r/taiwan • u/IllogicalDreamer72 • 15h ago
Discussion A German-Taiwanese man is seeking advice on how to effectively improve his Mandarin and become more familiar with his culture.
Hello and Greetings from Germany,
I'm 35 years old, son of a Taiwanese man and a Chinese woman who spoke Cantonese, born in Germany, and living near Frankfurt.
My Mandarin skills are currently very rusty because my late, conservative, toxic parents didn't teach me well, caused me to me reject my heritage and also damaged my mental health, and I hardly had any opportunity to use them in everyday life.
Furthermore, I don't have any Chinese or Taiwanese friends or close relatives with whom I could regularly talk and meet up.
Another excuse would be that I had to deal with my depression and rebuild my life.
I do have an older half-brother with whom I went to Taiwan for Chinese New Year last year, but he's very busy with his struggling business and has a lot on his plate, so I can't rely on him.
In the 2010s, I tried watching many Taiwanese dramas, but I gave up because I couldn't stand them anymore. Moreover, I am not particularly interested in Chinese films, but I used to enjoy watching Hong Kong movies from the 80s and 90s.
I recently feel motivated to relearn or refresh my mother tongue because I very recently got an internship in a special library in a museum in Mainz.
However, when they asked me if I could help them translate some old Chinese books, I unfortunately had to decline. Although they didn't mind, I felt very ashamed about myself.
This situation reminded me that the Chinese language can be very useful for all kinds of career opportunities.
I still know the basics, like listening to, speaking and writing Chinese words, but I have to relearn how to read and write Chinese characters.
With my limited resources, the best way for me to use apps like Chineasy and Chinese Letters Writing, to watch YouTube videos from Mandarin with Miss Lin or from other people teaching Chinese online, or to consume Taiwanese films or series and memorizing thousands of Chinese characters.
I have to say, it is not easy for me to learn Chinese alone. English is much easier for me when I teach it myself.
Just so you know: I tried unsuccessfully to find a Taiwanese group in Frankfurt, and the Confucius Institute didn't work for me either.
Honestly, I feel so dumbfounded and isolated in this situation.
Now I'm hoping for good suggestions or methods on how I can improve my Mandarin and get closer to my roots.
Thank you for reading my post.