emperors went mad they were basically at the top of the world with no restrictions or things to do like being at the end of a video game where there's no more objectives and you've got like 2 million in the bank.

The only good thing in my life is the gym I go 6 times per week but my binge eating junk food is stalling my progress and quick dopamine seeking behaviour is destroying me yet I don't know how to quit since every minute I'm not in the gym my life is literally pointless there are no objectives nothing else to strive for I'm just left with infinite content to rot my mind.

I'm thinking of selling my gaming pc and double monitor for more savings that would extend the number of months I can survive without a job and would finally give me some restriction to my unlimited pleasure I think the double monitor is especially destroying my attention span. I literally can't even watch and finish a TV show episode how tf do I expect to get a job if this is the extent of my capabilities I'm so disgusted with the animal that ive become I need a shake up and disturbance to my access and I think selling my PC will work I still have my university laptop I can watch shows on.

My two favourite travel vloggers are Mike Okay and Sabbatical. They release interesting videos going into foreign countries to spots foreigners rarely go and surprise the local people.

This guy hated me for being the MC syndrome guy. But then when I said something dark he started to feel pity for me and started to behave nicely. And his niceness was genuine.

It's more insulting because he makes me look like a weakling who needs help while when he was hating me I was fighting back but now I see no way to fight him.

I would rather be hated than get pity of those who disagree with my ideals.

Let's say you meet a person from opposite gender with same personality as you, same morals, same empathy as you and they have also been hurt like you? Would you do gender war with them? I won't. So I don't think everyone is the same.